My Addiction by Ida Gonzalez (e manga reader TXT) 📖

Paula

"According to the results, she has Leukemia" and with that my world completely collapsed. I was not expecting that. I was expecting anything but not that.

I'm in shock. I can't comprehend what the doctor just said. My Kathy can't be sick, no, she can't. The tears don't take long to burn my eyes. I cover my face with my hands. I feel Marc's hands caressing my back.

"I can't believe it, doctor. How is it possible?" I sobbed, my eyes completely watery.

"Unfortunately, this is the case, Miss. I recommend you consult a specialist to start her treatment as soon as possible as she is in a treatable stage. I can see that in her analysis," teh doctor suggests.

"How can we get a doctor this early to start a treatment?" Marc asks. I only stare at a fixed point. His voice seemed distant, even though, he was sitting just next to me. Why me, why Kathy? Why are we being punished so badly?

"I will make you an appointment with my colleague, a specialist. Tomorrow, you can consult him and he will indicate the procedures. I can no longer do anything," I look at the doctor in disbelief. I still can’t understand what he says.

Mark takes my hand as I plunge into deep darkness. This all feels like a terrible nightmare, from which I want to wake up.

"Let's go see Katy" he holds me by my waist and I thank him because my legs have stopped functioning. It's like my body is floating in the air and my mind is blank.

We leave the office and walk to the room where Katy was. The doctor told me that he would discharge her and that she can go. And tomorrow he would be waiting for us for the consultation.

I see my sister and I feel like crying. How am I going to tell her? How am I going to tell her that she has cancer? This is too much for her, for us, my little one.

"Hello, princess, how are you feeling?" I ask trying to hide my anguish and despair, the knot and tightness that I feel in my chest.

" I'm better, Paula. Can we go?" she asks in a tired tone. And I feel worse. Maybe she was already like this and I didn't realize it. Maybe this all is my fault.

"Yes, now we are going home," I reply with a smile.

"What do I have, Pauli? Why I fainted?"

I want to cry, scream, but I can’t. I have to be strong for her, for Katy. I love her very much. Without her, I am nothing. It is just her and me, together forever.

"There's nothing to worry about, honey. We'll talk at home, okay?" I'm just trying to stay calm. The last thing I want to do is worry her.

"Okay," the doctor returns to give me the discharge paper and some painkillers. We leave the hospital soon. Marc offers to take us and I thank him infinitely. When we get home, I ask Kathy to get to her room to rest while I say goodbye to Marc.

"Go rest. I'll be there in a while, love," she obeys, leaving me alone with Marc. I walk over to my boss to say goodbye to him at the door and apologize for all the inconvenience he has had.

"Marc, thanks for everything. I wanted to ask you to give me tomorrow morning off asI have to go to the doctor's office."

"Of course, precious. You know that you have nothing to worry about. If you want, I will stay with you tonight, and tomorrow I will take you to the consultation."

"It is not necessary, Marc," I answered quickly. I do not want to abuse his trust,  much less take advantage of the situation.

"Do not bother, we will go by taxi, thank you," I assure him.

"Don't thank me. I would do anything for you and you know it," I sigh and just look at him. I'm sorry, I can't reciprocate. He's handsome but he doesn't attract me. I don't know what's wrong with me. It's just that I'm incapable of feeling anything for a Man. I even sometimes wonder if I'm a lesbian. I don't think so, I just haven't found the right man, if that's what he is.

This is serious, I am 22 years old and I have never liked a man. But also I have not had much time for that, between work and work, time passed. Or maybe, I am one of those people who were born to be alone with some other purpose in life that is not to get married.

Suddenly I was thinking and then I hear a throat clearing that brings me back to reality. "I'm leaving, precious" he approaches and leaves a kiss on my cheek.

"Thanks again, Marc,”

"You're welcome, precious. You can always count on me," I purse my lips with a small grin and see him turn around. I close the door as soon as Marc leaves. I have to go talk to Katy. I have to tell her the truth. I sighed deeply before entering her room. There, I find her sitting on the bed as if she had suspected that something was wrong. I approach her and wrap her in a hug. Tears are quick to follow as I can no longer control them.

"Are you going to tell me what I have, Paula?” She asks me, looking at me with those little eyes that disarm me.

"Yes, I'm going to tell you. I just want you to promise me one thing that whatever happens, you will not give up. You will fight with me and you will not abandon me. You are strong Katherine. We both go through a lot and we have to keep fighting whatever happens.”