Don't leave by LunaFair (a.k.a Anna M. Haslinger) (snow like ashes series TXT) 📖

passed out?
I felt his finger poking me again.
"Ow!", I protested, glaring at him, "I can swim ... I was too surprised ..." And thinking of something else ...
He barely nodded.
"Alright, then relax. You can stay on the towel Tetsu put you on", he said, pointing at the white towel I hadn't noticed although I was sitting on it.
"Okay", I said, still confused, when he left again to go swimming. He seemed to enjoy this ...
'I just hope he'll not collapse in the water', I thought before drifting off.

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"You're getting too used to poking me", I commented, blinking a few times.
"Is it my fault you fell asleep? It's already getting dark again, and I'm hungry", he said, looking at me with his puppy dog eyes pleading me to feed him.
I couldn't help smiling. This was just too cute ...
"Alright little one, let's get home to get you some food", I said while slowly getting up. When I looked down at him, I had to realize, that he was shivering a bit. He immediately noticed my worried look and got up as well.
Before I could say something, he had grabbed my hand and started walking back to his house, pulling me with him.
So he didn't want me to be worried ...

As soon as we had arrived - the lake was about only ten minutes by foot from his house - he rushed off to the bathroom. Sighing I went to the kitchen and started making some noodles with vegetables and some soup.
When he came back, he snuffled immediately and gave me a smile.
"Smells good ... what are you cooking?", he asked, peeking into the pan,"Looks tasty..."
"Just noodles", I said, returning the smile, before putting bowls and the other things we would need on the table,"Just take a seat, will you?"
He looked a bit confused, but then he did what I had told him to. I was sure he hadn't noticed it , but he looked very pale. I wanted to tell him he should rest, but I got the feeling he wouldn't listen ... Was it just me, or was he not willing to trust me? He acted so ...
"Gacchan?", He suddenly asked very sweet, standing right in front of me.
I just stared back at him for a while before saying something.
"What is it, Hideto-san?", I heard my self asking, before he frowned.
"Call me Hyde, stupid ... or at least spare the san", he commanded, before smiling again and suddenly hugging me,"Thanks for being here, Gacchan"
I couldn't help hugging him back. He seemed to be so fragile ... and helpless ... although he had pushed me into the cold water earlier ... and wouldn't trust me.
"Never mind, Haido", I almost whispered, smiling gently, before he let go off me and went back to the table, sitting down.

"This was good", he said, looking quite satisfied,"Want to watch a movie?"
I just nodded, then started washing the dishes. He watched me for a while, before he went to the living room.
Soon I was done again and joined him.
"You know this one?", he asked, showing a thin plastic box with a picture on it to me. It showed some people and a ... thing I couldn't identify. I shook my head, and he laughed at the funny expression on my face.
"Never seen a DVD-box before, have you?", he asked before taking out a small flat and round thing and putting it in a machine. Wait ... he had already done this the last time we had watched ... why had I not noticed it back then?
After starting everything, he pushed me on the sofa and sat down next to me.
"It's about a girl who is cursed by a witch, after falling for some wizard, and suddenly is about 90 years old. I like the wizard though ... I can somehow identify ...", he explained.
I didn't say anything. Perhaps I could learn something about him this way ...

We watched the whole movie and I paid attention as good as possible. He had wrapped his arms around my chest again and his eyes were closed. The atmosphere was peaceful, and after the end of the movie, it automatically started again.
Somewhere during the movie, I suddenly got a strange feeling, because they kept saying the wizard - a first blond then black haired guy - had no heart ...
I slowly put one arm around Hideto, feeling his pulse without him noticing. It was very slow and irregular ... but it was there. I felt somehow relieved. It's not possible to live without a heart ... but still ... I had a strange feeling ... we were living in a somehow magical world after all. I had never experienced it myself, but I had seen the house of a wizard once, and heard of a guy who was being cursed by a witch for taking her child away. Stuff like this. Not to mention the old forest that followed the suns movement, and the weird accidents whenever someone tried to build machines for faster movement or some that could be used in battle ...

I found myself standing in a forest again. This time, I could see the sky, but it was blood red, stained with black stars. Rain fell down slowly, and I could hear an irregular heartbeat somewhere far away. When I looked down, I noticed, that my clothes where stained with blood, but I had not enough time to be shocked about it, because I heard evil laughter behind me. When I turned round, I was staring at a person as tall as myself. It had red eyes, staring at me, but that was the only thing I could see. The rest of it was just pitch black and without any forms or other colors.
I took a step backwards, attempting to run, but I couldn't move anymore. Just staring at the oddly familiar creature, I kept standing there, my heart racing again.
"Without a heart, there is nothing", the creature laughed at me, it's voice echoing in my ears. It was horrifying and sounded not like one, but like at least three voices at the same time ...
I wanted to ask what this was supposed to mean, but I couldn't say anything. I was stunned ...
Suddenly I looked down again. There was water around me, although I was still in the forest. 'The rain must have caused this', I thought, before the water reached my face. Then I was suddenly caught under water. I tried to reach air again, but I couldn't move.
I could hear the slow heartbeat grow louder, before I felt myself slip into darkness.

When I opened my eyes again, it was dark all around me. The movie had been turned off, and Hyde was sleeping peacefully, armes wrapped around me tightly and head against my chest. I smiled, immediately calmed by the sight.
"I don't know what's wrong with me lately", I whispered,"And I have no idea who this horrifying person is ..."
"I possess his heart", I heard the voices of said person from my right side. I froze immediately and started to shiver a bit. After a while I managed to turn my head, staring into darkness. I calmed down again, when I realized that there was nothing. Just my imagination ...
There really was something wrong, and somehow I was afraid ... afraid of this thing taking Hyde away from me ...
"Who is Ashita?", I dared to ask with a low voice.
"The one, who tried to safe him", the voices answered.
"And why are you talking to me?"
I felt myself shaking with fear, when the voices came to me from different directions. What was going on? There was no one here, except peaceful sleeping Hideto and myself. Still I was talking to someone ...
"Because you care for what is mine"
I froze, pressing Hideto a bit closer to my chest. He didn't notice, he kept sleeping, holding onto me tightly ...
The creature laughed evilly, before the voices started to fade.
"You can't win", where the last words I heard from it... Imprint

Text: Disclaimer: Gackt, Hyde, Tetsu and Sakura belong to themselves Claimer: Ashita, other characters and the story are mine
Publication Date: 04-21-2010

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Dedication:
This story is for Gackt and Hyde and all people who's writing inspired me.