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āThatās American democracy for you,ā sniffed Regina, āa man is kicked out of one state university for expressing himself too freely, and is allowed to lecture at another. Why wonāt the people in authority be consistent? Thatās another reason why I canāt believe in socialismā ācapitalists are never consistently oppressive.ā
And so the teatime debates went onā āwhether capitalists did more harm than good, whether state control had ever been successful, the possibility of a brotherhood of manā āand usually concluded each day with a realization that all discussion was futile.
āNo use talking, Iām going into the railroad business when Iāve finished my course and no socialistic ideas will keep me from becoming the president of a railroad.ā
āAnd Iām going to write novels that are best sellers just to make a living,ā Ray decided, āand all my desire to devote myself to art and perfection wonāt keep me from doing it.ā
āIād like to get a job on a big daily paper and my fun in going out after stories or running a womanās page will keep me from worrying because the press is governed by its advertisers.ā
āMe too,ā Regina agreed, thenā āāIām afraid weāre awfully lacking in ideals.ā
Part II Still Adolescent IMother Grace was proud of her daughter with her restless brain in spite of the crudities of her adolescence. Cigarettes and her freedom of speech were not so objectionable as her religious pose, nor indeed as that phase which comes to all youth when they feel that they are misunderstood.
Mother Graceās pride was not that of a mother whose egotism is satisfied that she has produced an intelligent continuation of herself.
āNo, you recognize me as an individual,ā her daughter pointed out in what Mother Grace had come to term as one of her frequent harangues. āMost mothers refuse to recognize their children as individuals with minds and aims of their own. Usually the instinct of motherhood is merely a desire to perpetuate themselves or their husbands. At least women act that way. And when their children are born they say, āthis is mine,ā or āthis is my husbandās child,ā and they donāt recognize their childrenās rights at all.
āNow the fact that you gave birth to me, Mother, I shall regard merely as an incident. If you hadnāt done it, somebody else would. So we wonāt let the mother and daughter relationship stand between us in our friendship. Just the same, there are ties of blood, of course and I shall always cling to you just as I cling to Adele. I donāt expect her to exert any authority over me and I donāt expect you to. But you can give me advice of course, because you are older and more sensible than I. But you neednāt ever expect me to follow it, or get mad if I donāt. If I make mistakes by not taking it, Iāll have to suffer for it.ā
āAnd so shall I,ā added Mother Grace mentally, for after all she knew what it was to be a mother.
All this was rather irritating to her at first but after thinking it over, she decided it was part of Juneās newfound ability to reason, to flaunt her ideas in her motherās face. And further reflection showed her that it was the flaunting of them and not the ideas themselves to which she objected.
On the occasion when her mother did venture to remonstrateā āāOh, June, donāt be such a prig!ā her daughter disarmed her by an immediate acceptance of the word.
āHow can I help but be, when you and Adele insist on thinking differently about human relations?ā
Yes, she was a prig, she thought, and the real reason for it was her ever changing and modifying ideas.
Day by day they twisted into new shapes, and while she held them she must needs state them with all earnestness and conviction. And with all the more conviction because in so short a time another thought would come, bringing doubts.
Why couldnāt she formulate a satisfactory program for life and stick to it? Why couldnāt she reach some conclusion about human relations and then hold it?
If she could only see clearly as her father obviously did, distinguishing exactly between right and wrong, good and bad.
There was Regina for instance. She knew exactly what a good woman was and what a bad one. Not that she would ever condemn what she considered a bad one. She prided herself too much on her tolerance. She knew too, exactly what her principles would allow her to do, in her relations with men, present and future.
When June stopped to think about it, she realized she was capable of doing anythingā ācapable of following her desires, wherever they led, and justifying herself for so doing. And whether her reason would be treacherous in this justification she did not know.
There are certain stock situations in one type of novel which the very young girl reads. June and her friends at the age of thirteen had often discussed them with mingled and pleasurable emotions. Why the words blush and bride were always associated. What a wedding night felt like. Why a wife always hid her face in her husbandās breast and dilly-dallied about telling it when she was going to have a baby. Why be so reticent about it, anyway? All the world gave birth.
June had decided upon the way she would act. Sheād face her husband triumphantly across the breakfast table and announce: āIām going to have a baby!ā And if she acted immodestly proud, it would be with the consciousness that she was taking part in a grand movement. It was quite proper for the husband to be astonished and pleased as though he hadnāt thought her capable of it. āWhy you cute dear! What a wonderful thing to
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