Mother by Maxim Gorky (bookstand for reading .TXT) 📖

seemed the very next instant that, in reference to Rybin, the word “stranger” was not in place; it jarred upon her.

“I’m not a relative of his; but I’ve known him for a long time, and I look up to him as to an elder brother.”

She was pained and displeased not to find the word she wanted, and she could not suppress a quiet groan. A sad stillness pervaded the hut. Pyotr leaned his head upon one shoulder; his little beard, narrow and sharp, stuck out comically on one side, and gave his shadow swinging on the wall the appearance of a man sticking out his tongue teasingly. Stepan sat with his elbows on the table, and beat a tattoo on the boards. His wife stood at the oven without stirring; the mother felt her look riveted upon herself and often glanced at the woman’s face—oval, swarthy, with a straight nose, and a chin cut off short; her dark and thick eyebrows joined sternly, her eyelids drooped, and from under them her greenish eyes shone sharply and intently.

“A friend, that is to say,” said Pyotr quietly. “He has character, indeed he has; he esteems himself highly, as he ought to; he has put a high price on himself, as he ought to. There’s a man, Tatyana! You say–-”

“Is he married?” Tatyana interposed, and compressed the thin lips of her small mouth.

“He’s a widower,” answered the mother sadly.

“That’s why he’s so brave,” remarked Tatyana. Her utterance was low and difficult. “A married man like him wouldn’t go—he’d be afraid.”

“And I? I’m married and everything, and yet—” exclaimed Pyotr.

“Enough!” she said without looking at him and twisting her lips. “Well, what are you? You only talk a whole lot, and on rare occasions you read a book. It doesn’t do people much good for you and Stepan to whisper to each other on the corners.”

“Why, sister, many people hear me,” quietly retorted the peasant, offended. “I act as a sort of yeast here. It isn’t fair in you to speak that way.”

Stepan looked at his wife silently and again drooped his head.

“And why should a peasant marry?” asked Tatyana. “He needs a worker, they say. What work?”

“You haven’t enough? You want more?” Stepan interjected dully.

“But what sense is there in the work we do? We go half-hungry from day to day anyhow. Children are born; there’s no time to look after them on account of the work that doesn’t give us bread.” She walked up to the mother, sat down next to her, and spoke on stubbornly, no plaint nor mourning in her voice. “I had two children; one, when he was two years old, was boiled to death in hot water; the other was born dead—from this thrice-accursed work. Such a happy life! I say a peasant has no business to marry. He only binds his hands. If he were free he would work up to a system of life needed by everybody. He would come out directly and openly for the truth. Am I right, mother?”

“You are. You’re right, my dear. Otherwise we can’t conquer life.”

“Have you a husband?”

“He died. I have a son.”

“And where is he? Does he live with you?”

“He’s in prison.” The mother suddenly felt a calm pride in these words, usually painful to her. “This is the second time—all because he came to understand God’s truth and sowed it openly without sparing himself. He’s a young man, handsome, intelligent; he planned a newspaper, and gave Mikhail Ivanovich a start on his way, although he’s only half of Mikhail’s age. Now they’re going to try my son for all this, and sentence him; and he’ll escape from Siberia and continue with his work.”

Her pride waxed as she spoke. It created the image of a hero, and demanded expression in words. The mother needed an offset— something fine and bright—to balance the gloomy incident she had witnessed that day, with its senseless horror and shameless cruelty. Instinctively yielding to this demand of a healthy soul, she reached out for everything she had seen that was pure and shining and heaped it into one dazzling, cleansing fire.

“Many such people have already been born, more and more are being born, and they will all stand up for the freedom of the people, for the truth, to the very end of their lives.”

She forgot precaution, and although she did not mention names, she told everything known to her of the secret work for the emancipation of the people from the chains of greed. In depicting the personalities she put all her force into her words, all the abundance of love awakened in her so late by her rousing experiences. And she herself became warmly enamored of the images rising up in her memory, illumined and beautified by her feeling.

“The common cause advances throughout the world in all the cities. There’s no measuring the power of the good people. It keeps growing and growing, and it will grow until the hour of our victory, until the resurrection of truth.”

Her voice flowed on evenly, the words came to her readily, and she quickly strung them, like bright, varicolored beads, on strong threads of her desire to cleanse her heart of the blood and filth of that day. She saw that the three people were as if rooted to the spot where her speech found them, and that they looked at her without stirring. She heard the intermittent breathing of the woman sitting by her side, and all this magnified the power of her faith in what she said, and in what she promised these people.

“All those who have a hard life, whom want and injustice crush—it’s the rich and the servitors of the rich who have overpowered them. The whole people ought to go out to meet those who perish in the dungeons for them, and endure mortal torture. Without gain to themselves they show where the road to happiness for all people lies. They frankly admit it is a hard road, and they force no one to follow them. But once you take your position by their side you will never leave them. You will see it is the true, the right road. With such persons the people may travel. Such persons will not be reconciled to small achievements; they will not stop until they will vanquish all deceit, all evil and greed. They will not fold their hands until the people are welded into one soul, until the people will say in one voice: ‘I am the ruler, and I myself will make the laws equal for all.’”

She ceased from exhaustion, and looked about. Her words would not be wasted here, she felt assured. The silence lasted for a minute, while the peasants regarded her as if expecting more. Pyotr stood in the middle of the hut, his hands clasped behind his back, his eyes screwed up, a smile quivering on his freckled face. Stepan was leaning one hand on the table; with his neck and entire body forward, he seemed still to be listening. A shadow on his face gave it more finish. His wife, sitting beside the mother, bent over, her elbows on her knees, and studied her feet.

“That’s how it is,” whispered Pyotr, and carefully sat on the bench, shaking his head.

Stepan slowly straightened himself, looked at his wife, and threw his hands in the air, as if grasping for something.

“If a man takes up this work,” he began thoughtfully in a moderated voice, “then his entire soul is needed.”

Pyotr timidly assented:

“Yes, he mustn’t look back.”

“The work has spread very widely,” continued Stepan.

“Over the whole earth,” added Pyotr.

They both spoke like men walking in darkness, groping for the way with their feet. The mother leaned against the wall, and throwing back her head listened to their careful utterances. Tatyana arose, looked around, and sat down again. Her green eyes gleamed dryly as she looked into the peasants’ faces with dissatisfaction and contempt.

“It seems you’ve been through a lot of misery,” she said, suddenly turning to the mother.

“I have.”

“You speak well. You draw—you draw the heart after your talk. It makes me think, it makes me think, ‘God! If I could only take a peep at such people and at life through a chink!’ How does one live? What life has one? The life of sheep. Here am I; I can read and write; I read books, I think a whole lot. Sometimes I don’t even sleep the entire night because I think. And what sense is there in it? If I don’t think, my existence is a purposeless existence; and if I do, it is also purposeless. And everything seems purposeless. There are the peasants, who work and tremble over a piece of bread for their homes, and they have nothing. It hurts them, enrages them; they drink, fight, and work again—work, work, work. But what comes of it? Nothing.”

She spoke with scorn in her eyes and in her voice, which was low and even, but at times broke off like a taut thread overstrained. The peasants were silent,, the wind glided by the window panes, buzzed through the straw of the roofs, and at times whined softly down the chimney. A dog barked, and occasional drops of rain pattered on the window. Suddenly the light flared in the lamp, dimmed, but in a second sprang up again even and bright.

“I listened to your talk, and I see what people live for now. It’s so strange—I hear you, and I think, ‘Why, I know all this.’ And yet, until you said it, I hadn’t heard such things, and I had no such thoughts. Yes.”

“I think we ought to take something to eat, and put out the lamp,” said Stepan, somberly and slowly. “People will notice that at the Chumakovs’ the light burned late. It’s nothing for us, but, it might turn out bad for the guest.”

Tatyana arose and walked to the oven.

“Ye-es,” Pyotr said softly, with a smile. “Now, friend, keep your ears pricked. When the papers appear among the people–-”

“I’m not speaking of myself. If they arrest me, it’s no great matter.”

The wife came up to the table and asked Stepan to make room.

He arose and watched her spread the table as he stood to one side.

“The price of fellows of our kind is a nickel a bundle, a hundred in a bundle,” he said with a smile.

The mother suddenly pitied him. He now pleased her more.

“You don’t judge right, host,” she said. “A man mustn’t agree to the price put upon him by people from the outside, who need nothing of him except his blood. You, knowing yourself within, must put your own estimate on yourself—your price, not for your enemies, but for your friends.”

“What friends have we?” the peasant exclaimed softly. “Up to the first piece of bread.”

“And I say that the people have friends.”

“Yes, they have, but not here—that’s the trouble,” Stepan deliberated.

“Well, then create them here.”

Stepan reflected a while. “We’ll try.”

“Sit down at the table,” Tatyana invited her.

At supper, Pyotr, who had been subdued by the talk of the mother and appeared to be at a loss, began to speak again with animation:

“Mother, you ought to get out of here as soon as possible, to escape notice. Go to the next station, not to the city—hire the post horses.”

“Why? I’m going to see her off!” said Stepan.

“You mustn’t. In case anything happens and they ask you whether she slept in your house—‘She did.’ ‘When did she go?’ ‘I saw her off.’ ‘Aha! You did? Please come to prison!’ Do you understand? And no one ought to be in a hurry to get into prison; everybody’s turn will