A College Girl by Mrs George de Horne Vaizey (reading in the dark .TXT) đ
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She laid down the paper, and steadied herself resolutely. All over the room other girls were sitting on hard, uncomfortable chairs before tables like her own, some motionless and stunned-looking like herself, some already setting briskly to work. On the walls, among a number of quotations, âHelp one another!â stared her in the face with tragic significance, and again: âHow far high failure overleaps the bounds of low successes.â Failure! She lifted the paper again, and decided with a glimmer of hope that she could answer at least one question, set to work, and scribbled for life until the last moment of the prescribed three hours! What exhaustion! What collapse! Positively oneâs legs wobbled beneath one as one trailed wearily Newnhamwards. What a comfort to be fussed over and petted, treated as distinguished invalids whom the College was privileged to tend!
The Tripos girls âsat at Highâ at the head of the room, surrounded by attentive Dons, with the V.C. herself smiling encouragement, and urging them to second helpings of chicken (chicken!!). By the time that it was necessary to start forth for the afternoonâs ordeal they felt mentally and physically braced, and the operation feeling lessened sensibly.
At the afternoonâs ordeal, however, the weariness and depression grew more acute than ever, and on the walk home the comparing of answers had anything but a cheering effect. No girl was satisfied; each was morally convinced that her companions had done better than herself. Where she had failed to answer a question, a reminder of the solution filled her with despair. Of course! It was as simple as ABC. She had known it off by heart. Nothing short of softening of the brain could explain such idiotic forgetfulness.
It was a kindly custom which separated the sufferers on their return to College, each one being carried off by her special second-year adorer to a cheery little tea-party, for which the most congenial spirits and the most delectable fare were provided. Here the tired senior was soothed and fed, and her self-esteem revived by an attitude of reverence on the part of the audience. The second-year girls shuddered over the papers; were convinced that never, no never, could they face the like, and suggested that it would be a saving of time to go down at once.
Later on that first evening, when Marian White appeared to put her invalid to bed, she bore in her hand a letter from Margaret France, which Darsie hailed with a cry of joy.
âAh! I thought she would write to me. I wondered that I didnât have a letter this morning, but she was right as usual. She knew I should need it more to-night!â
Margaretâs letter was short and to the pointâ
âDearest Darsie,âA year ago you were cheering me! How I wish I could do the same for you in your need, but as I canât be present in the flesh, here comes a little line to greet you, old dear, and to tell you to be of good cheer. You are very tired, and very discouraged, and very blue. I know! Every one is. Itâs part of the game. Do you remember what a stern mentor I had, and how she bullied me, and packed me to bed, and took away my books? Oh, the good old times! The good old times, how happy we wereâhow I think of them now, and long to be back! But the best part remains, for I have still my friend, and you and I, Darsie, âbelongâ for our lives.
âCheer up, old dear! Youâve done a lot better than you think!
âMargaret.â
âWhatâs the matter now?â asked the second-year girl sharply, spying two big tears course slowly down her patientâs cheeks, and Darsie returned a stammering replyâ
âIâve had such a châchâcheering letter!â
âHave you indeed! The less of that sort of cheering you get this week, the better for you!â snapped Marian once more. She was jealous of Margaret France, as she was jealous of every girl in the College for whom Darsie Garnett showed a preference, and she strongly resented any interference with her own prerogative. âHurry into your dressing-gown, please, and Iâll brush your hair,â she said now in her most dictatorial tones. âIâm a pro. at brushing hairâa hair-dresser taught me how to do it. You hold the brush at the side to begin with, and work gradually round to the flat. I let a Fresher brush mine one right when Iâd a headache, and she began in the middle of my cheek. Thereâs been a coldness between us ever since. There! isnât that good? Gets right into the roots, doesnât it, and tingles them up! Nothing so soothing as a smooth, hard brush.â
Darsie shut her eyes and purred like a sleek, lazy little cat.
âDe-lic-ious! Lovely! You do brush well! I could sit here for hours.â
âYou wonât get a chance. Ten minutes at most, and then off you go, and not a peep at another book till to-morrow morning.â
âMarianâreallyâI must! Just for ten minutes, to revive my memory.â
âIâll tell you a story!â said Marian quietlyââa true story from my own experience. It was when I was at school and going in for the Cambridge Senior, the last week, when we were having the exams. We had slaved all the term, and were at the last gasp. The head girl was one Annie Macdiarmid, a marvel of a creature, the most all-round scholar Iâve ever met. She was invariably first in everything, and I usually came in a bad third. Well, weâd had an arithmetic exam, one day, pretty stiff, but not more so than usual, and on this particular morning at eleven oâclock we were waiting to hear the result. The Mathematic Master was a lambâso keen, and humorous, and justâa rageur at times, but that was only to be expected. He came into the room, papers in hand, his mouth screwed up, and his eyebrows nearly hidden under his hair. We knew at a glance that something awful had happened. He cleared his throat several times, and began to read aloud the arithmetic results. âTotal, a hundred. Bessie Smith, eighty-seven.â There was a rustle of surprise. Not Annie Macdiarmid? Just Bessieâan ordinary sort of creature, who wasnât going in for the Local at all. âMary Ross, eighty-two. Stella Bruce, seventy-four.â Where did I come in? Iâd never been lower than that. âKate Stevenson, sixty-four.â Some one else fifty, some one else forty, and thirty and twenty, and still not a mention of Annie Macdiarmid or of me. You should have seen her face! I shall never forget it. Green! and she laced her fingers in and out, and chewed, and chewed. I was too stunned to feel. The world seemed to have come to an end. Down it cameâsixteen, fourteen, tenâand then at lastâat bitter, long lastââMiss Marian White, six! Miss Macdiar-mid, Two!ââ
Darsie stared beneath the brush, drawing a long breath of dismay.
âWhat did you do?â
âNothing! That was where he showed himself so wise. An ordinary master would have raged and stormed, insisted upon our working for extra hours, going over and over the old ground, but he knew better. He just banged all the books together, tucked them under his arm, and called out: âNo more work! Put on your hats and run off home as fast as you can go, and tell your mothers from me to take you to the Waxworks, or a Wild Beast show. Donât dare to show yourselves in school again until Monday morning. Read as many stories as you please, but open a school book at your peril!ââ
Marian paused dramatically, Darsie peered at her through a mist of hair, and queried weakly, âWell?â
âWellâso we didnât! We just slacked and lazed, and amused ourselves till the Monday morning, and then, like giants refreshed, we went down to the fray andââ
âAnd what?â
âIâve told you before! I got second-class honours, and the Macdiarmid came out first in all England, distinction in a dozen subjectsâarithmetic among them. So now, Miss Garnett, kindly take the moral to heart, and let me hear no more nonsense about âreviving memories.â Your memory needs putting to sleep, so that it may wake up refreshed and active after a good nightâs rest.â
And Darsie weakly, reluctantly obeyed.
May week followed hard on the Tripos that year, but Darsie took no part in the festivities. The remembrance of the tragic event of last summer made her shrink from witnessing the same scenes, and in her physically exhausted condition she was thankful to stay quietly in college. Moreover, a sad task lay before her in the packing up her belongings, preparatory to bidding adieu to the beloved little room which had been the scene of so many joys and sorrows during the last three years.
Vie Vernon, as a publicly engaged young lady, was paying a round of visits to her fiancĂ©âs relations, but Mr and Mrs Vernon had come up as usual, arranging to keep on their rooms, so that they might have the satisfaction of being in Cambridge when the Tripos List came out. With a son like Dan and a daughter like Hannah, satisfaction was a foregone conclusion; calm, level-headed creatures both of them, who were not to be flurried or excited by the knowledge of a critical moment, but most sanely and sensibly collected their full panoply of wits to turn them to good account.
Hannah considered it in the last degree futile to dread an exam. âWhat else,â she would demand in forceful mannerââwhat else are you working for? For what other reason are you here?â But her arguments, though unanswerable, continued to be entirely unconvincing to Darsie and other nervously constituted students.
The same difference of temperament showed itself in the manner of waiting for results. Dan and Hannah, so to speak, wiped their pens after the writing of the last word of the last paper, and there and then resigned themselves to their fate. They had done their best; nothing more was possible in the way of addition or alterationâfor good or ill the die was cast. Then why worry? Wait quietly, and take what came along!
Blessed faculty of common sense! A man who is born with such a temperament escapes half the strain of life, though it is to be doubted whether he can rise to the same height of joy as his more imaginative neighbour, who lies awake shivering at the thought of possible ills, and can no more âwait quietlyâ for a momentous decision than he could breathe with comfort in a burning house.
When the morning arrived on which the results of the Tripos were to be posted on the door of the Senate House, Darsie and Hannah had taken a last sad farewell of their beloved Newnham, and were ensconced with Mr and Mrs Vernon in their comfortable rooms. The lists were expected to appear early in the morning, and the confident parents had arranged a picnic âcelebrationâ party for the afternoon.
Darsie never forgot that morningâthe walk to the Senate House with Dan and Hannah on either side, the sight of the waiting crowd, the strained efforts at conversation, the dragging hours.
At long last a list appearedâthe menâs list only: for the womenâs a further wait would be necessary. But one glance at the paper showed Danâs name proudly ensconced where every one had expected it would be, and in a minute he was surrounded by an eager throngâcongratulating, cheering, shaking him by the hand. He looked quiet as ever, but his eyes shone, and when Darsie held out her hand he gripped it with a violence which almost brought the tears to her eyes.
The crowd cleared away slowly, the women students retiring to refresh themselves with luncheon before beginning a second wait. The Vernons repaired to their rooms and feasted on the contents of the hamper prepared for the picnic, the father and mother abeam with pride and satisfaction, Dan obviously filled with
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