Ryder: A Wings of Diablo MC Novel Rae Lake (motivational novels .txt) 📖

where my pain medication was but I felt like I was dying and those pills were the only lifeline I had.

“Fuck!” I slammed my hands down on the bed and balled the sheets in my fists. I bit down hard on the inside of my cheek trying to draw my attention away from the pain in my body but it was no contest. I had never felt a pain like this before in my life. I threw my arm over my mouth and I screamed out in pain. I didn’t want to wake anyone else up but there was no way that I could hold it in.

A light flicked on, temporarily blinding me in the process.

“Ryder? What’s wrong? Are you ok?”

Cherry.

“Do I look fucking ok?” I growled in her direction.

I heard her footsteps stop, she was going to leave.

“No wait,” I blinked a few times trying to get my vision back before I turned my head back towards her, “don’t leave, I need help.” I was in enough pain that I would’ve begged if it meant she would stop the pain.

She rushed over to where I was. “What is it, do you need me to get Mikki or Doc?”

I shook my head, I didn’t want to cause all that commotion, I just wanted to take the pills the doctor gave me. “No, just help me find my medicine, I must have dropped it somewhere this afternoon, it has to be here on the floor.”

Without another word, the woman dropped down on her hands and knees to search for the pills. It was almost as if my body knew that relief was so close. The pain seemed to double in the few seconds that Cherry had been in the room searching for the meds.

It felt like my head was swaying back and forth and bile threatened to spew from my mouth, I was about to pass the fuck out from the pain. “Cherry, please.”

“Oh, babe, I’m coming I swear, I’m going as fast as I can. I don’t see them.” I heard her shuffling frantically on the floor moving the few items I had around trying to find the small orange bottle. “Got it!” She exclaimed before she popped back up and opened the bottle for me.

I took three pills out of the container and tossed them into my mouth, it was triple the recommended dose but I didn’t feel like I was in the normal amount of pain.

“Let me get you some water.” Cherry ran out the door and back in a few seconds later with a glass of cool water for me to sip. She had a wet rag in her other hand that she was trying to wipe my face with it. Everything in me wanted to push her through a wall.

“Cherry, stop. I’m fine. You can go away now.” I grunted and ground my teeth through every word I said. I had taken the medication but they hadn’t kicked in yet, the pain was still at an intolerable level.

“No, Ryder. I’m not leaving right now, curse me out if you want.” She shrugged waiting for me to attack, but I didn't have the energy.

“I’m not going to curse you out, stay if you want.” I slammed my head back onto the pillow, I would do anything right now to be knocked the hell out.

“Is it your back, what is bothering you?”

“No it’s not my back, it's my body.” I groaned and tried to lock my body down, I had begun to tremble and the more I moved the more it hurt.

“What do you mean like your stomach? Your chest?” She asked again lightly swiping her petite fingers down my body. I looked down at my stomach and it was like my brain couldn’t register where the pain was coming from, there should be no pain.

“No, my legs. My legs hurt.”

Her face scrunched up in a confused manner before she looked down at my limp lifeless appendages. “But how?” She asked quietly.

I understood her confusion, I was confused myself. I still couldn’t even move a single toe on my foot but it felt like someone had an open torch to everything from my navel down, every muscle fiber felt like it was on fire. Pins and needles but on hyperdrive.

“I don’t know, I don’t fucking know.”

She swiped a finger down my thigh and looked back up to my face, “Did you feel that?”

“No Charity, I can’t feel shit besides the fucking pain.” I closed my eyes and clenched my body harder. This was no way to live, I didn’t think I was going to be able to take this, now I knew for sure that I couldn’t. I wasn’t cut out for this life.

“Look, I am not a doctor so I don’t know much but you look tense as hell, can I try something? Maybe if you relax a bit the pain will ease a bit.”

“Does it look like I can relax a bit?” I asked I could feel the lid on my rage threatening to blow off. If I could calm down I would do it, if I could make the pain go away I would do it. If I could walk I would do it but I couldn’t, I didn’t have any control over my body.

She raised a hand to ease me, “Can I try something? I promise I won’t do anything you don’t want me to do but I know you are always relaxed when we lay together. I’m not talking about fucking just me laying down with you. You want to try?”

I looked at her like she was stupid, why the fuck would that put me at ease? Cherry was one of the most gorgeous women I had ever seen in my life, athletic dancers body, full dark long hair, cat eyes and a pouty mouth that I loved seeing wrapped around my dick. Just thinking about her laugh used to be enough to get me hard. Now I couldn’t get hard if my