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day.â
âHave you got it here?â
âI have got it here, sir.â
âSergeant,â the lawyer proceeds in his dry passionless manner, far
more hopeless in the dealing with than any amount of vehemence,
âmake up your mind while I speak to you, for this is final. After
I have finished speaking I have closed the subject, and I wonât re-open it. Understand that. You can leave here, for a few days,
what you say you have brought here if you choose; you can take it
away at once if you choose. In case you choose to leave it here, I
can do this for youâI can replace this matter on its old footing,
and I can go so far besides as to give you a written undertaking
that this man Bagnet shall never be troubled in any way until you
have been proceeded against to the utmost, that your means shall be
exhausted before the creditor looks to his. This is in fact all
but freeing him. Have you decided?â
The trooper puts his hand into his breast and answers with a long
breath, âI must do it, sir.â
So Mr. Tulkinghorn, putting on his spectacles, sits down and writes
the undertaking, which he slowly reads and explains to Bagnet, who
has all this time been staring at the ceiling and who puts his hand
on his bald head again, under this new verbal shower-bath, and
seems exceedingly in need of the old girl through whom to express
his sentiments. The trooper then takes from his breast-pocket a
folded paper, which he lays with an unwilling hand at the lawyerâs
elbow. ââTis only a letter of instructions, sir. The last I ever
had from him.â
Look at a millstone, Mr. George, for some change in its expression,
and you will find it quite as soon as in the face of Mr.
Tulkinghorn when he opens and reads the letter! He refolds it and
lays it in his desk with a countenance as unperturbable as death.
Nor has he anything more to say or do but to nod once in the same
frigid and discourteous manner and to say briefly, âYou can go.
Show these men out, there!â Being shown out, they repair to Mr.
Bagnetâs residence to dine.
Boiled beef and greens constitute the dayâs variety on the former
repast of boiled pork and greens, and Mrs. Bagnet serves out the
meal in the same way and seasons it with the best of temper, being
that rare sort of old girl that she receives Good to her arms
without a hint that it might be Better and catches light from any
little spot of darkness near her. The spot on this occasion is the
darkened brow of Mr. George; he is unusually thoughtful and
depressed. At first Mrs. Bagnet trusts to the combined endearments
of Quebec and Malta to restore him, but finding those young ladies
sensible that their existing Bluffy is not the Bluffy of their
usual frolicsome acquaintance, she winks off the light infantry and
leaves him to deploy at leisure on the open ground of the domestic
hearth.
But he does not. He remains in close order, clouded and depressed.
During the lengthy cleaning up and pattening process, when he and
Mr. Bagnet are supplied with their pipes, he is no better than he
was at dinner. He forgets to smoke, looks at the fire and ponders,
lets his pipe out, fills the breast of Mr. Bagnet with perturbation
and dismay by showing that he has no enjoyment of tobacco.
Therefore when Mrs. Bagnet at last appears, rosy from the
invigorating pail, and sits down to her work, Mr. Bagnet growls,
âOld girl!â and winks monitions to her to find out whatâs the
matter.
âWhy, George!â says Mrs. Bagnet, quietly threading her needle.
âHow low you are!â
âAm I? Not good company? Well, I am afraid I am not.â
âHe ainât at all like Bluffy, mother!â cries little Malta.
âBecause he ainât well, I think, mother,â adds Quebec.
âSure thatâs a bad sign not to be like Bluffy, too!â returns the
trooper, kissing the young damsels. âBut itâs true,â with a sigh,
âtrue, I am afraid. These little ones are always right!â
âGeorge,â says Mrs. Bagnet, working busily, âif I thought you cross
enough to think of anything that a shrill old soldierâs wifeâwho
could have bitten her tongue off afterwards and ought to have done
it almostâsaid this morning, I donât know what I shouldnât say to
you now.â
âMy kind soul of a darling,â returns the trooper. âNot a morsel of
it.â
âBecause really and truly, George, what I said and meant to say was
that I trusted Lignum to you and was sure youâd bring him through
it. And you HAVE brought him through it, noble!â
âThankee, my dear!â says George. âI am glad of your good opinion.â
In giving Mrs. Bagnetâs hand, with her work in it, a friendly
shakeâfor she took her seat beside himâthe trooperâs attention is
attracted to her face. After looking at it for a little while as
she plies her needle, he looks to young Woolwich, sitting on his
stool in the corner, and beckons that fifer to him.
âSee there, my boy,â says George, very gently smoothing the
motherâs hair with his hand, âthereâs a good loving forehead for
you! All bright with love of you, my boy. A little touched by the
sun and the weather through following your father about and taking
care of you, but as fresh and wholesome as a ripe apple on a tree.â
Mr. Bagnetâs face expresses, so far as in its wooden material lies,
the highest approbation and acquiescence.
âThe time will come, my boy,â pursues the trooper, âwhen this hair
of your motherâs will be grey, and this forehead all crossed and
recrossed with wrinkles, and a fine old lady sheâll be then. Take
care, while you are young, that you can think in those days, âI
never whitened a hair of her dear headâI never marked a sorrowful
line in her face!â For of all the many things that you can think
of when you are a man, you had better have THAT by you, Woolwich!â
Mr. George concludes by rising from his chair, seating the boy
beside his mother in it, and saying, with something of a hurry
about him, that heâll smoke his pipe in the street a bit.
Estherâs Narrative
I lay ill through several weeks, and the usual tenor of my life
became like an old remembrance. But this was not the effect of
time so much as of the change in all my habits made by the
helplessness and inaction of a sick-room. Before I had been
confined to it many days, everything else seemed to have retired
into a remote distance where there was little or no separation
between the various stages of my life which had been really divided
by years. In falling ill, I seemed to have crossed a dark lake and
to have left all my experiences, mingled together by the great
distance, on the healthy shore.
My housekeeping duties, though at first it caused me great anxiety
to think that they were unperformed, were soon as far off as the
oldest of the old duties at Greenleaf or the summer afternoons when
I went home from school with my portfolio under my arm, and my
childish shadow at my side, to my godmotherâs house. I had never
known before how short life really was and into how small a space
the mind could put it.
While I was very ill, the way in which these divisions of time
became confused with one another distressed my mind exceedingly.
At once a child, an elder girl, and the little woman I had been so
happy as, I was not only oppressed by cares and difficulties
adapted to each station, but by the great perplexity of endlessly
trying to reconcile them. I suppose that few who have not been in
such a condition can quite understand what I mean or what painful
unrest arose from this source.
For the same reason I am almost afraid to hint at that time in my
disorderâit seemed one long night, but I believe there were both
nights and days in itâwhen I laboured up colossal staircases, ever
striving to reach the top, and ever turned, as I have seen a worm
in a garden path, by some obstruction, and labouring again. I knew
perfectly at intervals, and I think vaguely at most times, that I
was in my bed; and I talked with Charley, and felt her touch, and
knew her very well; yet I would find myself complaining, âOh, more
of these never-ending stairs, Charleyâmore and moreâpiled up to
the skyâ, I think!â and labouring on again.
Dare I hint at that worse time when, strung together somewhere in
great black space, there was a flaming necklace, or ring, or starry
circle of some kind, of which I was one of the beads! And when my
only prayer was to be taken off from the rest and when it was such
inexplicable agony and misery to be a part of the dreadful thing?
Perhaps the less I say of these sick experiences, the less tedious
and the more intelligible I shall be. I do not recall them to make
others unhappy or because I am now the least unhappy in remembering
them. It may be that if we knew more of such strange afflictions
we might be the better able to alleviate their intensity.
The repose that succeeded, the long delicious sleep, the blissful
rest, when in my weakness I was too calm to have any care for
myself and could have heard (or so I think now) that I was dying,
with no other emotion than with a pitying love for those I left
behindâthis state can be perhaps more widely understood. I was in
this state when I first shrunk from the light as it twinkled on me
once more, and knew with a boundless joy for which no words are
rapturous enough that I should see again.
I had heard my Ada crying at the door, day and night; I had heard
her calling to me that I was cruel and did not love her; I had
heard her praying and imploring to be let in to nurse and comfort
me and to leave my bedside no more; but I had only said, when I
could speak, âNever, my sweet girl, never!â and I had over and over
again reminded Charley that she was to keep my darling from the
room whether I lived or died. Charley had been true to me in that
time of need, and with her little hand and her great heart had kept
the door fast.
But now, my sight strengthening and the glorious light coming every
day more fully and brightly on me, I could read the letters that my
dear wrote to me every morning and evening and could put them to my
lips and lay my cheek upon them with no fear of hurting her. I
could see my little maid, so tender and so careful, going about the
two rooms setting everything in order and speaking cheerfully to
Ada from the open window again. I could understand the stillness
in the house and the thoughtfulness it expressed on the part of all
those who had always been so good to me. I could weep in the
exquisite felicity of my heart and be as happy in my weakness as
ever I had been in my strength.
By and by my strength began to be restored.
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