Wonderland by Bellaa Dream (ebook and pdf reader txt) 📖

admit, I LOVED the idea of a drug dealer boyfriend.

"Oh thats nice. How was it there?" "Pretty damn beautiful just like you." He said softly stroking my face. I giggled "Haaa... Well um you still fucking with that nigga T.O?" I stared at him long and hard. "How'd you know bout us? You were.. Gone.." "Im telling you. I got people everywhere. I had some people looking out for you. Like when them strange packages of clothing and jewlery and cases of money popped up at your appartment, that was MY doing. "Well damn. You offical though. I feel loved and all special." "You should.. cause you are" I smiled. "Haa. So uh how my lil nigga Lasiren doing?" "He's doing good. Real good." "Grade wise? Is he pulling hoes? He gotta job yet?" "His grades are outstanding. And pulling hoes for him is like breathing. Its natural. And nah. He dosent have a job yet. Besides i provide his wants and needs." "Thats wassup. But hey. You know i can put his bird looking self on right?" "Dont be throwing shade on my brother. You look like a bird too. Ole ostritch looking nigga. But nah. he good. we good."

"Ha alright. But you say you make enough for both of yall. Where you working at?" I hesitated.. "I work at king of diamonds. Which you probally already knew since you had people checking up on me" "Nah i didnt know. But thats why you cornbread thick nah! You a stripper. thats cool" "Aha yeaaaa" "How long you been working there?" "For a few years now" He grinned hard. And then and there i fell in love. His charming smile drove me half insane. His 6'1 tall dark chococlate ass always had a spot in my heart. And he knew it too.

"But maaan.You still with T.O? Cause yeen answer my question earlier." I giggled sickly at his suspense. "Haha. No. Not anymore. We broke up a while back." "He neglected something real good." He hesitated then i cut him off before he could utter another word. "Just like you did" "You right. And i apoligize bout that" He stared me down. "Well uh. Anyways i gotta go." I was lieing. I didnt have anything to do. I was getting caught in my feelings and i was not down for that. "Dang ma. Well whats yo #?" "905-264-3628" "Alright. Catch ya later. Maybe we can hang out later on in the week?" "Souns good." I sprinted back to my hooker red impala and drove off not looking back. I headded towards my bestfriend Leanna's house. 

Just a simple movie night??

I knocked on the door and her ugly ass baby daddy came to the door. He's tried to get with me so many times but.. Ew. T.O had to beat his ass countless times over me. "Ugh get out the waaay. Where my sister at?" "In the back you rude ass foul ass lil girl" "Shut yo ass up, God i cant stand you!" I guess Leanna heard all the raket and came running towards us.

"Whats going-------LAYLA! I missed you. Where you been? Why you aient been calling me? Yo god baby missing you. Whats been up?" "Chile i been everywhere. You know im always busy. Andking od diamonds still wearing me down. And where is my godson? I been missing him too. But oo. Lemme tell you who i ran into today!" She gazed at me long. "Who? Cause you giving me that goofy ass smile. You saw T.O or something? "PSH. No. He still texting me too. But that's beside the point. I saw Jayden !"

"Bro. You lieing. I Could've swarn he was.. Dead. I miss him!" "Yea.. He was on one of them 'Ima put the mac on her' type of missions. And he got me all caught up in my feelings so i just left." She smacked my thigh. "Ow! What was that for?" "Dont you DARE go running back to him! I dont wanna see you hurt AGAIN. Cause IM gonna beat his ass." She looked serious. "I know you dont wanna see me hurt.. But.. He's.. He's diffrent now. I can tell. He's grown up." "Do whatever you chose to.. But play it smart baby girl. I dont want to have to hurt him. Seriously. I'll do it over you." We both laughed cause we knew she was SO SERIOUS. We sat there and Reminised and cracked jokes for hours until it was time for me to head to work.

Round this time i always get worried about Lasiren. Like was he home and safe and okay? Had he done his homework? Had he eaten? But i had to put my game face on and carried on thru the night knowing i couldnt go running home to him whenever i wanted. "Aye rain, You gotta blunt?""You know i got you bae." She handed me an extendo roll. "Dont smoke ALL my shit nah." "Haa. I wont." I needed weed to get through the night of being groaped and touched and watched. I remember i started smoking when i was 9. My mother would give me her leftover blunts.

But.. I mean.. I had gotten used to it. The strange men in the club. But it took a while. I remember my first few nights i would run off stage crying until one day Nicki told me he'd fire me. I gave a few dances to the "Special clients" , Preformed onstage and headed home. I got home and Lasiren was knocked out on his air matress in front of our blasting flat screen t.v. If the house was broken into he wouldnt even know. I turned off the lights and tv and, Covered him up cause it was colder than a polar bear's ass then showered and nodded off to sleep. King of diamonds had me DOG TIRED.

The next morning i woke to Lasiren making us breakfast. I kissed him on the cheeck. "Morning kid. Thanks." "Morning. Welcome" "So umm. What we doing today lil nigga?" He always had the day planned out to a perfect t. "I just want it to be a inside type of chill day." "Okay. Okaay. What we finna do inside all darn day?" "I didnt say ALL day. HAAAA. Your reeeeaally funny." He smirked sickley. I know his ass had something planned. And i knew i probally wouldnt wanna do it.

"Soo----" He yelled from the back of the appt. He was searching for something. "After school i went to redbox & got 5 movies. Ted, Set it off, Casper, El derado, And albino farm." "Nigga you know im afraid of albino farm! Thats not funny!" "Just give the WHOLE movie a try. For meeeee?" "Okay. Gosh." "And i got tons of popcorn and soda & we can make the nachos and shit, Oh and when you wanna do this? Sometime tonight or now?" I looked at the clock and it was 10:15. "Umm.. Tonight at 9?" "Okay, Now we can do the other part of the plan right now. Go get dressed. Approiatly. Not no freakum dresses." "Okay FATHER!!" I was wondering what his sneaky ass had going on.

I put on soft suttle light brown eyeshadow, And slipped on my tan skinnies & my white camisol with my tan mesh shirt & my black wedges with tan lace on them. "Zamn zaddy, Waass yo nameee?" Lasiren joked round'. "Boy get on somewhere. You look all handsome. Where we going maaaan?" "Dont ask no questions." I knew not to. I always wanted to make him happy. He gave me an adress to some apartment complex. "Pull up to building B" "iight" I hesitated before i got out the car. Not sure if he wanted me to follow him up or not.

"Come on!" I then remembered he had been secretly talking to someone. Was he going to meet them? Why was i apart of this? What was he hiding? I smelled this strange stinch in the air when i hopped out the car. Lasiren jetted up the stairs mumbling numbers under his breath. "187..187..187..187". We got to this door with the numbers 187 and he waltzed right in. WTF? Were they waiting on us? I stalled then proceeded.

Kid toys were all over the floor. Then a little boy came from the back running full speed towards me and nearly knocked me over. He stopped then stared me down for a good 30 seconds. He looked like Lasiren. Alot like Lasiren. The hazel eyes, Tiny nose, Big bow lips. He then screamed a big "HI!" at me. "Hey handsome" He then went on about his biz outside. I heard Lasiren sniffling and mumbling something. Then a female voice mumbled something too. The sounds were muffled like the door was closed or something. My heart was racing. "Lasiren!" I called out in fear.

The door opened and the female voice spoke softly. "Is that her?" "Yea, thats her." Lasiren's voice was cracking like he had been crying or something. The appt. smelled of cigars and Jasmine White Blossoms. The ones my mom used to smoke and the smell of my mother's purfume she always wore. Then reality hit me. More like slapped me with a plank of wood.

This was my mom's appt. That was.. Her son.. My.. My brother. Lasiren had been talking to mom this whole entire time. He set this all up. He set ME up. He knew how i felt about mom, I cant believe him! "Can you come here Layla?" Lasiren whispered out to me. My heart sunk to my ass and i thought i was gonna shit it out. I swallowed a huge chunk of my pride and walked towards the back of the appt. How long had they been talking? How did they first BEGAN talking? Was she.. Clean? I mean obviously. But.. Was she off that oo wee for good? Had this.. Been the life she so longed for? Once i got to the room she shot me a slight smile. Lasiren didnt even look my way, insted he looked at the floor.

She looked like the mother i once had. The lively one. When i was much much younger. Beautiful. She had always been a looker..Even when she was on that oo wee. It made me slightly happy to see her clean. But i was still angry. I cant even imagine how stank my face was. She was puffing on hella srong ass weed. Made me dizzy. She signaled me to sit beside her. I motioned over still silent. "Hey there lay lay. You look so.. Lovely." "Hey.. Thanks" My voice cracked. "How you been mama?" "Good. As you can see. Yo no give hug?" Her english improved. Mom was asian and black. More asian than black though.

I gave her a weak side hug. "Aw. You do better than that. I know you can. Why you act like this? You no see your mother in 10 years and you act so evil. Why?" "Because.. You just up and fucking left us like we were nothing! You followed the drugs insted of your dreams of a family. Now what? You wanna be a mother? Ha! Fuck that! Its been 10 years and we've been just fine without