Howl at me by Cama Seeney (100 best novels of all time .txt) 📖

angry even. How would you know if its important or not sweetie, you've never really even kissed a man before.' He told me pain in his soft green eyes. I must have reflected his pained look back at him because he kissed my forehead and once again wrapped me in his warm embrace. 

 

 We drank coffee and waited the storm out, speaking of our first days back to school / college - he was doing his second year of A levels in a near by college. He was so smart and had such a strong sense of wrong and right, he wanted to be a lawyer or police officer. We finished this very taxing day with some really cheesy and fake horror movies. After a few hours of silent watching the pathetic attempt at horrors I grabbed the guitar that was left lying next to the cream couch ( it was comfy and even matched the cream carpet and cream walls). I pulled off all the colourful pillows from my lap and began playing a random tune, I could kind of play but I'm pretty sure I was just plain crap at singing. When compared to Nelson I was pretty much plain Jane, When I purposely struck the wrong note three times, he stole the guitar from my grasp and began to play softly himself. 

 

'Are you coming to the party on the beach on Saturday ?' He asked me, probably for the third time ( I had a bad memory !) this week. I nodded and grinned laying my head on his left lap listening to his soft melody. 'Sure remind me tomorrow.' I told him sleepily. He chuckled, I'd probably said the same thing for the last week. You tend to get to know someone very quickly when you spend from six posibly five am with them, nessie suffered from an alcholic dad and what kept me up was the nightmares of the past. We were both hiding thus became friends quickly.

 

It feels like day one all over again

Chapter 17

 

I awoke in my own bed, clothes from the night before feeling stiff and gritty on my skin. My stomach grumbled unhappily, I had skipped a few meals yesterday. I hopped into the shower after making three cups of coffee and taking my travel mug in the shower with me. I drank, woke up properly and clean every inch of my skin and put the much needed conditioner into my hair that had seen too much water rectally. Bo trotted over and jumped in the shower with me, I laughed and washed her little furry body. It was pretty common for her to just open the door and jump in, sometimes it was like having a little sister - I wouldn't change her for the world. Tinka my cat jumped on the sink sniffing at the half drunk coffee. 

 

I rapped myself in a towel, grabbed my coffee and Tinka. l and passed Nellie in the kitchen drinking the coffee I had made for him, he held a tower aloft and quickly bent down to dry Bo with it. With a smile  I finished my drink in one gulp and deposited the cup and Tinka on the side. Nellie had already filled the cat and dog bowl with food. I ran up the stairs and came back down in light blue skinny jeans that were stylishly covered in rips and a tee shirt that stopped just before my belly button, it showed off the tattoo of a dream catcher with a tree in the circle. I put in the silver nose ring i adored . Applied eye liner and mascara to my eyes and blood red lipstick. The belly shirt was long sleved white with a spaltter of red and black sworls.

 

I looked down at my timetable for the day, English, Biology and Chemistry dang-it kill me now ! I had taken PE as extra circular rather than an actual lesson, so I only had it two days a week - Monday and Thursday.

 

Monday P.E, English, bio, Chem

Tuesdays - bio, chem, history

No class on Wednesdays.

Thursday-  Tutorial .P.E, English, history

Friday - Chem bio English History

 

I put the new grey, AAAAhhmazing boots on and played music dramatically to show how cool my new boots were as I walked down to the kitchen. Even my ant was up 'Jodie' Nellie nudged her silently laughing at me. I kicked my feet forward one at a time, down each step. At the end I did a little twirl probably looking like a fool but I didn't care. 'So you finally managed to tear yourself away from Mr Hole. Riddled' Said Aunty Jodie with an amused little smile. It was the last morning I would see her because she was going on a resort for a month, she would come back for a weekend every fortnight. After seeing my mental health was stable and well-being was all taken care of she had no reason to tell her boss she couldn't go. 

 

I hugged her tight as we said our final departing words, threatening all the way that if nelson didn't look after me that he'd need to put his fingers in his nostrils to hold himself up - or something like that anyway. He kissed he gently on the cheek and she left blushing. Was there something there or was I mistaken, Jodie was only 22 so it could be a possibility. 'If you become my uncle that means I can't walk around the house in my towel anymore!' I complained but lightened up when I saw the rosy hint to his cheeks.

 

I laughed and nearly fell on the floor. 'You're such a cuttie some times.' I told him with a little giggle, he rolled his eyes and grinned back at me. 'Oooh someone looks ready for war' he told me grinning. 'I didn't know you had a tat!' he exclaimed looking at the bottom of my ribs, a fairy hanging on top of the feathers stuck out. 'Are you taking Bo for a walk ?' I asked, he started at 10.45 instead of 8.45 he nodded and kissed my head as I grabbed my bag, headphones and skateboard. Today I didn't care, I just wanted to get there get this day over with and leave. I hugged him tight, I couldn't even mutter the words goodbye anymore. 

 

I felt my heart constrict thinking that once again I was alone, Nel couldn't be there all the time he had his own life, college and work to deal with. I forced myself to calm down and quickly made my way to school. I felt all nervous and sweaty, I was on my own again, What in all the hells would I do with myself ?! 

 

When I skated into the car park all I saw was Chase leaning against a sleek black, car that I had no idea what the make or what year it was made , grinning his crazy little grin at me. 'Well good morning little kitten.' He said I must have given him a huh look because his smile came impossibly wider still. I bent down and picked up my slightly muddy and wet board muttering 'Morning' moodily, I was still annoyed about Hunter. Just then Nellie pulled up along side me, skating on his own board, Bo in tow. 'Hello baby!' I cooed at her panting form. 'Well hello to you too M n M. You forgot something. 'He told me handing me my travel mug filled completely with coffee.

 

'MMMMmmm' I muttered closing my eyes and severing the taste. 'Man I'm gonna have nightmares from the chainsaw dude! He really is ugly as fuck' I told Nel, not wanting him to go. 'Yea I know right, I wouldn't fuck him!' He told me in the carefree way that was pretty much his life. 'HA! You're talk is as cheep as his face' I told him grinning like the devil. 'That hurt!' He told me taking a pretend stagger. I looked off into the forest noting that Chase still stood there. Nellie must have noticed too because he introduced himself as nelson. They chatted about how they knew me and school and normal stuff guys talked about. 'Hey kitten, food for thought.' Chase said to me nudging me gently. 'My brain has gone so long without food it's probably anorexic.' He chuckled but left it alone. I hugged Nellie close once again, because Bo was getting over excited and wanted to run. 'Remember, ill be picking you up Saturday at 8!' He called back as he and Bo started to leave. 'Goodbye' he called as he left. 'There is nothing good about goodbyes. Why do people even use that freaking saying' I muttered angrily. 

 

Sometimes I think I was better off alone, at home

Chapter 18 

 

I walked to my first class, which happened to be one I hated, chemistry. Aargh, can someone please kill me already! I sat through an hour of this small woman, who resembled a pixie with her frantic curly hair and natural cotton clothing. She clambered around the excitedly teaching all about the different fossils found all over the world yet they were the same. She taught about igneous rock, metamorphic and sedimentary. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be but still ugh. 

 

I walked to biology, which happened to be my favourite lesson of ever. His name was Gregory, I kept accidentally calling him sir which he would repetitively scold me gently for. We were being taught all about the anatomy of the eye, to be honest I loved it. Learning the differences in the muscles that controlled the up, down, left and right movement. How the lens differed from the pupil etc. He held me behind briefly asking if I could do an assignment with the notes I had taken, I nodded gleefully and told him I would have it by Monday. 

 

Lunch. Well I decided that I needed to apologise to Tig, Lilly and Leon for running off before. I felt like the day was passing without my control. Like something was dragging me in a certain direction and I had no way to stop it. Which is laughable,absurd and completely ridiculous. Chucklesome even; I could and would do exactly what I wanted, no higher power could forcibly stop me. It had no reason or power that would allow them to. 

 

My energy crackled, the sun rose. The brightest I had seen it in weeks. The startling conclusion of freedom allowed me to play my life as I wished to. I sat at the table and