Ardath by Marie Corelli (reading in the dark .txt) đ
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This done, Heliobas closed and clasped the original text of the Prophetâs work and returned it to its casket; then addressing his guest in a kindly, yet serious tone, he said: âYou are quite resolved to undertake this journey, Mr. Alwyn?â
Alwyn looked dreamily out of the window at the flame of the sunset hues reflected from the glowing sky on the white summit of the mountains.
âYes, ⊠I ⊠I think so!â The answer had a touch of indecision in it.
âIn that case,â resumed Heliobas, âI have prepared a letter of introduction for you to one of our Order known as Elzear of Melyana,âhe is a recluse, and his hermitage is situated close to the Babylonian ruins. You will find rest and shelter there after the fatigues of travel. I have also traced out a map of the district, and the exact position of the field you seek, . . here it is,â and he laid a square piece of parchment on the table; âyou can easily perceive at a glance how the land lies. There are a few directions written at the back, so I think you will have no difficulty. This is the letter to Elzear,ââhere he held out a folded paperââwill you take it now?â
Alwyn received it with a dubious smile, and eyed the donor as if he rather suspected the sincerity of his intentions.
âThanks very much!â he murmured listlessly. âYou are exceedingly good to make it all such plain sailing for me,âand yet ⊠to be quite frank with you, I canât help thinking I am going on a foolâs errand!â
âIf that is your opinion, why go at all?â queried Heliobas, with a slight disdain in his accents. âReturn to England insteadâforget the name of âArdath,â and forget also the one who bade you meet her there, and who has waited for you âthese many thousand days!ââ
Alwyn started as if he had been stung.
âAh!â he exclaimed. âIf I could be certain of seeing her again!
⊠if ⊠good God! the idea seems absurd! ⊠if that Flower-Crowned Wonder of my dream should actually fulfill her promise and keep her tryst âŠâ
âWell!â demanded HeliobasââIf so, what then?â
âWell then I will believe in anything!â he criedââNo miracle will seem miraculous.. no impossibility impossible!â
Heliobas sighed, and regarded him thoughtfully.
âYou THINK you will believe!â he said somewhat sadlyââBut doubts such as yours are not easily dispelled. Angels have ere now descended to men, men have neither received nor recognized them.
Angels walk by our side through crowded cities and lonely woodlands,âthey watch us when we sleep, they hear us when we pray, ⊠and yet the human eye sees nothing save the material objects within reach of its vision, and is not very sure of those, while it can no more discern the spiritual presences than it can without a microscope discern the lovely living creatures contained in a drop of dew or a ray of sunshine. Our earthly sight is very limitedâit can neither perceive the infinitely little nor the infinitely great. And it is possible,ânay, it is most probable, that even as Peter of old denied his Divine Master, so you, if brought face to face with the Angel of your last nightâs experience, would deny and endeavor to disprove her identity.â
âNever!â declared Alwyn, with a passionate gestureââI should know her among a thousand!â
For one instant Heliobas bent upon him a sudden, searching, almost pitiful glance, then withdrawing his gaze he said gently: âWell, well! let us hope for the bestâGodâs ways are inscrutable âand you tell me that nowânow after your strange so-called âvisionââyou believe in God?â
âI did say so, certainlyâŠâ and Alwynâs face flushed a little..
âbutâŠâ
âAh! ⊠you hesitate! there is a âbutâ in the case!â and Heliobas turned upon him with a grand reproach in his brilliant eyes..
âAlready stepping backward on the road! ⊠already rushing once again into the darkness! âŠâ He paused, then laying one hand on the young manâs shoulder, continued in mild yet impressive accents: âMy friend, remember that the doubter and opposer of God, is also the doubter and opposer of his own well-being. Let this unnatural and useless combat of Human Reason, against Divine Instinct cease within youâyou, who as a poet are bound to EQUALIZE your nature that it may the more harmoniously fulfil its high commission. You know what one of your modern writers says of life? ⊠that it is a âDream in which we clutch at shadows as though they were substances, and sleep deepest when fancying ourselves most awake.â[Footnote: Carlyleâs Sartor Resartus.]
Believe me, YOU have slept long enoughâit is time you awoke to the full realization of your destinies.â
Alwyn heard in silence, feeling inwardly rebuked and half ashamed âthe earnestly spoken words moved him more than he cared to showâ
his head droopedâhe made no reply. After all, he thought, he had really no more substantial foundation for his unbelief than others had for their faith. With all his studies in the modern schools of science, he was not a whit more advanced in learning than Democritus of oldâDemocritus who based his system of morals on the severest mathematical lines, taking as his starting-point a vacuum and atoms, and who after stretching his intellect on a constant rack of searching inquiry for years, came at last to the unhappy conclusion that man is absolutely incapable of positive knowledge, and that even if truth is in his possession he can never be certain of it. Was he, Theos Alwyn, wiser than Democritus? ⊠or was this stately Chaldean monk, with the clear, pathetic eyes and tender smile, and the symbol of Christ on his breast, wiser than both? ⊠wiser in the wisdom of eternal things than any of the subtle-minded ancient Greek philosophers or modern imitators of their theories? Was there, COULD there be something not yet altogether understood or fathomed in the Christian creed?
⊠as this idea occurred to him he looked up and met his companionâs calm gaze fixed upon him with a watchful gentleness and patience.
âAre you reading my thoughts, Heliobas?â he asked, with a forced laugh. âI assure you they are not worth the trouble.â
Heliobas smiled, but made no answer. Just then one of the monks entered the room with a large lighted lamp, which he set on the table, and the conversation thus interrupted was not again resumed.
The evening shadows were now closing in rapidly, and already above the furthest visible snow-peak the first risen star sparkled faintly in the darkening sky. Soon the vesper bell began ringing as it had rung on the previous night when Alwyn, newly arrived, had sat alone in the refectory, listlessly wondering what manner of men he had come amongst, and what would be the final result of his adventure into the wilds of Caucasus. His feelings had certainly undergone some change since then, inasmuch as he was no longer disposed to ridicule or condemn religious sentiment, though he was nearly as far from actually believing in Religion itself as ever. The attitude of his mind was still distinctly skepticalâthe immutable pride of what he considered his own firmly rooted convictions was only very slightly shakenâand he now even viewed the prospect of his journey to the âfield of Ardathâ as a mere fantastic whimâa caprice of his own fancy which he chose to gratify just for the sake of curiosity.
But notwithstanding the stubbornness of the materialistic principles with which he had become imbued, his higher instincts were, unconsciously to himself, beginning to be arousedâhis memory involuntarily wandered back to the sweet, fresh days of his earliest manhood before the poison of Doubt had filtered through his soulâhis character, naturally of the lofty, imaginative, and ardent cast, reasserted its native force over the blighting blow of blank Atheism which had for a time paralyzed its effortsâand as he unwittingly yielded more and more to the mild persuasions of these genial influences, so the former Timon-like bitterness of his humor gradually softened. There was no trace in him now of the dark, ironic, and reckless scorn that, before his recent visionary experience, had distinguished his whole manner and bearingâthe smile came more readily to his lipsâand he seemed content for the present to display the sunny side of his natureâa nature impassioned, frank, generous, and noble, in spite of the taint of overweening, ambitions egotism which somewhat warped its true quality and narrowed the range of its sympathies. In his then frame of mind, a curious, vague sense of half-pleasurable penitence was upon him,âdelicate, undefined, almost devotional suggestions stirred his thoughts with the refreshment that a cool wind brings to parched and drooping flowers,âso that when Heliobas, taking up the silver âEsdrasâ reliquary and preparing to leave the apartment in response to the vesper summons, said gently, âWill you attend our service, Mr. Alwyn?â he assented at once, with a pleased alacrity which somewhat astonished himself as he remembered how, on the previous evening, he had despised and inwardly resented all forms of religious observance.
However, he did not stop to consider the reason of his altered mood, . . he followed the monks into chapel with an air of manly grace and quiet reverence that became him much better than the offensive and defensive demeanor he had erewhile chosen to assume in the same prayer-hallowed place,âhe listened to the impressive ceremonial from beginning to end without the least fatigue or impatience,âand though when the brethren knelt, he could not humble himself so far as to kneel also, he still made a slight concession to appearances by sitting down and keeping his head in a bent postureââout of respect for the good intentions of these worthy men,â as he told himself, to silence the inner conflict of his own opposing and contradictory sensations. The service concluded, he waited as before to see the monks pass out, and was smitten with a sudden surprise, compunction, and regret, when Heliobas, who walked last as usual, paused where he stood, and confronted him, saying:
âI will bid you farewell here, my friend! ⊠I have many things to do this evening, and it is best I should see you no more before your departure.â
âWhy?â asked Alwyn astonishedââI had hoped for another conversation with you.â
âTo what purpose!â inquired Heliobas mildly. âThat I should assert ⊠and you deny ⊠facts that God Himself will prove in His own way and at His own appointed time? Nay, we should do no good by further arguments.â
âBut,â stammered Alwyn hastily, flushing hotly as he spoke, âyou give me no chance to thank you ⊠to express my gratitude.â
âGratitude?â questioned Heliobas almost mournfully, with a tinge of reproach in his soft, mellow voice. âAre you grateful for being, as you think, deluded by a trance? ⊠cheated, as it were, into a sort of semi-belief in the life to come by means of mesmerism? Your first request to me, I know, was that you might be deceived by my influence into a state of imaginary happiness,âand now you fancy your last nightâs experience was merely the result of that pre-eminently foolish desire. You are wrong! ⊠and, as matters stand, no thanks are needed. If I had indeed mesmerized or hypnotized you, I might perhaps have deserved some reward for the exertion of my purely professional skill, but ⊠as I have told you already ⊠I have done absolutely nothing. Your fate is, as it has
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