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Lived In The Eastern States. It Simply Unrooted Dad. He Took Me And Came
Away Up Here And Buried Himself. Incidentally He Buried Me Too. And I
Don't Want To Be Buried. I Resent Being Buried. I Hope I Shall Not
Always Be A Prisoner In These Woods. And I Grow More And More Resentful
Against That Preacher For Giving My Father A Jolt That Made A Recluse Of
Him. Don't You See? That One Thing Has Colored My Personal Attitude
Toward Preachers As A Class. I Can Never Meet A Minister Without
Thinking Of That Episode Which Has Kept Me Here Where I Never See
Another White Woman, And Very Seldom A Man. It's Really A Weak Spot In
Me, Holding A Grudge Like That. One Wouldn't Condemn Carpenters As A
Body Because One Carpenter Botched A House. And Still--"
She Made The Queer Little Gesture With Her Hands That He Had Noticed
Before. And She Smiled Quite Pleasantly At Mr. Thompson In Womanly
Inconsistency With The Attitude She Had Just Been Explaining She Held
Toward Ministers.
"One Gets Such Silly Notions," She Remarked. "Just Like Your Idea That
You Can Come Here And Do Good. You Can't, You Know--Not For Others--Not
By Your Method. It's Absurd. One Can Help Others Most, I Really Believe,
By Helping Oneself. I've Noticed In Reading Of The Phenomena Of Human
Relations That The Most Pronounced Idealists Are Frequently A Sad Burden
To Others."
Mr. Thompson Found Himself At A Loss For Instant Reply. It Was A Trifle
Less Direct, More Subtle Than He Liked. It Opened Hazily Paths Of
Speculation He Had Never Explored Because Generalizations Of That Sort
Had Never Been Propounded To Him--Certainly Never By A Young Woman Whose
Very Physical Presence Disturbed Him Sadly.
And While He Was Turning That Last Sentence Over Uncomfortably In His
Mind A Hail Sounded Across The Meadow. Sophie Stood Up And Waved The Tin
Bucket She Had In Her Hand. Tommy Ashe Came Striding Toward Them. He,
Too, Carried A Tin Bucket.
"We're Going To A Blackberry Patch Down The Creek," Sophie Answered
Thompson's Involuntary Look Of Inquiry. "Get A Pail And Come Along."
"I Must Work," Thompson Shook His Head.
"Berry-Picking's Work, If Work Is What You Want," She Retorted. "You'd
Think So By The Time You'd Picked A Hundred Quarts Or More And Preserved
Them For Winter Use. But Then I Suppose _Your_ Winter Supply Will
Emanate From Some Mysterious, Beneficent Source, Without Any Effort On
Your Part. How Fortunate That Will Be."
She Tempered This Sally With A Laugh, And Being Presently Joined By
Tommy Ashe, Set Off Toward The Bank Of Lone Moose, Leaving Mr. Thompson
Sitting On His Log, Indulging In Some Very Mixed Reflections.
The Task He Was Engaged Upon Seemed Suddenly To Have Lost Its Savor.
Whether This Arose From A Depressing Sense Of Inability To Deny The
Truth Of Much That Sophie Carr Had Just Said, Or From The Fact That As
He Sat There Looking After Them He Found Himself Envying Tommy Ashe's
Pleasant Intimacy With The Girl, He Could Not Say. Indeed, He Did Not
Inquire Too Closely Of Himself. Some Of The Conclusions He Was Latterly
Arriving At Were So Radically Different From What He Was Accustomed To
Accepting That He Was A Little Bit Afraid Of Them.
Chapter 3 (In Which Mr. Thompson Begins To Wonder Painfully) Pg 38It Took Him A Considerable Time To Get Back Into A Proper Working Frame
Of Mind. The Progress Of His Wooden Edifice Suffered By That Much. When
He Went Trudging Home At Last, Sweaty And Tired, With His Axe Over One
Shoulder, He Was Wondering Frankly If, After All, It Was Either Wise Or
Necessary To Establish A Mission At Lone Moose. What Good Could He Or
Any Other Man Possibly Do There? The Logical And Proper Answer To That
Did Not Spring As Readily To His Lips As It Would Have Done At The Time
Of His Appointment By The Board Of Home Missions.
Along With That He Was Troubled By A Constant Recurrence Of His Thoughts
To Sophie Carr. Nor Was It A Matter Of Wonder At Her Bookish Knowledge,
Her Astonishing Vocabulary, Her Ability To Think And To Express Her
Thoughts Concisely. He Conceded That She Was A Remarkable Young Woman In
That Respect. It Was Not Her Intellectual Capacity Which Concerned Him
Greatly, But The Sunny Aureole Of Her Hair, The Smiling Curve Of Her
Lips, The Willowy Pliancy Of Her Well-Developed Body. Just To Think Of
Her Meant A Colorful Picture, A Vision That Filled Him With Uneasy
Restlessness, With Vague Dissatisfaction, With Certain Indefinable
Longings.
He Was Quite Unable To Define To Himself The Purport Of These Remarkable
Symptoms.
Chapter 4 (A Slip Of The Axe) Pg 39
Mr. Thompson Gradually Became Aware Of A Change In The Season. The
Calendar Lost A Good Deal Of Its Significance Up There, Partly Because
He Had No Calendar And Partly Because One Day Was So Much A Duplicate Of
Another That The Flitting Of Time Escaped His Notice. But He Became
Conscious That The Days Grew Shorter, The Nights A Shade More Cool, And
That The Atmosphere Was Taking On That Hazy, Mellow Stillness Which
Makes Indian Summer A Period Of Rare Beauty In The North. He Took
Serious Stock Of Elapsed Time Then, And Found To His Surprise That It
Was September The Fifteenth.
He Had Not Accomplished Much. The Walls Of His Church Stood About The
Level Of His Head. It Grew Increasingly Difficult For Him Alone To Hoist
The Logs Into Place. The Door And Window Spaces Were Out Of Square.
Without Help He Did Not See How He Was Going To Rectify These Small
Errors And Get The Roof On. Even After It Should Be Roofed, The Cracks
Chinked And Daubed With Mud, The Doors And Windows In Place--What Then?
He Would Still Lack Hearers For The Message Which He Daily Grew A Little
More Doubtful Of His Ability To Deliver. A Native Streak Of Stubbornness
Kept Him Studying The Language Along With His Daily Tussle With The Axe
And Saw. But The Rate Of His Progress Was Such That He Pessimistically
Chapter 4 (A Slip Of The Axe) Pg 40Calculated That It Would Take Him At Least Two Years Before He Could
Preach With Any Degree Of Understanding In The Athabascan Tongue.
So Far He Had Never Gone The Length Of Candidly Asking Himself Whether
By Then It Would Be A Task He Could Put His Heart Into, If He Were Even
Fitted For Such A Work, Or If It Were A Useful And Worthy Task If He
Were Gifted With A Fitness For It. He Had Been Taught That Preaching The
Gospel Was A Divinely Appointed Function. He Had Not Questioned That.
But He Had Now A Lively Sense Of Difficulties Hitherto Unreckoned, And
An Ill-Stifled Doubt Of The Good That Might Accrue. His Blank Ignorance
Of The Salient Points Of Human Contact, Of Why Men Work And Play, Why
They Love And Fight And Marry And Bend All Their Energies Along Certain
Given Lines Until They Grow Old And Gray And In The End Cease To Be,
Only Served To Bewilder Him. His Association With Tommy Ashe And With
Carr And Carr's Daughter--Especially With Carr's Daughter--Further
Accentuated The Questioning Uncertainty Of His Mind.
But That Was All--Merely An Uncertainty Which He Tried To Dissipate By
Prayer And Stern Repression Of Smoldering Doubts. At The Same Time While
He Decried And Resented Their Outspoken Valuation Of Material
Considerations He Found Himself Constantly Subject To Those Material
Factors Of Daily Living.
The First Of These Was Food. When Mr. Thompson Outfitted Himself For
That Spiritual Invasion Of Lone Moose He Brought In Four Months'
Supplies. He Discovered Now That His Supply Of Certain Articles Was Not
So Adequate As He Had Been Told It Would Be. Also He Had Learned From
Carr And Lachlan That If A Man Wintered At Lone Moose It Was Well To
Bring In A Winter's Grub Before The Freeze-Up--The Canoe Being A Far
Easier Mode Of Transport Than A Dog-Team And Sled.
So Thompson Stopped His Building Activities Long Enough To Make A Trip
To Pachugan. He Got Lachlan's Oldest Son To Go With Him. His Quarterly
Salary Was Due, And He Had A Rather Reluctant Report Of His Work To
Make. With The Money He Would Be Able To Replenish His Stock Of Sugar
And Tea And Dried Fruit And Flour. He Decided Too That He Would Have To
Buy A Gun And Learn To Use It As The Source Of His Meat Supply.
His Sublime Confidence In The Organization Which Had Sent Him There
Suffered A Decided Shock When He Reached Fort Pachugan, And Found No
Remittance Awaiting Him. There Was A Letter From The Board Secretary
Breathing Exhortations Which Sounded Rather Hollow In Conjunction With
The Absence Of Funds. Mr. Thompson, For The First Time In His Career,
Found Himself Badly In Need Of Money, Irritated Beyond Measure By Its
Lack, Painfully Cognizant Of Its Value. But He Was Too Diffident To
Suggest A Credit On The Strength Of The Cheque Which, Upon Reflection,
He Decided Was Merely Delayed In The More Or Less Uncertain Mails. He
Could Make Shift With What He Had For Another Month. Nor Did He Mention
This Slight Difficulty To Macleod.
That Gentleman Had Greeted Him Heartily Enough.
"Man, But Ye Look As If The Country Agreed Wi' You," He Observed, After
An Appraising Glance. "How Goes The Good Work At Lone Moose?"
"There Are Difficulties," Thompson Responded With An Unintentional
Touch Of Ambiguity. "But I Daresay I'll Manage In Time To Overcome
Them."
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