Black Rock by Ralph Connor (inspirational books for students TXT) 📖

‘The Lord of Hosts is with us; The God of Jacob is our refuge.’

How the mighty words pulled us together, lifted us till we grew ashamed of our ignoble rage and of our ignoble depression!

And then Craig prayed in simple, straight-going words. There was acknowledgement of failure, but I knew he was thinking chiefly of himself; and there was gratitude, and that was for the men about him, and I felt my face burn with shame; and there was petition for help, and we all thought of Nixon, and Billy, and the men wakening from their debauch at Slavin’s this pure, bright morning. And then he asked that we might be made faithful and worthy of God, whose battle it was. Then we all stood up and shook hands with him in silence, and every man knew a covenant was being made. But none saw his meeting with Nixon. He sent us all away before that.

Nothing was heard of the destruction of the hotel stock-in-trade. Unpleasant questions would certainly be asked, and the proprietor decided to let bad alone. On the point of respectability the success of the ball was not conspicuous, but the anti-League men were content, if not jubilant.

Billy Breen was found by Geordie late in the afternoon in his own old and deserted shack, breathing heavily, covered up in his filthy, mouldering bed-clothes, with a half-empty bottle of whisky at his side. Geordie’s grief and rage were beyond even his Scotch control. He spoke few words, but these were of such concentrated vehemence that no one felt the need of Abe’s assistance in vocabulary.

Poor Billy! We carried him to Mrs. Mavor’s home; put him in a warm bath, rolled him in blankets, and gave him little sips of hot water, then of hot milk and coffee; as I had seen a clever doctor in the hospital treat a similar case of nerve and heart depression. But the already weakened system could not recover from the awful shock of the exposure following the debauch; and on Sunday afternoon we saw that his heart was failing fast. All day the miners had been dropping in to inquire after him, for Billy had been a great favourite in other days, and the attention of the town had been admiringly centred upon his fight of these last weeks. It was with no ordinary sorrow that the news of his condition was received. As Mrs. Mavor sang to him, his large coarse hands moved in time to the music, but he did not open his eyes till he heard Mr. Craig’s voice in the next room; then he spoke his name, and Mr. Craig was kneeling beside him in a moment. The words came slowly—

‘Oi tried—to fight it hout—but–oi got beaten. Hit ‘urts to think ‘E’s hashamed o’ me. Oi’d like t’a done better—oi would.’

‘Ashamed of you, Billy!’ said Craig, in a voice that broke. ‘Not He.’

‘An’—ye hall—‘elped me so!’ he went on. ‘Oi wish oi’d ‘a done better—oi do,’ and his eyes sought Geordie, and then rested on Mrs. Mavor, who smiled back at him with a world of love in her eyes.

‘You hain’t hashamed o’ me—yore heyes saigh so,’ he said looking at her.

‘No, Billy,’ she said, and I wondered at her steady voice, ‘not a bit. Why, Billy, I am proud of you.’

He gazed up at her with wonder and ineffable love in his little eyes, then lifted his hand slightly toward her. She knelt quickly and took it in both of hers, stroking it and kissing it.

‘Oi haught t’a done better. Oi’m hawful sorry oi went back on ‘Im. Hit was the lemonaide. The boys didn’t mean no ‘arm—but hit started the ‘ell hinside.’

Geordie hurled out some bitter words.

‘Don’t be ‘ard on ‘em, Geordie; they didn’t mean no ‘arm,’ he said, and his eyes kept waiting till Geordie said hurriedly—

‘Na! na! lad—a’ll juist leave them till the Almichty.’

Then Mrs. Mavor sang softly, smoothing his hand, ‘Just as I am,’ and Billy dozed quietly for half an hour.

When he awoke again his eyes turned to Mr. Craig, and they were troubled and anxious.

‘Oi tried ‘ard. Oi wanted to win,’ he struggled to say. By this time Craig was master of himself, and he answered in a clear, distinct voice—

‘Listen, Billy! You made a great fight, and you are going to win yet. And besides, do you remember the sheep that got lost over the mountains?’—this parable was Billy’s special delight—‘He didn’t beat it when He got it, did he? He took it in His arms and carried it home. And so He will you.’

And Billy, keeping his eyes fastened on Mr. Craig, simply said—

‘Will ‘E?’

‘Sure!’ said Craig.

‘Will ‘E?’ he repeated, turning his eyes upon Mrs. Mavor.

‘Why, yes, Billy,’ she answered cheerily, though the tears were streaming from her eyes. ‘I would, and He loves you far more.’

He looked at her, smiled, and closed his eyes. I put my hand on his heart; it was fluttering feebly. Again a troubled look passed over his face.

‘My—poor—hold—mother,’ he whispered, ‘she’s—hin—the—wukus.’

‘I shall take care of her, Billy,’ said Mrs. Mavor, in a clear voice, and again Billy smiled. Then he turned his eyes to Mr. Craig, and from him to Geordie, and at last to Mrs. Mavor, where they rested. She bent over and kissed him twice on the forehead.

‘Tell ‘er,’ he said, with difficulty, “E’s took me ‘ome.’

‘Yes, Billy!’ she cried, gazing into his glazing eyes. He tried to lift her hand. She kissed him again. He drew one deep breath and lay quite still.

‘Thank the blessed Saviour!’ said Mr. Craig, reverently. ‘He has taken him home.’

But Mrs. Mavor held the dead hand tight and sobbed out passionately, ‘Oh, Billy, Billy! you helped me once when I needed help! I cannot forget!’

And Geordie, groaning, ‘Ay, laddie, laddie,’ passed out into the fading light of the early evening.

Next day no one went to work, for to all it seemed a sacred day. They carried him into the little church, and there Mr. Craig spoke of his long, hard fight, and of his final victory; for he died without a fear, and with love to the men who, not knowing, had been his death. And there was no bitterness in any heart, for Mr. Craig read the story of the sheep, and told how gently He had taken Billy home; but, though no word was spoken, it was there the League was made again.

They laid him under the pines, beside Lewis Mavor; and the miners threw sprigs of evergreen into the open grave. When Slavin, sobbing bitterly, brought his sprig, no one stopped him, though all thought it strange.

As we turned to leave the grave, the light from the evening sun came softly through the gap in the mountains, and, filling the valley, touched the trees and the little mound beneath with glory. And I thought of that other glory, which is brighter than the sun, and was not sorry that poor Billy’s weary fight was over; and I could not help agreeing with Craig that it was there the League had its revenge.