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of the present day do, I really believe, go up to the altar and
pronounce their marriage vows, with the simple idea that as soon as
they have done so, they are to have their own way in everything. And
then people complain that young men won’t marry! Who can wonder at it?’
‘I don’t think the young men think much about the obedience,’ said
Nora.‘Some marry for money, and some for love. But I don’t think they
marry to get a slave.’
‘What do you say, Mr Stanbury?’ asked the old lady.
‘I can only assure you that I shan’t marry for money,’ said he.
Two or three days after this Nora left her friend in Eccleston Square,
and domesticated herself for awhile with her sister. Mrs Trevelyan
declared that such an arrangement would be comfortable for her, and
that it was very desirable now, as Nora would so soon be beyond her
reach. Then Lady Milborough was enabled to go to Dorsetshire, which she
did not do, however, till she had presented Nora with the veil which
she was to wear on the occasion of her wedding. ‘Of course I cannot see
it, my dear, as it is to take place at Monkhams; but you must write
and tell me the day and I will think of you. And you, when you put on
the veil, must think of me.’ So they parted, and Nora knew that she had
made a friend for life.
When she first took her place in the house at Twickenham as a resident,
Trevelyan did not take much notice of her but, after awhile, he would
say a few words to her, especially when it might chance that she was
with him in her sister’s absence. He would speak of dear Emily, and
poor Emily, and shake his head slowly, and talk of the pity of it. ‘The
pity of it, Iago; oh, the pity of it,’ he said once. The allusion to
her was so terrible that she almost burst out in anger, as she would
have done formerly. She almost told him that he had been as wrong
throughout as was the jealous husband in the play whose words he
quoted, and that his jealousy, if continued, was likely to be as
tragical. But she restrained herself, and kept close to her needle,
making, let us hope, an auspicious garment for Hugh Stanbury. ‘She has
seen it now,’ he continued; ‘she has seen it now.’ Still she went on
with her hemming in silence. It certainly could not be her duty to
upset at a word all that her sister had achieved. ‘You know that she
has confessed?’ he asked.
‘Pray, pray do not talk about it, Louis.’
‘I think you ought to know,’ he said. Then she rose from her seat and
left the room. She could not stand it, even though he were mad, even
though he were dying!
She went to her sister and repeated what had been said. ‘You had better
not notice it,’ said Emily. ‘It is only a proof of what I told you.
There are times in which his mind is as active as ever it was, but it
is active in so terrible a direction!’
‘I cannot sit and hear it. And what am I to say when he asks me a
question as he did just now? He said that you had confessed.’
‘So I have. Do none confess but the guilty? What is all that we have
read about the Inquisition and the old tortures? I have had to learn
that torturing has not gone out of the world, that is all.’
‘I must go away if he says the same thing to me so again.’
‘That is nonsense, Nora. If I can bear it, cannot you? Would you have
me drive him into violence again by disputing with him on such a
subject?’
‘But he may recover and then he will remember what you have said.’
‘If he recovers altogether he will suspect nothing. I must take my
chance of that. You cannot suppose that I have not thought about it. I
have often sworn to myself that though the world should fall around me,
nothing should make me acknowledge that I had ever been untrue to my
duty as a married woman, either in deed, or word, or thought. I have no
doubt that the poor wretches who were tortured in their cells used to
make the same resolutions as to their confessions. But yet, when their
nails were dragged out of them, they would own to anything. My nails
have been dragged out, and I have been willing to confess anything.
When he talks of the pity of it, of course I know what he means. There
has been something, some remainder of a feeling, which has still kept
him from asking me that question. May God, in his mercy, continue to
him that feeling!’
‘But you would answer truly?’
‘How can I say what I might answer when the torturer is at my nails? If
you knew how great was the difficulty to get him away from that place
in Italy and bring him here; and what it was to feel that one was bound
to stay near him, and that yet one was impotent, and to know that even
that refuge must soon cease for him, and that he might have gone out
and died on the roadside, or have done anything which the momentary
strength of madness might have dictated—if you could understand all
this, you would not be surprised at my submitting to any degradation
which would help to bring him here.’
Stanbury was often down at the cottage, and Nora could discuss the
matter better with him than with her sister. And Stanbury could learn
more thoroughly from the physician who was now attending Trevelyan what
was the state of the sick man, than Emily could do. According to the
doctor’s idea there was more of ailment in the body than in the mind.
He admitted that his patient’s thoughts had been forced to dwell on one
subject till they had become distorted, untrue, jaundiced, and perhaps
mono-maniacal; but he seemed to doubt whether there had ever been a
time at which it could have been decided that Trevelyan was so mad as
to make it necessary that the law should interfere to take care of him.
A man, so argued the doctor, need not be mad because he is jealous, even
though his jealousy be ever so absurd. And Trevelyan, in his jealousy,
had done nothing cruel, nothing wasteful, nothing infamous. In all this
Nora was very little inclined to agree with the doctor, and thought
nothing could be more infamous than Trevelyan’s conduct at the present
moment unless, indeed, he could be screened from infamy by that plea of
madness. But then there was more behind. Trevelyan had been so wasted
by the kind of life which he had led, and possessed by nature stamina
so insufficient to resist such debility, that it was very doubtful
whether he would not sink altogether before he could be made to begin
to rise. But one thing was clear. He should be contradicted in nothing.
If he chose to say that the moon was made of green cheese, let it be
conceded to him that the moon was made of green cheese. Should he make
any other assertion equally removed from the truth, let it not be
contradicted. Who would oppose a man with one foot in the grave?
‘Then, Hugh, the sooner I am at Monkhams the better,’ said Nora, who
had again been subjected to inuendoes which had been unendurable to
her. This was on the 7th of August, and it still wanted three days to
that on which the journey to Monkhams was to be made.
‘He never says anything to me on the subject,’ said Hugh.
‘Because you have made him afraid of you. I almost think that Emily and
the doctor are wrong in their treatment, and that it would be better to
stand up to him and tell him the truth.’ But the three days passed
away, and Nora was not driven to any such vindication of her sister’s
character towards her sister’s husband.
MONKHAMS
On the 10th of August Nora Rowley left the cottage by the river-side at
Twickenham, and went down to Monkhams. The reader need hardly be told
that Hugh brought her up from Twickenham and sent her off in the
railway carriage. They agreed that no day could be fixed for their
marriage till something further should be known of Trevelyan’s state.
While he was in his present condition such a marriage could not have
been other than very sad. Nora, when she left the cottage, was still
very bitter against her brother-in-law, quoting the doctor’s opinion as
to his sanity, and expressing her own as to his conduct under that
supposition.
She also believed that he would rally in health, and was therefore, on
that account, less inclined to pity him than was his wife. Emily
Trevelyan of course saw more of him than did her sister, and understood
better how possible it was that a man might be in such a condition as
to be neither mad nor sane—not mad, so that all power over his own
actions need be taken from him; nor sane, so that he must be held to be
accountable for his words and thoughts. Trevelyan did nothing, and
attempted to do nothing, that could injure his wife and child. He
submitted himself to medical advice. He did not throw away his money.
He had no Bozzle now waiting at his heels. He was generally passive in
his wife’s hands as to all outward things. He was not violent in
rebuke, nor did he often allude to their past unhappiness. But he still
maintained, by a word spoken every now and then, that he had been right
throughout in his contest with his wife and that his wife had at last
acknowledged that it was so. She never contradicted him, and he became
bolder and bolder in his assertions, endeavouring on various occasions
to obtain some expression of an assent from Nora. But Nora would not
assent, and he would scowl at her, saying words, both in her presence
and behind her back, which implied that she was his enemy. ‘Why not
yield to him?’ her sister said the day before she went. ‘I have
yielded, and your doing so cannot make it worse.’
‘I can’t do it. It would be false. It is better that I should go away.
I cannot pretend to agree with him, when I know that his mind is
working altogether under a delusion.’ When the hour for her departure
came, and Hugh was waiting for her, she thought that it would be better
that she should go, without seeing Trevelyan. ‘There will only be more
anger,’ she pleaded. But her sister would not be contented that she
should leave the house in this fashion, and urged at last, with tears
running down her cheeks, that this might possibly be the last interview
between them.
‘Say a word to him in kindness before you leave us,’ said Mrs
Trevelyan. Then Nora went up to her brother-in-law’s bedside, and told
him that she was going, and expressed a hope that he might be stronger
when she returned. And as she did so she put her hand upon the
bedside, intending to press his in token of affection. But his face
was turned from her, and he seemed to take no notice of her. ‘Louis,’
said his wife, ‘Nora is going to Monkhams. You will say good-bye to her
before she
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