Losers Never Win by Black Ghost (suggested reading TXT) 📖

say a word. Part of her wanted to tell him, but her shy side fought to resist. “I…I, stopped,” She lied. “I stopped using it.”

            Cain sighed deeply; there was no way he would be fooled by that. “Then what’s in yo pocket?” he asked, rubbing his hands together.

            Serena stood up with a scowl on her face. “Look I told you I don’t do it anymore!” she exclaimed, getting defensive.

            Cain lowered his head in disappoint. “Like I said before . . . you don’t have to lie to me,” he informed her. “I mean look at me. Who am I to judge what you do?”

            Serena lowered her emotional guard. The way in which Cain talked to her was relaxing and calm. His words were genuine, and he had been more concerned about her that anyone has ever been.

            “I’ve seen what that stuff can do somebody… My uncle died because of an overdose,” Cain said. “And I don’t wanna see that happen to you.” He raised his head and glared at Serena. His eyes weren’t as hard as they usually were. They seemed broken, like whatever suffering he’d held inside bled through.

            Serena couldn’t take anymore and had to turn her head from him. Her lips quivered as she desperately tried to conceal tears. “Why do I do it?” she said, repeating Cain’s question. “Mrs. Kerry, the lady at the addiction class asks me that all the time. She says she knows what I’ve been through, and understands. But she doesn’t.”

            Cain slowly got on his feet and walked closer to Serena. “That’s what they all say,” he added, a sad half smile on his face. “But how can they? If they never went through it. If they never relived it in constant nightmares and daydreams. If they never…”

            “… Felt his touch,” Serena interrupted. Her eyes faced the floor as her hellish past bared its ugly face. “Your right.” She stepped closer to Cain, their bodies mere inches from each other’s. “How can they understand, when they never tasted his hot breathe, and had his hands glide up your thighs… ”

            Cain’s heart started to beat faster upon hearing Serena talk. He reminisced on the agony that stained his heart, awakening his inner rage. “What about blood running down your back, from the metal end of a belt hittin’ you repeatedly. Or the sound of her screams, when he chose to pick on someone else.”

            The two began speaking different memories and feelings of what they’ve experienced. Serena went on and on about the molestation, which her foster father cast upon her daily. Cain continued to rant about his childhood beatings that were so gruesome the wounds and bruises remained etched on his body.

            Serena’s voice grew louder as she cried to Cain about the time her former social worker coerced her into sexual intercourse. Cain’s teeth clenched when he confessed how he wept all night long, after his mother was sentenced to twenty-five years in prison for killing his father in self-defense. The two were blinded by past sorrows, almost losing track of reality, but remember whom they stood in front of.

            Serena raised her head and stared directly in Cain’s blazing red eyes. He had not cried, but the expression on his face told her he longed too. Cain sniffled a little as he resumed eye contact with Serena. He watched tears glide down the side of her cheeks, dripping off her jaw.

            That same beauty Cain witnessed earlier that week when Serena smiled, he saw right before him. “You know…” Serena stated, speaking softly. “That’s why I do it.” She covered her mouth and sobbed quietly. “I want it to go away. I want all of it to go away, forever.”

            “Makes sense,” Cain said, he paused and looked at the dark sky filled with dull stars. “But is it really worth your life?”

            Serena didn’t respond. She kept her gaze on the ground. “I don’t know,” she finally admitted.

            Cain shook his head at her answer. “No… it aint,” he peacefully told her. Cain opened his hand and extended it to her.

            Without wanting to comply, Serena felt her body move on it’s own. She dug in her pocket and dropped the bag of heroin in Cain’s hand. Cain nodded at her, taking a step back. He turned around and launched the drugs off the roof and onto the street somewhere.

            Serena knew she just lost her chance to ‘get away’, but she didn’t care. For the first time ever, she felt like she didn’t need to get high. She watched as Cain started walking back to her and met him half way. She took a seat back on the floor and sat next to him, snuggling closely.

Chapter 11

Late Monday morning after 4th period, Cain and Serena were sitting in the cafeteria eating lunch. The two sat facing each other at a table by their selves. Enjoying each other’s company, the pair was in their own world.

            “Aye, check this out,” Cain said, placing a pea in a spoon. He bent the plastic utensil back by the head and let it go, launching the pea in the air. Serena watched as the pea came back down and landed directly on his tongue. She covered her mouth, laughing at his little trick. “I can do three at once too,” he bragged.

            “Yea right,” Serena doubted. Cain sucked his teeth and grabbed his spoon again. He performed the same act, but this time with three peas. Serena lightly applauded him, smiling brightly.

            “Your turn,” Cain told her. Serena’s eyes grew wide and she shook her head.

            “Your crazy if you think imma do that,” she refused.

            “Com’ on, I did it twice. You can’t do it one time?” He reasoned.

            “Nope,” she replied.

            “I’ll help you,” Cain added, taking a pea from his plate and putting it on the spoon. “Com’ on. Open yo mouth.”

            Serena looked at Cain with a small smirk on her face. “Alright...” she gave in. “But don’t laugh.”

            “I got you,” Cain replied. Serena sat straight in her seat and opened her mouth wide. Cain bent the spoon back, aiming it at his buddy, and flicked the pea into her mouth. She swallowed the pea whole and broke out laughing. “Was that hard?” he asked, grinning at Serena.

            “Yea,” she playfully joked.

 

            While Cain and Serena laughed with each other, Jenifer was sitting at a table with her friends across from them. Her boyfriend Jake, and Eliza sat by her side. They were all watching Cain and Serena have fun, hating every moment of it.

            “How lame can you get?” Jenifer snarled, seeing the constant smile on Serena’s face.

            “Aye you know the sayin’, losers of a feather, flock together,” Eliza added, making the whole table snicker. The smirk on Jenifer’s face faded as she looked back at Cain and Serena. Her mind browsed through different thoughts on how to ruin they’re day.

            “You know, we should do somethin’,” Jenifer stated. “Like teach them a lesson.”

            “What you got in mind babe?” Jake asked, looking at his girlfriend. Without responding, Jenifer snatched Jake’s chocolate milk from his plate. She opened it up and poured a little bit out, to make room for other ingredients she planned to add.

            “A bomb,” She grinned while putting mashed green beans in the carton. “Aye someone get some hot sauce.” One of the other kids at the table got up to fetch the sauce.

            “Put rice in there too!” Eliza exclaimed.

            Jenifer scraped the remainder of the rice off her plate and into the milk. “Good one,” when the kid came back with the hot sauce, she took it and added it to the mixture. “This is going to be too funny,” Jenifer said, imaging the results of her prank. She shook the milk cartoon up and handed it to Jake. “Don’t, miss.”

            “Dude,” Jake said cracking his knuckles. “I never miss,” he grabbed the carton of milk and aimed at his targets. Jake flung the milk over two tables of students and watched it crash in front of Serena and Cain.

            The carton basically exploded upon hitting their table, covering both Cain and Serena with a disgusting, mushy liquid. Half of the cafeteria witnessed them get soaked in contaminated milk and burst out laughing. Serena closed her eyes tightly and wiped the slop from her face. She didn’t know what happened; Cain on the other hand was a bomb about to go off.

            The entire cafeteria was staring at Cain and Serena laughing and making jokes seconds after the prank. Cain’s short fuse already burned out, and he searched the crowd for the one responsible. His eyes floated from face to face, until he saw Jenifer and Jake. The mocking expression they had told the whole story.

            Jake high fived one of his partners. “Nice bro!” Jake’s teammate chuckled. Jenifer sat back and enjoyed the commotion with an evil grin on her face. But when she saw Cain storming toward them, her smile melted away.

            “Dude, check it out,” one of Jake’s buddy pointed to Cain who made his way over to their table. Jake got on his feet and eyed Cain down.

            “My bad bro, did I do that?” Jake mocked. Instead of responding, Cain struck Jake across the face with his fist. The whole table got quiet when he was punched again.

            Cain grabbed Jake by the shirt and flung him to the ground. Before he could continue his assault, two football players snatched him up. They shoved him away from the table, almost making him fall. Cain clenched his fist and rushed the jocks, knocking Jenifer to the floor while doing so.

            Serena jumped up from her seat and ran to stop Cain, but the School’s security got there first. One guard tackled Cain to the ground while the others restrained Jake and the Jocks. Eliza helped Jenifer off the floor, shocked at Cain’s reaction. Jenifer brushed her self off, seeing Cain being dragged away by security.

            “Get off me!” Cain growled, eyes boiling with rage. The two guards that held him tightened their grip, fearing he might break loose.

            Serena was speechless as she watched her only friend be carried away. “Next time, keep your ‘retard’ boyfriend on a leash!” Jenifer snapped, angry that Cain knocked her to the floor.

            Serena glanced at Jenifer and then down to her clothes that were a mess. The cafeteria remained in up roar after witnessing the brawl, and some students were still laughing her. With no real reason to finish the school day, Serena stormed out of lunchroom, heading home.

Chapter 12