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his feelingsā ā€Šā ā€¦ not that he ever wanted anything for himself. The way in which glittering honours bump down upon the wrong heads in the army, and palms and crosses blossom on the wrong breasts, has, as he says, thrown his compass off a few points.

What Hicks had wanted most in this world was to run a garage and repair shop with his old chum, Dell Able. Beaufort ended all that. He means to conduct a sort of memorial shop, anyhow, with ā€œHicks and Ableā€ over the door. He wants to roll up his sleeves and look at the logical and beautiful inwards of automobiles for the rest of his life.

As the transport enters the North River, sirens and steam whistles all along the water front begin to blow their shrill salute to the returning soldiers. The men square their shoulders and smile knowingly at one another; some of them look a little bored. Hicks slowly lights a cigarette and regards the end of it with an expression which will puzzle his friends when he gets home.

By the banks of Lovely Creek, where it began, Claude Wheelerā€™s story still goes on. To the two old women who work together in the farmhouse, the thought of him is always there, beyond everything else, at the farthest edge of consciousness, like the evening sun on the horizon.

Mrs. Wheeler got the word of his death one afternoon in the sitting-room, the room in which he had bade her goodbye. She was reading when the telephone rang.

ā€œIs this the Wheeler farm? This is the telegraph office at Frankfort. We have a message from the War Departmentā ā€”ā€ the voice hesitated. ā€œIsnā€™t Mr. Wheeler there?ā€

ā€œNo, but you can read the message to me.ā€

Mrs. Wheeler said, ā€œThank you,ā€ and hung up the receiver. She felt her way softly to her chair. She had an hour alone, when there was nothing but him in the roomā ā€”but him and the map there, which was the end of his road. Somewhere among those perplexing names, he had found his place.

Claudeā€™s letters kept coming for weeks afterward; then came the letters from his comrades and his Colonel to tell her all.

In the dark months that followed, when human nature looked to her uglier than it had ever done before, those letters were Mrs. Wheelerā€™s comfort. As she read the newspapers, she used to think about the passage of the Red Sea, in the Bible; it seemed as if the flood of meanness and greed had been held back just long enough for the boys to go over, and then swept down and engulfed everything that was left at home. When she can see nothing that has come of it all but evil, she reads Claudeā€™s letters over again and reassures herself; for him the call was clear, the cause was glorious. Never a doubt stained his bright faith. She divines so much that he did not write. She knows what to read into those short flashes of enthusiasm; how fully he must have found his life before he could let himself go so farā ā€”he, who was so afraid of being fooled! He died believing his own country better than it is, and France better than any country can ever be. And those were beautiful beliefs to die with. Perhaps it was as well to see that vision, and then to see no more. She would have dreaded the awakeningā ā€”she sometimes even doubts whether he could have borne at all that last, desolating disappointment. One by one the heroes of that war, the men of dazzling soldiership, leave prematurely the world they have come back to. Airmen whose deeds were tales of wonder, officers whose names made the blood of youth beat faster, survivors of incredible dangersā ā€”one by one they quietly die by their own hand. Some do it in obscure lodging houses, some in their office, where they seemed to be carrying on their business like other men. Some slip over a vesselā€™s side and disappear into the sea. When Claudeā€™s mother hears of these things, she shudders and presses her hands tight over her breast, as if she had him there. She feels as if God had saved him from some horrible suffering, some horrible end. For as she reads, she thinks those slayers of themselves were all so like him; they were the ones who had hoped extravagantlyā ā€”who in order to do what they did had to hope extravagantly, and to believe passionately. And they found they had hoped and believed too much. But one she knew, who could ill bear disillusionā ā€Šā ā€¦ safe, safe.

Mahailey, when they are alone, sometimes addresses Mrs. Wheeler as ā€œMudderā€; ā€œNow, Mudder, you go upstairs anā€™ lay down anā€™ rest yourself.ā€ Mrs. Wheeler knows that then she is thinking of Claude, is speaking for Claude. As they are working at the table or bending over the oven, something reminds them of him, and they think of him together, like one person: Mahailey will pat her back and say, ā€œNever you mind, Mudder; youā€™ll see your boy up yonder.ā€ Mrs. Wheeler always feels that God is nearā ā€”but Mahailey is not troubled by any knowledge of interstellar spaces, and for her He is nearer stillā ā€”directly overhead, not so very far above the kitchen stove.

Endnotes

The actual outbreak of influenza on transports carrying United States troops is here anticipated by several months. ā†©

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One of Ours
was published in 1922 by
Willa Cather.

This ebook was produced for
Standard Ebooks
by
Vince Rice,
and is based on a transcription produced in 2004 by
An Anonymous Volunteer
for
Project Gutenberg
and on digital scans available at the
Internet Archive.

The cover page is adapted from
Haystacks on the Newburyport Marshes,
a painting completed in 1862 by
Martin Johnson Heade.
The cover and title pages feature the
League Spartan and Sorts Mill Goudy
typefaces created in 2014 and 2009 by
The League of Moveable Type.

The first edition of this ebook was released on
July 3, 2021, 6:45 p.m.
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