Lest I should fall by Arianna Erickson (mystery books to read TXT) 📖

bigger addition to the hole already in my heart.


Chapter 3: Tombstone

“Their bodies have been buried in an actual cemetery since then,” Blythe whispered.
I watched as Blythe sobbed his eyes out. I couldn’t stand to see him this way, ever. I held him in my arms and tried to wipe the tears from his eyes. Eventually he calmed down and looked at me apologetically for crying like that and suggested we go back to sleep. I snuggled against his chest as he fell asleep. And for once in my life I noticed how absolutely venerable he looked right now. Just like a little child.
I closed my eyes and fell asleep. I don’t even remember doing it though, but before I knew it, I t was morning and light was escaping through the window. I rolled over reaching for Blythe to find him not there. I sleepily got up and looked around. I noticed his keys were missing. I closed my eyes for a second wondering where he would have gone, when suddenly it dawned on me that he probably went to his parents grave. He’d told me that their bodies had been moved to a cemetery, and after how upset he’d gotten last night, I’d guess he was visiting them.
I looked at the clock to find how late it truly was. 4:30 pm the clock showed. The thought suddenly occurred that I should visit Ashe, so I hastily got dressed, grabbed my keys, and drove to Ashe’s grave. Along the way I picked up a red rose, and when I got there, laid it on his grave.
A sad smile found its way across my face as I stood up from laying down the rose.
“Hey Ashe,” I whispered. “I miss you.”
I ran my fingers softly along his tombstone as I spoke aloud the words engraved.


“Here Lies Ashe Lee
Beloved son and brother
We miss you
‘Love is the strongest
Bond between two people
That can never be broken’”

I closed my eyes, holding the tears back. I tried to control it but couldn’t. The pain was still too fresh to control, and before I knew it, a hiccup broke from between my lips and in a suddenness that startled me, turned to pouring tears. I slid to my knees and buried my face in my palms.
“Ashe, why did you leave me…? I just…don’t know what to do.”
I sat up, and curled over next to his tombstone in a ball. I closed my eyes as I cried. Suddenly I felt all alone, and some how, as the darkness took over the sky, I fell asleep.

Chapter 4: Blythe

(Blythe)

I sat at my parents graves. I wondered whether Allianna was awake yet.
Probably not, I thought to myself. The last couple days have been really hard on her.
I sighed and looked at my parents’ grave stones for about the hundredths time today wishing I could tell them how sorry I was for being a monster.
I sat there lost in thought for a while until I realized it must be getting late and Allianna must finally be up looking for me. So I got up after saying goodbye to my parents, and walked to my car.

Part 2: Roland

Part 2: Roland

Part 2: Prologue

(Roland)

I was never aware of how hard it really had been on Allianna that day I left her life forever. I thought I was keeping her safe, instead I was putting her in harms way, or so I later found out when I finally met her Blythe.

Allianna never saw the tears I hid as I forced myself to walk away from her. But as bad as I was hurting her, I hoped she would heal and for her own good, move on without me. And someday, maybe, just maybe, she may forgive me and understand.
“Plus,” I whispered to myself, “It’s killing me to walk away from her like that, as much as it is her.”
I looked up as it started to rain, and in seconds, it was starting to pour. I mistakenly snuck a peak behind me to look at her beautiful face just one last time, hoping to not find her crying.
It was hard to tell with the rain, but the look on her face made it clear that she was falling apart. She hadn’t noticed me peak at her, but her brother Ashe did. He sent a glare in my direction with so much venom the pain I felt over having to leave her tripled. I quickly, but barely made my way home before I got behind my front door and collapsed. Holding my head in my hands and shaking it back and forth in despair.

Part 2: Chapter 1 - Die in a ditch

“How could I do this to you Allianna? I’m such a horrible person. I’m so sorry,” I choked. “Maybe I should call and see if she’s okay.”
“No,” I debated with myself, “It’ll only hurt her more to hear my voice. And I don’t want to hurt her anymore.”
“But maybe I should, it could make her feel better to know I still love her.”
“Or should I take everything back and continue to risk her life more?”
“Sweetheart,” a voice behind me cooed, “What’s the matter?”
Long blonde hair followed behind a green-eyed girl. She looked at me with smug interest, until she saw the look on my face.
“Are you crying over her?” She scowled as her eyes narrowed dangerously. “Are you upset because she’s hurting?”
A flame glowed in her eyes full of anger and hatred for Allianna. She walked over to me, and slapped me across the face hard; leaving a red mark that lasted for a couple seconds. I winced.
“Hag,” I said to her under my breath.
Her anger exploded.
“What did you say? Have you forgotten what I could easily do to you?” She screamed.
She got a hold on herself, and turned to walk away, “Don’t forget that He could easily kill her.” She flipped her hair and stalked off.
Stupid Shay, I thought to myself.
Go die in a freaking ditch.

Part 2: Chapter 2 - Should I?

I finally decided what I should do. I would at least call Allianna and make sure she was all right and not hurting too badly. I grabbed my phone and dialed her phone number. I should’ve known she wouldn’t be the one to answer.
Ashe picked up the line and said hello.
“Is she alright?” I asked, both of us knowing who ‘she’ is.
“Yes, she’s just flipping peachy.” He growled sarcastically.
“Is she really that bad?”
“What the hell do you think? The love of her life just took her fucking heart and put it in the blender and clicked puree!” Ashe hissed.
I couldn’t breathe, “I-I’m so…” I choked on the word, “sorry.”
“Your apologies mean nothing. You broke my little sisters heart, and by God I will break yours too if I ever see you again.”
“Please at least tell me she’s okay.” I begged.
“No,” he replied coldly, “she isn’t. I found her passed out from loss of blood because she has started cutting again. Roland, she tried to kill herself because of you. She won’t eat, or do anything except cry on her bedroom floor.”
“Please let me talk to her! I’ll take it all back!” I almost sobbed.
“No. She has found someone else who will heal her. Blythe will be more to her than you ever were. If you truly love her, don’t ever contact her again. Goodbye.” Ashe said and hung up the phone.

Piercing sobs filled the