so great a credit it does to man. As for me, Iâve long resolved not to think whether man created God or God man. And I wonât go through all the axioms laid down by Russian boys on that subject, all derived from European hypotheses; for whatâs a hypothesis there, is an axiom with the Russian boy, and not only with the boys but with their teachers too, for our Russian professors are often just the same boys themselves. And so I omit all the hypotheses. For what are we aiming at now? I am trying to explain as quickly as possible my essential nature, that is what manner of man I am, what I believe in, and for what I hope, thatâs it, isnât it? And therefore I tell you that I accept God simply. But you must note this: if God exists and if He really did create the world, then, as we all know, He created it according to the geometry of Euclid and the human mind with the conception of only three dimensions in space. Yet there have been and still are geometricians and philosophers, and even some of the most distinguished, who doubt whether the whole universe, or to speak more widely the whole of being, was only created in Euclidâs geometry; they even dare to dream that two parallel lines, which according to Euclid can never meet on earth, may meet somewhere in infinity. I have come to the conclusion that, since I canât understand even that, I canât expect to understand about God. I acknowledge humbly that I have no faculty for settling such questions, I have a Euclidian earthly mind, and how could I solve problems that are not of this world? And I advise you never to think about it either, my dear Alyosha, especially about God, whether He exists or not. All such questions are utterly inappropriate for a mind created with an idea of only three dimensions. And so I accept God and am glad to, and whatâs more, I accept His wisdom, His purposeâ âwhich are utterly beyond our ken; I believe in the underlying order and the meaning of life; I believe in the eternal harmony in which they say we shall one day be blended. I believe in the Word to Which the universe is striving, and Which Itself was âwith God,â and Which Itself is God and so on, and so on, to infinity. There are all sorts of phrases for it. I seem to be on the right path, donât I? Yet would you believe it, in the final result I donât accept this world of Godâs, and, although I know it exists, I donât accept it at all. Itâs not that I donât accept God, you must understand, itâs the world created by Him I donât and cannot accept. Let me make it plain. I believe like a child that suffering will be healed and made up for, that all the humiliating absurdity of human contradictions will vanish like a pitiful mirage, like the despicable fabrication of the impotent and infinitely small Euclidian mind of man, that in the worldâs finale, at the moment of eternal harmony, something so precious will come to pass that it will suffice for all hearts, for the comforting of all resentments, for the atonement of all the crimes of humanity, of all the blood theyâve shed; that it will make it not only possible to forgive but to justify all that has happened with menâ âbut though all that may come to pass, I donât accept it. I wonât accept it. Even if parallel lines do meet and I see it myself, I shall see it and say that theyâve met, but still I wonât accept it. Thatâs whatâs at the root of me, Alyosha; thatâs my creed. I am in earnest in what I say. I began our talk as stupidly as I could on purpose, but Iâve led up to my confession, for thatâs all you want. You didnât want to hear about God, but only to know what the brother you love lives by. And so Iâve told you.â
Ivan concluded his long tirade with marked and unexpected feeling.
âAnd why did you begin âas stupidly as you couldâ?â asked Alyosha, looking dreamily at him.
âTo begin with, for the sake of being Russian. Russian conversations on such subjects are always carried on inconceivably stupidly. And secondly, the stupider one is, the closer one is to reality. The stupider one is, the clearer one is. Stupidity is brief and artless, while intelligence wriggles and hides itself. Intelligence is a knave, but stupidity is honest and straightforward. Iâve led the conversation to my despair, and the more stupidly I have presented it, the better for me.â
âYou will explain why you donât accept the world?â said Alyosha.
âTo be sure I will, itâs not a secret, thatâs what Iâve been leading up to. Dear little brother, I donât want to corrupt you or to turn you from your stronghold, perhaps I want to be healed by you.â Ivan smiled suddenly quite like a little gentle child. Alyosha had never seen such a smile on his face before.
IV
Rebellion
âI must make you one confession,â Ivan began. âI could never understand how one can love oneâs neighbors. Itâs just oneâs neighbors, to my mind, that one canât love, though one might love those at a distance. I once read somewhere of John the Merciful, a saint, that when a hungry, frozen beggar came to him, he took him into his bed, held him in his arms, and began breathing into his mouth, which was putrid and loathsome from some awful disease. I am convinced that he did that from âself-laceration,â from the self-laceration of falsity, for the sake of the charity imposed by duty, as a penance laid on him. For anyone to love a man, he must be hidden, for as soon as he shows his face, love is
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