Howl by Brieanna Boyce (chrome ebook reader txt) 📖

but he might as well of. They all looked away and said nothing.

“I’m fine now Kale,” I muttered loud enough for everyone to hear. He shot me a glare and walked us into his room and set me onto the bed. His room looked bare the other bed in there I guessed to be Gerard’s since I assumed Derek and Jason would want there alone time. The only personal items I found in Gerard’s room were two pictures on a nightstand and a guitar in the corner of the room.

Kale set me down gently on his bed then sat beside me, it should’ve been weird being in a room alone with him, it still made me a little nervous but for the most part I was comfortable with him. I picked up one photo that showed a young boy, resembling him, and an older woman who had golden eyes like Kale’s and long blonde hair instead of Kale’s brown hair.

“That’s me and my mother.”

I smiled and turned to Kale “I can tell she’s very beautiful.”

Kale chuckled but it never reached his eyes instead of shimmering resembling honey they seemed to dim. “Are you calling me beautiful Skylar?” I blushed and looked away but he didn’t seem to notice. “Yeah she was beautiful…she’s dead now though, I never had a dad.”

I felt my eyes widen I took his hand, “I lost my mother too.”

He just stared at me for awhile his eyes softening into honey the lines etched in his face softened and he looked at me sympathetically. “I’m sorry.”

I sighed and looked at him, “Yeah I am too.”

I looked over to the guitar. “You play?”

Kale nodded and smiled, “Yeah I write a song for almost everything.” He took the guitar into his arms lovingly and strummed it softly playing a song that was both loving, and heartbreaking, I watched the way he looked at the guitar, like the world had suddenly just turned into him and the guitar he stopped the song off at a sweet note. Then looked at me, “I know it needs a lot of work but-“

“No not at all! It was beautiful really!” I smiled, “I loved it.”

Kale smiled, “good, oh I almost forgot you came to talk to me about something.”

I bit my lip I had meant to tell him that I drink blood, meant to tell him what I’d been doing when I snuck out but instead completely different words rushed out. “Me and Gerard aren’t really dating.”

Kale nodded, “I figured you two are too different but why?”

“Because Gerard likes Meg and wanted to make her jealous.”

Kale laughed, “Well that makes sense, she is jealous of you.”

I chuckled, “Yeah right, Meg’s gorgeous,” then I thought back to her diary and how she’d been jealous of me because of my relationship with Kale, did he know?

Kale nods, “she is physically attractive but she’s never had to deal with another girl since her new life. Besides…I can’t see her that way.”

“Why not?” I asked earnestly.

Kale went to say something but then stopped. “Meg…she’s immature and childish and although I care about her, I could never be in a relationship with her.”

I heard a sound, like someone crying and I knew who it was before I’d turned around. Sure enough Meg was standing in the doorway crying. Kale turned to her and stared in shock and confusion. Gerard went to walk in and saw her.

“Hey what’s going on?” He turned Meg around so she could face him and saw her crying. Meg pushed him aside and ran Gerard following after her.

I buried my face in my hands and mumbled, “Go get her Kale.”

Kale bit his lip unsure, “but I…”

“Just go Kale.”

For awhile I still felt his presence but then I heard him get up and leave the room. Maybe I didn’t belong with them, maybe I wasn’t meant to be a werewolf, and maybe as much as I tried I was a monster. I was a vampire. “No,” the she wolf howled in mourning.

I went into my room and packed my things, got into bed, and fell asleep. Waiting for the dream to pull me in and soon it did.

This time I was wearing a long corseted dress with ruffles and beautiful embroidery, and I had my hair down with dangling earrings and I knew this was Rayne’s doing, I never dreamt myself into beautiful clothing. I looked around and I was going through a city on a long boat when I looked up at who was propelling it forward I found familiar blue eyes.

“Hello,” Rayne cooed softly smiling.

“I’m a monster aren’t I Rayne.”

Rayne stooped rowing for a moment and sat across from me holding my chin until I was forced to look into his beautiful face. “A monster, Is that how you think of me?” His eyes looking hurt.

I cried and looked away; “I don’t know anymore, I don’t know anything anymore.”

Rayne pouted, “Are things not working out with your pack?”

I shook my head then looked at Rayne, his blonde long hair reaching his chin. His gorgeous blue eyes dancing in the reflection of the old time street lights, “I haven’t been entirely honest… with anyone not even you.”

Rayne looked perplexed and leaned back, “Is that so? Then why don’t you tell me now?”

I took a deep breath the corset fighting against my chest for circulation. “I…I’m only half werewolf…”

“Yes and half human right?” Rayne asked.

“No,” I shook my head, my earrings swinging in the same motion, “No, I’m half vampire too.”

Rayne’s eyebrow’s shot up and he gaped in shock.

“I was being attacked by vampires and Kale saved me, he knew I was bitten by vampires but accepted me anyway. When I’d changed he thought, we all thought that I was no longer vampire… but we were wrong, I kept sneaking away to drink blood. I didn’t drink from humans; I killed vampires who were trying to hunt me.”

Rayne blinked, “you can drink from other vampires?”

“Can’t you?” I asked looking puzzled.

Rayne thought about it for awhile, “to tell you the truth I never even thought it was possible.”
I nodded, “and there’s one more thing,” I muttered.

He chuckled, “there’s more, wow Skylar, you’ve been keeping quite a lot of secrets haven’t you?”

I smiled a little and nodded, “but this is by far the worst one and the longest secret I’ve ever kept.”

Rayne leaned in listening intently. I felt my heartbeat rush and before I could talk myself out of it I leaned in and kissed him roughly, but he held the side of my face softly his tongue sweeping through my mouth in a lazy movement coaxing me to relax. Reluctantly, I slowed down to his preferred speed, and then suddenly Kale popped into my mind and I pulled away.

“Kale’s your mate,” the she wolf scolded in my mind. “Not this one.”

I thought, “Yes but I am not all wolf. I loved Rayne as a human.”

“You said loved,” The she wolf pointed out.

I shook my head and trying to clear my head, and then heard Rayne’s soft voice. “Is something the matter?”

“No,” I sighed, “nothing’s the matter; it’s just everything’s so messed up, I mean besides this.”

Rayne took my hand, “You said that was your worst secret?”

I nodded, “I’ve loved you as long as I can remember.”

Rayne nodded, “I love you too.”

I looked at Rayne shocked, taking in his calm expression, “Then why did you never say anything?”

“Because, I figured it was an unhealthy relationship, I mean I’m immortal, I’m 283 years your senior, and I figured you’d be scared of me, and you deserve a normal life.” He looked into my eyes his reflecting pain, his beauty was unparalleled and my heart ached to see him in pain.

I hugged him “well none of that stuff matters anymore,” I smiled, “and besides even if I was human I would’ve loved you exactly the same.”

Rayne smiled, “I hope so.” He hugged me close, “come on I’ll take you away.”

I smiled and nodded, “when?”

“Tomorrow,” Rayne smiled kissing my head.

It was strange we were making plans to run away, I had confessed my love and it was returned and yet I felt somewhat empty. Maybe it was shock, or maybe… I woke up wearing the long corseted gown from my dream but I was less surprised then the first time it had happened. I sat up and looked around my room relieved that Meg wasn’t there. I proceeded to poke my head out into the hallway and when I saw the cost was clear I grabbed my backpack and headed out into the hall where I bumped into Derek.

“Hey kid,” he grinned, “Where you headed off to a ball or something?”

“I’m not entirely sure where I’m headed, but I’m going away for awhile.” I felt a lump forming in my throat, I hated goodbyes, I hugged Derek.

“I’ll miss you.”

Derek frowned, “I don’t think that’s a good idea,” he looked around anxiously.

“I have to find my own way,” I pleaded, “I’ll come back someday but I need to do this.”

Derek sighed and nodded.

“Will you tell Kale to be safe and to not worry about me and that I am so thankful to him for everything?”

Derek ruffled his hair, “I’ll miss you kid.”

I nodded and walked out the door quickly running down the stairs of the apartment and trying to think on how I could get back home. The first time I killed and drank a vampire a boy drove me home. A normal boy, I didn’t remember his name but I think he said he worked at an auto body store not too far from where I’d lived. I rushed around the neighborhood circling it a few times until finally I found the auto body shop I looked around anxiously.

Finally, I saw the boy, he had long brown hair that reached his shoulder’s which was partially covered by a hat tipped to the side, he was wearing a blue jumpsuit and hunched over the hood of a car covered in gasoline stains. His colleages were muttering about me and the boy turned and smiled, running over to me.

“Hey there Skylar,” the boy had a grin with imperfect teeth with imperfect skin which I found relieving.

“Hey,” I grinned, “does your offer to give me a ride still stand?”

The boy nodded, “yeah, just let me talk to my boss first.”

I nodded and sat in a nearby chair, and thanks to my strong hearing (whether it’s thanks to me being a werewolf or a vampire I do not know,) I could hear the others congratulating the boy on “landing” a girl like me. I laughed to myself, running into me was nothing worth celebrating.

I thought of the pack which made me want to cry and that when I’d left them I’d left them for the worst. I left them ripped apart, and now like a coward I was leaving. The boy walked over, “Hey you okay?”

“Mhm,” I nodded trying to pull myself away from those thoughts that tormented me. The boy took my wrist and led me to his car opening the door for me smiling.

“Thank