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very beginning of practice and the flip turn that Amanda did for Coach Sue near the end.

Mr. Griffin, with his bizarre ability to sense what was going on, started on this subject the next day.

“So Christy, how’s it going with Amanda?”

“She’s driving me nuts.”

“Why?”

“She’s weird.”

“How’s her swimming coming along?”

“It’s getting there. It seems like she’s not getting anything in practice. But then the next day she’ll come in way better.”

“You think she’s practicing during the day?” Jarod asked.

“Maybe. Guess that’s a benefit of not being in school. But sometimes I think she holds herself back just to piss me off.”

I didn’t dare share what Amanda told me the day before, but Christy must have caught the grin on my face. “She’s especially obnoxious when Kelvin’s around. I think she’s got a crush on him.”

A crush on me? Since when was anyone ever interested in me? Fortunately, Mr. Griffin took the conversation in a different direction. “You never put Amanda onto your cards, did you?” he asked.

“How did you know?”

Mr. Griffin sighed. “You must understand that the cards work on both the conscious and subconscious level. You begrudgingly decided to work with Amanda, but we all know it went against the grain of what you wanted deep down. Is it any wonder you’re feeling friction? Use the cards to get yourself in alignment.”

Christy pulled out her swimming card. “There,” she said, “I just added training Amanda among the steps I’ll take to win the championship. Happy?”

“Why should it matter if I’m happy?” Mr. Griffin asked. “How do you feel?”

“I can’t wait to get back in that pool and pulverize her.”

Mr. Griffin laughed. “Well, as we’ve all learned by now, sometimes the notecards take time.”

* * *

“I’ve got a problem,” Jarod said, just after the bell rang at the beginning of class.

“What’s that, Jarod?” Mr. Griffin asked. “I thought things were going well?”

“They are. Too well. I’m no longer stretching myself.”

“Ah, very astute, Jarod,” Mr. Griffin said, raising an eyebrow. “Does anyone else see the problem here?”

Christy asked, “Is it like in lifting weights, where you need to keep pushing yourself at the edge of your abilities to grow stronger?”

“Precisely. Growth rarely happens within your comfort zone,” Mr. Griffin said. “Once you grow yourself, you need to grow your goals as well, or else you’ll find yourself stagnating again.”

“I never thought I’d ask a teacher for this,” Jarod said, “but I want more homework.”

“Homework?”

“Yeah. Before, when I thought I was going to college, I figured I’d have plenty of time to figure stuff out. Now that I’m going into business for myself, there are tons of things I need to learn.”

“I know little about the landscaping business. What are you hoping I can teach you?”

“I guess how to find the answers within myself. That’s mainly what you’ve done so far. Haven’t you got any more tricks up your sleeve?”

“Tricks? Very well. If you want tricks, I’ll give you tricks.”

Chapter Fifteen
The Lovely Miss Monica

My pen was still moving when Mr. Griffin barked out, “Write another.”

I wrote the number 38 on the margin of the page, thought for just a split second, then wrote down, build a six-pack. I wasn’t sure where this goal had come from, I’d never been one to work out, nor was I all that into muscles. Before I could change it, Mr. Griffin said, “Another one.”

39. Take Megan to Fireman’s Carnival. We’d loved going when we were younger but hadn’t been in years. Why not go together?

We’d been at this the last half of class. It was our own fault—we shouldn’t have encouraged Mr. Griffin to push us further. All we’d done is write down goal after goal after goal. At first, I came up with all the obvious ones: get into the dorm I wanted at MIT, graduate with straight A’s this semester, etc. But it didn’t take long to run out of things I knew I wanted.

Yet, somehow, each time Mr. Griffin called for another goal, I thought of something to write, as if the goals had been sitting somewhere in my subconscious the entire time.

“Another.”

My hand was cramping up, but I wouldn’t quit. 40. Interview Monica Grey. Where had that idea come from? But as soon as I had it on paper, I knew it was something I’d wanted to do from the moment Christy told me about Monica’s antidepressants and bulimia.

“Pens down,” Mr. Griffin called. Pens hit desks with a clang. Darnell rubbed his palms, and I stretched my cramped fingers.

Mr. Griffin also had a list of goals in front of him, having kept pace with us throughout class. “The bell’s about to ring,” he said, “but it’s important to never leave a goal-making session without taking steps towards implementation.”

“You expect us to take steps on 40 goals?” Jarod asked.

“Weren’t you the one who asked me to push you?”

Jarod opened his mouth to respond, but Mr. Griffin laughed. “Don’t worry, Jarod, I’m not going to make you work on all 40. You’ll find that just putting them on paper, even if you do nothing else, will have a huge impact. Your homework will be to take steps on just one of the goals you wrote down.”

“So we can pick which one we work on?” Darnell asked.

“No, Darnell. You’re already working on many of the goals you wrote down. The point of this exercise is to bring new goals to your awareness, to discover desires hiding beneath the surface.”

“So which one do we do for homework?” Christy asked.

The bell rang. As we got to our feet, Mr. Griffin said, “I expect each of you to take concrete action on your goal by class tomorrow. You’ll each work on the one you wrote down last.”

Crap.

* * *

I picked up my phone, pulled up Christy from my list of contacts, and put the phone down. Again.

This was crazy. It wasn’t that big of a deal.

I pulled out my Identity card and read out, “I am adventurous. I am inquisitive. I am bold.” If I was all those things, then I ought to be able to make this damn call.

Christy picked up on the second ring. “Hi, Kelvin, what’s up?”

“I need your help with my homework.”

“You? Need help on homework? For which class?”

“Math. Goal number 40.”

“Oh. What did you write?”

I swallowed. “Interview Monica Grey.”

“Interview her?” Christy’s voice grew quiet. “Why?”

I exhaled louder than I wanted to. “That day I came to your house, you caught me by surprise when you told me about your friends being on antidepressants.”

“Of course, because you thought if a girl is popular, she must be happy. Right?”

“Pretty naive, I know.”

“So why interview Monica?”

I hesitated. How could I explain this?

Fortunately, Christy was quicker than me. “You still haven’t let it go, have you? You still feel like it’s all some big mistake and cheerleaders shouldn’t have any problems, don’t you?”

“I guess I do.”

“So why Monica?”

I’d never told anyone this, aside from Mr. Griffin. But if I was going to do this, I might as well go all the way and tell Christy the full truth. “My first Outcome Card, one that I never shared with any of you, was to take Monica out on a date.”

“Oh.” There was a pause on the other end of the line. “You’ve dropped that, right?”

“Yes. But I’m still struggling to understand everything you said about her being bulimic and on antidepressants.”

“She’d kill me if she knew I told you. You really think she’ll talk to you about it?”

“If I ask her? Not a chance.”

“Oh.” Another pause. “So that’s the help you want? Look, I totally owe you, so if you want me to ask her, I’ll do it. We just need to find the right excuse to get her to open up.”

“Think she’ll say yes?”

“If I ask her to do it as a favor to me. She owes me one.”

“Why?”

“Do you have any idea how many times I held her hair while she puked?”

* * *

“My parents totally freaked out, but it wasn’t that big of a deal,” Monica said.

I sat in a cafe, across from Monica Grey. She wore a tight red sweater with a low-cut neckline; her curls framed her long face and rolled down her shoulders. The scent of her perfume was somewhere between intoxicating and overwhelming.

“So they hospitalized you?” I asked.

“Yeah, it was so lame, because there totally wasn’t anything wrong with me. The therapists kept wanting to talk to me, like they wanted to convince me that there was something wrong with being thin. If my parents actually knew what I was getting out of the hospital, they never would’ve sent me.”

“What did you get out of it?”

“There were a bunch of girls there for anorexia or bulimia, and we’d share tips, like how not to get caught, how to cut calories without anyone noticing. Stuff like that.”

I couldn’t believe how open Monica was about her bulimia. I owed that all to Christy, who in the end told Monica that I needed an anonymous source for my sociology project on eating disorders. I was concerned that Monica would see through the excuse; after all, she had plenty of friends in my sociology course, but she expressed no curiosity about it at all.

“Did they put you on any medications?”

“Yeah, they tried me on Tofranil and Prozac before finally settling on Nardil.”

“Do they help?”

“Yeah, I guess.”

I had a sudden inspiration but hesitated before asking. Would diverging from the subject of my fictitious report raise her suspicions? I leaned in. This close, I could see a thick layer of makeup I’d never noticed from a distance. “What do you like to read?”

Monica shrugged. “Normal stuff. People, Seventeen.”

That question went OK. Would she catch on if I asked another? “And what do you do for fun?”

“Mostly hang out with friends. Movies. I love going to the mall ‘cause online you can’t really try stuff on or feel the fabrics. But in the store, you really can. And I want to make sure things fit just right, you know?”

I only went to the mall twice a year and only then because Mom dragged me. Still, I wanted to know what a day in the life of Monica Gray was like. “What time do you wake up in the morning?”

“Ugh, like 6 am.”

“Why so early?”

“That’s just how long it takes girls to get ready for school. You know, by the time I’ve showered, done my hair, and all that crap, I barely make it to homeroom on time.”

“What about breakfast?”

“I tell my parents I’ll pick up a muffin or something in the cafeteria, but I usually don’t bother.”

I was thinking about my next question when all of a sudden, Monica blurted out, “You know, you’re a really nice guy.”

Me? A nice guy?

“It’s kind of funny we haven’t spoken before, you know?”

Of course, we had spoken before. Last year, the couple of times we’d been lab partners in chemistry, I’d racked my brain to find things to talk to her about, and never evoked the slightest bit of interest from her. Now I’d hardly said a thing, just asked her questions, and she was finding me nice?

Just when I thought I was finally getting to understand girls…

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