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me. I wish there was danger she should lose me, as there is risk I shall lose her. No; final loss I do not fear, but long delay⁠—

“It is now night⁠—midnight. I have spent the afternoon and evening at Fieldhead. Some hours ago she passed me, coming down the oak staircase to the hall. She did not know I was standing in the twilight, near the staircase window, looking at the frost-bright constellations. How closely she glided against the banisters! How shyly shone her large eyes upon me! How evanescent, fugitive, fitful she looked⁠—slim and swift as a northern streamer!

“I followed her into the drawing-room. Mrs. Pryor and Caroline Helstone were both there; she has summoned them to bear her company awhile. In her white evening dress, with her long hair flowing full and wavy, with her noiseless step, her pale cheek, her eye full of night and lightning, she looked, I thought, spirit-like⁠—a thing made of an element, the child of a breeze and a flame, the daughter of ray and raindrop⁠—a thing never to be overtaken, arrested, fixed. I wished I could avoid following her with my gaze as she moved here and there, but it was impossible. I talked with the other ladies as well as I could, but still I looked at her. She was very silent; I think she never spoke to me⁠—not even when she offered me tea. It happened that she was called out a minute by Mrs. Gill. I passed into the moonlit hall, with the design of getting a word as she returned; nor in this did I fail.

“ ‘Miss Keeldar, stay one instant,’ said I, meeting her.

“ ‘Why? the hall is too cold.’

“ ‘It is not cold for me; at my side it should not be cold for you.’

“ ‘But I shiver.’

“ ‘With fear, I believe. What makes you fear me? You are quiet and distant. Why?’

“ ‘I may well fear what looks like a great dark goblin meeting me in the moonlight.’

“ ‘Do not⁠—do not pass! Stay with me awhile. Let us exchange a few quiet words. It is three days since I spoke to you alone. Such changes are cruel.’

“ ‘I have no wish to be cruel,’ she responded, softly enough. Indeed there was softness in her whole deportment⁠—in her face, in her voice; but there was also reserve, and an air fleeting, evanishing, intangible.

“ ‘You certainly give me pain,’ said I. ‘It is hardly a week since you called me your future husband and treated me as such. Now I am once more the tutor for you. I am addressed as Mr. Moore and sir. Your lips have forgotten Louis.’

“ ‘No, Louis, no. It is an easy, liquid name⁠—not soon forgotten.’

“ ‘Be cordial to Louis, then; approach him⁠—let him approach.’

“ ‘I am cordial,’ said she, hovering aloof like a white shadow.

“ ‘Your voice is very sweet and very low,’ I answered, quietly advancing. ‘You seem subdued, but still startled.’

“ ‘No⁠—quite calm, and afraid of nothing,’ she assured me.

“ ‘Of nothing but your votary.’

“I bent a knee to the flags at her feet.

“ ‘You see I am in a new world, Mr. Moore. I don’t know myself; I don’t know you. But rise. When you do so I feel troubled and disturbed.’

“I obeyed. It would not have suited me to retain that attitude long. I courted serenity and confidence for her, and not vainly. She trusted and clung to me again.

“ ‘Now, Shirley,’ I said, ‘you can conceive I am far from happy in my present uncertain, unsettled state.’

“ ‘Oh yes, you are happy!’ she cried hastily. ‘You don’t know how happy you are. Any change will be for the worse.’

“ ‘Happy or not, I cannot bear to go on so much longer. You are too generous to require it.’

“ ‘Be reasonable, Louis; be patient! I like you because you are patient.’

“ ‘Like me no longer, then; love me instead. Fix our marriage day; think of it tonight, and decide.’

“She breathed a murmur, inarticulate yet expressive; darted, or melted, from my arms⁠—and I lost her.”

XXXVII The Winding-Up

Yes, reader, we must settle accounts now. I have only briefly to narrate the final fates of some of the personages whose acquaintance we have made in this narrative, and then you and I must shake hands, and for the present separate.

Let us turn to the curates⁠—to the much-loved, though long-neglected. Come forward, modest merit! Malone, I see, promptly answers the invocation. He knows his own description when he hears it.

No, Peter Augustus; we can have nothing to say to you. It won’t do. Impossible to trust ourselves with the touching tale of your deeds and destinies. Are you not aware, Peter, that a discriminating public has its crotchets; that the unvarnished truth does not answer; that plain facts will not digest? Do you not know that the squeak of the real pig is no more relished now than it was in days of yore? Were I to give the catastrophe of your life and conversation, the public would sweep off in shrieking hysterics, and there would be a wild cry for sal-volatile and burnt feathers. “Impossible!” would be pronounced here; “untrue!” would be responded there; “inartistic!” would be solemnly decided. Note well. Whenever you present the actual, simple truth, it is, somehow, always denounced as a lie⁠—they disown it, cast it off, throw it on the parish; whereas the product of your own imagination, the mere figment, the sheer fiction, is adopted, petted, termed pretty, proper, sweetly natural⁠—the little, spurious wretch gets all the comfits, the honest, lawful bantling all the cuffs. Such is the way of the world, Peter; and as you are the legitimate urchin, rude, unwashed, and naughty, you must stand down.

Make way for Mr. Sweeting.

Here he comes, with his lady on his arm⁠—the most splendid and the weightiest woman in Yorkshire⁠—Mrs. Sweeting, formerly Miss Dora Sykes. They were married under the happiest auspices, Mr. Sweeting having been just inducted to a comfortable living, and Mr. Sykes being in circumstances to give Dora a handsome portion. They lived long and happily together, beloved by their parishioners and by a numerous circle

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