The Unfinished Story by Char Marie Adles (the rosie project txt) 📖

of what they said being that I had ran the family’s company for three years. Things seemed so lively.
When Kail left to get some more tea, Sen came to sit next to me.
“I’m guessing we have bored you?”
“No for the first time in my life I am completely happy,” I said patting him on the shoulder.
Before I even knew what he was doing he snagged me by the waist and pressed himself close to me.
“Are you sure you don’t want to become mine?” he breathed in my ear.
I sighed and pushed away from him “Yes I am sure. I am Kail’s to do whatever he wishes to do to me. And not be rude, but you just aren’t him. I love him.” I said quietly.
He nodded. “Even if he wants to do that to you?”
“Yes, if it is his wish. I have always had things my way before. Now I want to spoil him.
He deserves it.” I said, a bit confused.
“I see that’s how this is.” and with that Kail came back so we couldn’t talk anymore.
Then suddenly “Kail gives Ash to me.” Sen said.
I chocked on my tea and so did Kail.
“What?!” He asked surprised.
“Give Ash to me.” Sen said again.
I looked down not knowing what to do.
“No. I will not.” Kail said.
He was sitting so close to me I could feel the heat of his body. I felt his hand take mine.
I looked at his face, surprised, it was slightly red.
How I wish I could tell him I was not a boy, but a girl.
Sen sighed deeply and bowed to us. “Well then I must bid you goodnight,” he came over and whispered something in Kail’s ear.
“What?! What are you saying all of a sudden?!” Kail exclaimed as Sen left with a chuckle.
I tilted my head and studied his face. “What is it?”
He couldn’t look at me. “I’m all sweaty from today perhaps you can help with my bath? But I don’t need a full bath. A cloth bath is good.”
“Is that like a sponge bath?” I asked.
“Sponge? It’s where you wash off with a bowl of hot water and a cloth,” he said.
“So it is like a sponge bath. Okay I’ll go get the stuff.” I said and left to get hot water and some rags.
I brought back the rags and the bowl and sat them down.
“Okay take off that thing and let me start my work,” he slid the top of his kimono down to his waist and I started washing his back.
“What was your dream growing up?” I asked.
“What do you mean?” he asked.
“What did you want to be? Dreams and things like that. Do you want to have children?
Or do you want to be this big important guy with nothing but work and money,” I asked.
“If you tell me yours I’ll tell my mine,” he stalled.
“Sure. My dream was to be free and find someone who won’t leave me. Someone that could love me too. I want children someday and as for getting married I want that too. But see as how I am. I know most of those won’t happen. Also my deepest wish is to have the one thing I’ve never had in my life,” I said coming around to his front to wash his chest and shoulders.
I swallowed, because one look of his body made mine feel all hot when I looked at it. I noticed that he was all muscle and had a six-pack. I came to his front again and touched them, not think of what I was doing. I had never since a man before without clothes on.
He just sat still.
“And what is that?” he asked softly.
“Love,” I said.
I worked for a while then paused. “Now yours.”
He nodded. “I wanted to be a normal man and be free growing up, but that can’t happen. I want to marry and have children if possible. And more than anything else I want love as well if I marry.”
I nodded. Then realized that I had been talking more like a girl then a boy.
When I was done I tugged on his kimono.
“Take the rest off so I can finish,” I said pulling his kimono.
He grabbed it from my hand saying “It fine you don’t need to!”
Somehow we ended up standing and wrestling over his kimono.
“I’m doing my job now sit and let me finish!” I said breathing heavily.
“I said it was fine! Let go!” he said.
Then as I stepped back the heel of my foot caught some water.
Thud!
I fell flat on my back with Kail on top of me. Then I felt why he didn’t want me to finish his bathing.
“You…” I said feeling that weird inside feeling again.
He looked away from my face and rolled off of me. He sat with his back to me.
“You...why? The monks were the same but-”
He cut me off by standing and yelling. “The feelings I have for you are LOVE! Not lust like those monks!”
I was speechless. “But…”
“Yes I want you,” he said through gritted teeth, “But out of love…not lust.”
He turned away from me.
He had said he loves me!
“Kail-” I started. But he stopped me.
“I’m sick and twisted. I know this is wrong, but I can’t help but feel this way-”
I cut him off by putting my hand over his mouth. “Kail…you’re not the only person who feels that way.”
“I know. You have the right to feel sick with me.” he said looking away.
I stood on the tips of my toes and pulled him down so my lips were touching his ear.
“No not that way. I love you. That’s how I feel.” I whispered in his ear.
He went still, frozen like a marble statue. “What?” it sounded as if something was chocking him.
I pulled back. “I said ‘I love you’. If you meant what you said then you have to make me believe it.” I said smiling.
“How?” he smoothed a hand over my back.
“You can kiss me if you love me.” I whispered.
He pressed him lips to mine in a gentle caress. He moved slowly and he licked my lips as well.
Is this is kissing? I never saw it before but I had heard of it from others. I like this kissing…it makes me feel as if I’m melting, but after kissing comes…
No I have to keep me being a girl secret or I can’t be with him anymore!
I pulled away from him and wrapped my arms around him.
“This is enough for tonight, Ash,” he said into my hair.
I nodded. As I started to walk off towards my room he stopped me.
“Ash, um if you want to you can…um,” he looked uncomfortable. “You can sleep with me tonight.”
I felt my heart jump and I walked over to him. “I…I would like that,” I said, shyly.
I have to be careful of him finding out that I was a girl though.
We went to his room and his dressed into a robe. While I changed into a thick robe in the other room. He laid in the futon and held the cover open for me.
I couldn’t find my mind was brought back through time so this would happen or what.
I have been tortured and I have almost died again yet to be saved by him twice. This is way I’m here, I decided.
We slept apart, but could still fill his warmth and he held my hand in his.
My last thoughts were his hand is so big and so warm. So nice and his smell…intoxicating.


Chapter five
Change of heart


It was a week after Kail had told me that he loves me and I haven’t seen him since the night we slept together in the same futon. He has been working hard a week for a festival. But I couldn’t help but wonder if he didn’t want me anymore.
I paced and read more of the diary. Anything I could think of to stop thinking, but I couldn’t.
This is what you get for falling in love! The torture of never knowing and the worries and the hope and all this madness.
I dropped to the ground and sighed. Kail had told me that he loves me, but the me he loves is a boy. He doesn’t know the real me the girl. He had saved me from drowning to death when I was taken back ancient Japan. He probably forgot about me, by now.
And I’m being a stupid worrywart.
He was only being nice to see me in when I was hurt. And I guess mother was the one person who was probably thinking I was a slave now or even dead. And I was glad to meet her. This friend of my mom’s, she was so kind and beautiful.
I sighed. A went over to my bag and pulled out the diary. It hadn’t been damaged coming back and it was the only thing I had left beside my jewelry I had hidden. I opened the diary.
I had stopped on. Page twenty.

Today was wonderful, I must tell you everything, but first I have to say I now know Japanese enough to understand him fully now. Kei has been most wonderful I have been here only three week, but I must confess I love him. He is my first love. But I can’t find the courage to tell him. But today he took me to see the gardens and as I smelled a flower he was smiling oh so sweetly, for he did not know I was watching. After that he had to go to work. But he came back as the sun was setting. We talked and had tea. He told me to wait a moment as he reached into his robes and pulled out a small silver hair clip that had two rubies in it. He said it was for me. I let him put it in my hair and as he did he whispered
something in my ear.