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her protest that she wasnā€™t a baby, that she was never tired and could easily do with five or six hoursā€™ sleep a night. The important thing, she had found, was not to be seen yawning by Aunt Lilian and always to look fresh and lively. If Aunt Lilian noticed nothing there was neither teasing nor solicitude.

But in any case, every inconvenience was paid for a thousand times by the delights of these confidential conversations in front of the dressing-table mirror. While the young girl brushed and brushed away at the long tresses of pale golden-brown hair, Mrs. Aldwinkle, her eyes shut, and with an expression of beatitude on her faceā ā€”for she took a catā€™s pleasure in the brushingā ā€”would talk, spasmodically, in broken sentences, of the events of the day, of her guests, of the people they had met; or of her own past, of plans for the futureā ā€”hers or Ireneā€™sā ā€”of love. On all these subjects Mrs. Aldwinkle spoke intimately, confidentially, without reserve. Feeling that she was being treated by her Aunt Lilian as entirely grownup and almost as an equal, Irene was proud and grateful. Without deliberately setting out to complete the subjugation of her niece, Mrs. Aldwinkle had discovered, in those midnight conversations, the most perfect means for achieving this end. If she talked like this to Irene, it was merely because she felt the need of talking intimately to someone, and because there was nobody else to talk to. Incidentally, however, she had contrived in the process to make the girl her slave. Made her Aunt Lilianā€™s confidante, invested, so to speak, with a title of honour, Irene felt a gratitude which strengthened her original childish attachment to her aunt.

Meanwhile, she had learned to talk with an airy familiarity of many things concerning which young girls are supposed to be ignorant, and of which, indeed, she herself knew, except intellectually and at second hand, nothing. She had learned to be knowing and worldly wise, in the void, so to speak, and with no personal knowledge of the world. Gravely, ingenuously, she would say things that could only be uttered out of the depths of the profoundest innocence, amplifying and making embarrassingly explicit in public things that Mrs. Aldwinkle had only fragmentarily hinted at in the confidential small hours. She regarded herself as immensely mature.

Tonight Mrs. Aldwinkle was in a rather gloomy, complaining mood.

ā€œIā€™m getting old,ā€ she said, sighing, and opening her eyes for a moment to look at her image in the glass that confronted her. The image did not deny the statement. ā€œAnd yet I always feel so young.ā€

ā€œThatā€™s what really matters,ā€ Irene declared. ā€œAnd besides, itā€™s nonsense; youā€™re not old; you donā€™t look old.ā€ In Ireneā€™s eyes, moreover, she really didnā€™t look old.

ā€œPeople donā€™t like one any more when one gets old,ā€ Mrs. Aldwinkle continued. ā€œFriends are terribly faithless. They fall away.ā€ She sighed. ā€œWhen I think of all the friendsā ā€Šā ā€¦ā€ She left the sentence unfinished.

All her life long Mrs. Aldwinkle had had a peculiar genius for breaking with her friends and lovers. Mr. Cardan was almost the sole survivor from an earlier generation of friends. From all the rest she had parted, and she had parted with a light heart. It had seemed easy to her, when she was younger, to make new friends in place of the old. Potential friends, she thought, were to be found everywhere, every day. But now she was beginning to doubt whether the supply was, after all, so inexhaustible as she had once supposed. People of her own age, she found, were already set fast in the little social worlds they had made for themselves. And people of the younger generation seemed to find it hard to believe that she felt, in her heart, just as young as they did. They mostly treated her with the rather distant politeness which one accords to a stranger and an elder person.

ā€œI think people are horrid,ā€ said Irene, giving a particularly violent sweep with the hairbrush to emphasize her indignation.

ā€œYou wonā€™t be faithless?ā€ asked Mrs. Aldwinkle.

Irene bent over and, for all answer, kissed her on the forehead. Mrs. Aldwinkle opened her glittering blue eyes and looked up at her, smiling, as she did so, that siren smile that, for Irene, was still as fascinating as it had ever been.

ā€œIf only everybody were like my little Irene!ā€ Mrs. Aldwinkle let her head fall forward and once more closed her eyes. There was a silence. ā€œWhat are you sighing about in that heartbreaking way?ā€ she suddenly asked.

Ireneā€™s blush ran tingling up into her temples and disappeared under the copper-coloured fringe. ā€œOh, nothing,ā€ she said, with an off-handedness that expressed the depth of her guilty embarrassment. That deep intake of breath, that brief and passionate expiry were not the components of a sigh. She had been yawning with her mouth shut.

But Mrs. Aldwinkle, with her bias towards the romantic, did not suspect the truth. ā€œNothing, indeed!ā€ she echoed incredulously. ā€œWhy, it was the noise of the wind blowing through the cracks of a broken heart. I never heard such a sigh.ā€ She looked at the reflection of Ireneā€™s face in the mirror. ā€œAnd youā€™re blushing like a peony. What is it?ā€

ā€œBut itā€™s nothing, I tell you,ā€ Irene declared, speaking almost in a tone of irritation. She was annoyed with herself for having yawned so ineptly and blushed so pointlessly, rather than with her aunt. She immersed herself more than ever deeply in her brushing, hoping and praying that Mrs. Aldwinkle would drop the subject.

But Mrs. Aldwinkle was implacable in her tactlessness. ā€œI never heard anything that sounded so lovesick,ā€ she said, smiling archly into the looking-glass. Mrs. Aldwinkleā€™s humorous sallies had a way of falling ponderously, like bludgeon strokes, on the objects of her raillery. One never knew, when she was being sprightly, whether to feel sorrier for the victim or for Mrs. Aldwinkle herself. For though the victim might get hard knocks, the spectacle of Mrs. Aldwinkle laboriously exerting herself to deliver them was sadly ludicrous; one wished, for her sake, for the sake of the whole human race, that

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