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Sunday dinner for them once more.

ā€œBut this was not to be. Not long before my letter was received mother had died. They laid it all at my door. She had been ailing for years past, and the doctors had said it was hopeless from the firstā ā€”but they laid it all at my door. One of my sisters wrote to say that much, in as few words as could possibly suffice for saying it. My father never answered my letter at all.ā€

VIII

ā€œMagistrates and lawyers; relations and friends; endurance of injuries, patience, hope, and honest workā ā€”I had tried all these, and tried them vainly. Look round me where I might, the prospect was closed on all sides.

ā€œAt this time my husband had got a little work to do. He came home out of temper one night, and I gave him a warning. ā€˜Donā€™t try me too far, Joel, for your own sake,ā€™ was all I said. It was one of his sober days; and, for the first time, a word from me seemed to have an effect on him. He looked hard at me for a minute or so. And then he went and sat down in a corner, and held his peace.

ā€œThis was on a Tuesday in the week. On the Saturday he got paid, and the drinking fit took him again.

ā€œOn Friday in the next week I happened to come back lateā ā€”having had a good stroke of work to do that day, in the way of cooking a public dinner for a tavern-keeper who knew me. I found my husband gone, and the bedroom stripped of the furniture which I had put into it. For the second time he had robbed me of my own property, and had turned it into money to be spent in drink.

ā€œI didnā€™t say a word. I stood and looked round the empty room. What was going on in me I hardly knew myself at the time, and canā€™t describe now. All I remember is, that, after a little, I turned about to leave the house. I knew the places where my husband was likely to be found; and the devil possessed me to go and find him. The landlady came out into the passage and tried to stop me. She was a bigger and a stronger woman than I was. But I shook her off like a child. Thinking over it now, I believe she was in no condition to put out her strength. The sight of me frightened her.

ā€œI found him. I saidā ā€”well, I said what a woman beside herself with fury would be likely to say. Itā€™s needless to tell how it ended. He knocked me down.

ā€œAfter that, there is a spot of darkness like in my memory. The next thing I can call to mind, is coming back to my senses after some days. Three of my teeth were knocked outā ā€”but that was not the worst of it. My head had struck against something in falling, and some part of me (a nerve, I think they said) was injured in such a way as to affect my speech. I donā€™t mean that I was downright dumbā ā€”I only mean that, all of a sudden, it had become a labor to me to speak. A long word was as serious an obstacle as if I was a child again. They took me to the hospital. When the medical gentlemen heard what it was, the medical gentlemen came crowding round me. I appeared to lay hold of their interest, just as a storybook lays hold of the interest of other people. The upshot of it was, that I might end in being dumb, or I might get my speech againā ā€”the chances were about equal. Only two things were needful. One of them was that I should live on good nourishing diet. The other was, that I should keep my mind easy.

ā€œAbout the diet it was not possible to decide. My getting good nourishing food and drink depended on my getting money to buy the same. As to my mind, there was no difficulty about that. If my husband came back to me, my mind was made up to kill him.

ā€œHorridā ā€”I am well aware this is horrid. Nobody else, in my place, would have ended as wickedly as that. All the other women in the world, tried as I was, would have risen superior to the trial.ā€

IX

ā€œI have said that people (excepting my husband and my relations) were almost always good to me.

ā€œThe landlord of the house which we had taken when we were married heard of my sad case. He gave me one of his empty houses to look after, and a little weekly allowance for doing it. Some of the furniture in the upper rooms, not being wanted by the last tenant, was left to be taken at a valuation if the next tenant needed it. Two of the servantsā€™ bedrooms (in the attics), one next to the other, had all that was wanted in them. So I had a roof to cover me, and a choice of beds to lie on, and money to get me food. All well againā ā€”but all too late. If that house could speak, what tales that house would have to tell of me!

ā€œI had been told by the doctors to exercise my speech. Being all alone, with nobody to speak to, except when the landlord dropped in, or when the servant next door said, ā€˜Nice day, ainā€™t it?ā€™ or, ā€˜Donā€™t you feel lonely?ā€™ or suchlike, I bought the newspaper, and read it out loud to myself to exercise my speech in that way. One day I came upon a bit about the wives of drunken husbands. It was a report of something said on that subject by a London coroner, who had held inquests on dead husbands (in the lower ranks of life), and who had his reasons for suspecting the wives. Examination of the body (he said) didnā€™t

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