The Truth Hurts by shanta bernard (good books to read for beginners txt) 📖

nigga thats how you feel for a month we been dealing with each other and you still wanna call me your fucking buddy really thats all you see in me, Bitch it has nothing to do with what i see in you it is what it is so if im fucking the next bitch its not your business cause were not on it like that, dont get me wrong i like you you cool to chill with i like fucking but were not together and serious im tired of explaining that to you. If i wanted a girlfriend i would have one but i dont so you either get it or you can keep it moving and loose my number no love lost seriously. Fuck you glen you not even that fly for me to keep fucking with you everytime we chill getting high and drinking you always talking about yah shady ass ex girlfriend anyways than act like you dont know your doing it i can get dick from any nigga i want i dont needs yours fuck outta her matter of fact you loose my number CLICK. Did this bitch just bang it on me.....oh well i got other shit to deal with anyways my connect acting up on the reup... My job cut my hours back and right now im missing the shit out of chanel.

When i finally get myself together i remember today is wednesdays chanel always worked half of days after her meeting in the office i decided to drop by to check on her and make sure she was good after i seen her yesterday. So i go to the store grab some lunch from the chinese spot that she likes and get a botlle of wine so we can discuss as adults and hash everything out at least we can remain freinds cause right now i dont wanna build no kind of relationship because i cant trust her and im not going to throw myself at her so she can fuck me all over again. its was about 5 pm i pulled up in front of the apartment building that we one shared together and i sat there hoping that her car was going to be in the parking lot i spotted it and got out. I didnt know what to expect when i got out the car if she was gonna be with ole boy or not. So i knocked on the door i hear her soft voice just a minute i can hear her shuffling in the house and im smirking cause i know she only wears panties and a shirt and she scrambling to find some pants she did it all the time. Than she opens the door and i just look at her in the back of my mind im thinking damn she look good as hell

 

Chanel

So im now just getting off of work and someone is at my door. I am tryinh to find something to throw on cause really no one comes over and the people that i know knows that im moving. As i open the door my heart dropped once again it glen standing at the door i just looked at him he asks me may i come in of course i open the door for him to come in he has been on my mind since i saw him last night seem like faith is finally working with me or great minds just think alike. he came me told me he grab some food and wine when i saw him open up the chinese food i saw him get what i loved to eat the chicken and brocoili. I asked him so i see you remembered he looks at me and say how would i forget its only been a couple of months. Before i even grab something for us to eat in because most of the things in the kitchen was boxed up because no one be here and i always eat out i stopped cooking didnt feel the need to cook since i was the only one. Thank god i had some spare plates from a gathering we had when we lived together. I had to come to reality and see before we gotten any closer glen what is trhe reason for this visit i saw you last night and you didnt feel the need to speak to me so what changed your mind as i stand there with my hand on my hips looking at him confused. Glen said I am not gonna lie to you when i saw you last night a lot of shit came rushing to me chanel.....i wanted to come over and check on you to see how you was doing...maybe we can hash things out cause we did leave things on a bad note. I just looked at him im shocked that he is even standing here and trying to speak to me. ok i feel you so i opened the wine and make me a plate of food and sit on the couch. He is looking around so you moving? yea i am i told him there is way too many memories i wanted to kind of start over you know turn a new leaf you know. He looked at me confused but what the hell did he expect like we share this place together were not together so i need to move on with myself.

 

Glen

 So she is telling me how she is moving and the reasons i thought damn i wonder if she was thinking about me  these months like i've been thinking of her. So how have you been doing ? I've been fine I won most of cases at work and i lost two of them but its ok sometimes you loose some you know.  so as were sitting there talking just laughing talking about the past and whats going on in our lives now. I didnt realize how much i enjoyed talking to her and how she can relate to what im saying even though she wasnt about that kind of life. So lets get to the bottom of the case at hand that had us depart. Now i know that you made a mistake and no i don't want to argue with you about it what was done was done i just wanna ask was it worth it for you and why?. She looked at me with tears in her eyes just explaining how things happened and how she never met for it to go down like that. She is explaining to me how everyone make mistakes i asked god to forgive me for the things i did and ask him to guide me the right way....All i can do is ask for you to forgive me for the things i've done to you i truly didnt mean any of it. I looked at her i could respect it. But was I ready to forgive her like she wanted to me to no I was not. I let her know chanel I still have strong feeling for you and I will always have a place in my heart while I sat here and talked to you for these couple of hours I realized on how much we connected and I kind of missed those days. You fucked up for what you've done to me yes you was especially after I changed myself and gave you all of me. I would rather be cool with you than anything take shit slow cause I don't know where your mind is going and to be quite honest with you I dont trust you like that. You already know how I get down once you fuck me over that first time I would never give you the chance to fuck me over again. it sounds harsh because I never thought I would be sitting here with you after the incident that happend but I'm a real ass nigga and I am not going to lead you on either. I  understand what you mean and I'm glad that we had this conversation at this time I would like to take things slow as a friend because I want to show you while you was gone I realized what I've lost and it took A lot of me to try to get over you. I know trust is always the hardest thing for someone to gain back with someone that broke it so let me show you that my feelings are real and I would never want to jepordize anything that we have even if its just a friendship that fine with me.

The Friendship

 
Chanel

Things have been going great with Glen, we talk to each other every other day and hang out every other weekend. Being that were just friends I still can't see myself being with no one else. Even though the time that he is giving me is not enough in my eyes but I cannot complian because were basically starting from the beginning. So tonite were supposed to be going out for drinks. I decided to get my nails, hair and find me a new dress cause I haven't got none in a while and I am ready to get this hot box fill with some good loving. So I go and buy me a marc jacob black dress with my back all the way out to the arch of my back and it has a open spilt in the front that goes to my belly button area, found me some red and black stuart weitzman shoes to go with my dress and a black leather marc jacobs bag. I went to the hair salon and added some length to my hair so it can touch my ass, when i was dressed and ready to go I looked in the mirror and my pussy automatically got wet just looking at how fine i was. Instead of me driving I got a personal driver for the night because i knew I wanted to get drunk and just dance my ass off and I don't wanna put my hopes up and be going home alone like he been doing me for the last few weeks we've been talkiing. So I am prepared, He finally called me and told me to meet him at prohibition which I always wanted to go to. It's like some secret code to get in and its supposed to have some type of old school theme and play some decent music so I was ready to enjoy myself with my "friend" that I wanted to suck the sweetness out of my juice box so bad cause I really needed it. So I get to the front of this Famous phone booth and I am waiting on Glen to get here as I am standing here I see him coming threw the door and stop at the bar tender to ask for two drinks one for me and him. Dammnnn he looking finer than usual now don't get me wrong he alwayed dressed nice. When he worked he had some nice looking suits on and when he hit the streets he was fly as fuck and turned me on with the thug look. But tonite he took it to another level I am