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During all this time Fothergill occupied himself with the papers. He continued to turn over one sheet after another, as though he were deeply engaged in money considerations and calculations. But, in truth, during all that time he did not read a word. There was nothing there for him to read. The reading and the writing, and the arithmetic in such matters, are done by underlingsâ ânot by such big men as Mr. Fothergill. His business was to tell Sowerby that he was to go. All those records there were of very little use. The duke had the power; Sowerby knew that the duke had the power; and Fothergillâs business was to explain that the duke meant to exercise his power. He was used to the work, and went on turning over the papers and pretending to read them, as though his doing so were of the greatest moment.
âI shall see the duke myself,â Mr. Sowerby said at last, and there was something almost dreadful in the sound of his voice.
âYou know that the duke wonât see you on a matter of this kind. He never speaks to anyone about money; you know that as well as I do.â
âBy âž», but he shall speak to me. Never speak to anyone about money! Why is he ashamed to speak of it when he loves it so dearly? He shall see me.â
âI have nothing further to say, Sowerby. Of course I shanât ask his grace to see you; and if you force your way in on him you know what will happen. It wonât be my doing if he is set against you. Nothing that you say to me in that wayâ ânothing that anybody ever saysâ âgoes beyond myself.â
âI shall manage the matter through my own lawyer,â said Sowerby; and then he took his hat, and, without uttering another word, left the room.
We know not what may be the nature of that eternal punishment to which those will be doomed who shall be judged to have been evil at the last; but methinks that no more terrible torment can be devised than the memory of self-imposed ruin. What wretchedness can exceed that of remembering from day to day that the race has been all run, and has been altogether lost; that the last chance has gone, and has gone in vain; that the end has come, and with it disgrace, contempt, and self-scornâ âdisgrace that never can be redeemed, contempt that never can be removed, and self-scorn that will eat into oneâs vitals forever?
Mr. Sowerby was now fifty; he had enjoyed his chances in life; and as he walked back, up South Audley Street, he could not but think of the uses he had made of them. He had fallen into the possession of a fine property on the attainment of his manhood; he had been endowed with more than average gifts of intellect; never-failing health had been given to him, and a vision fairly clear in discerning good from evil; and now to what a pass had he brought himself!
And that man Fothergill had put all this before him in so terribly clear a light! Now that the day for his final demolishment had arrived, the necessity that he should be demolishedâ âfinished away at once, out of sight and out of mindâ âhad not been softened, or, as it were, half hidden, by any ambiguous phrase. âYou have had your cake, and eaten itâ âeaten it greedily. Is not that sufficient for you? Would you eat your cake twice? Would you have a succession of cakes? No, my friend; there is no succession of these cakes for those who eat them greedily. Your proposition is not a fair one, and we who have the whip-hand of you will not listen to it. Be good enough to vanish. Permit yourself to be swept quietly into the dunghill. All that there was about you of value has departed from you; and allow me to say that you are nowâ ârubbish.â And then the ruthless besom comes with irresistible rush, and the rubbish is swept into the pit, there to be hidden forever from the sight.
And the pity of it is thisâ âthat a man, if he will only restrain his greed, may eat his cake and yet have it; ay, and in so doing will have twice more the flavour of the cake than he who with gourmandizing maw will devour his dainty all at once. Cakes in this world will grow by being fed on, if only the feeder be not too insatiate. On all which wisdom Mr. Sowerby pondered with sad heart and very melancholy mind as he walked away from the premises of Messrs. Gumption and Gagebee.
His intention had been to go down to the House after leaving Mr. Fothergill, but the prospect of immediate ruin had been too much for him, and he knew that he was not fit to be seen at once among the haunts of men. And he had intended also to go down to Barchester early on the following morningâ âonly for a few hours, that he might make further arrangements respecting that bill which Robarts had accepted for him. That billâ âthe second oneâ âhad now become due, and Mr. Tozer had been with him.
âNow it ainât no use
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