Protector: Doms of Mountain Bend Book 1 BJ Wane (best books to read for teens txt) 📖

need for his ability to break through the coldness where others had failed. Her stalker had robbed her of the one outlet it had taken years to find that helped her escape the memory of that childhood trauma. She wanted that relief and ultimate enjoyment back but couldn’t, in good conscience, keep Shawn in the dark about their association after tonight.

Lisa blew out a breath, the decision made as she rose to look through the clothes she’d brought from home one more time for something suitable to wear. Last week, she’d known guests would get a pass on attire, but Doms liked access to bare skin, lots and lots of bare skin. She didn’t have a problem with nudity, admitting she enjoyed exhibitionism. The combined vulnerability of nakedness and bondage helped take her out of herself to that comfortable plateau where nothing mattered except the pleasure/pain sweeping her body.

God, how she craved to reach that pinnacle again.

She hadn’t heard from her stalker since leaving Arizona. She’d changed her number again right before taking off, but that hadn’t stopped him before, so she hoped her sudden disappearance had succeeded in finally putting him off her tail. Peace of mind wouldn’t come easy until she knew for sure though.

Speak of my phone. Lisa picked up her cell as it rang, noticing Jen’s number. “Hi.”

“Hey, just checking to make sure you’re going tonight,” Jen said.

“I planned on it, but after going through my things, I realized I didn’t pack anything appropriate.”

“No problem. Come on over, and if I don’t have anything that fits you, we’ll run into Boise. There’s a little boutique that carries the best outfits for the club. I can tell Drew I’ll meet him there, and we can go straight to Spurs after shopping.”

Lisa had always shopped for club clothes online, and she’d never associated with other members in the lifestyle outside the private venues. The friends and co-workers she socialized with in Phoenix knew nothing about that part of her life. She’d liked taking in the dinner and movie with Kim and Debra from school last night but hoped neither woman learned of her extracurricular activities. She was still struggling to reconcile Jen’s knowledge and similar interest.

After taking a mental calculation of her finances and remembering she got her first week’s pay yesterday, she agreed to the impromptu plans. “I’d like that. Thanks, Jen.”

“I should have thought of it sooner. Come over whenever you’re ready. Bye.”

Since this was likely her last night at Spurs, and with Shawn once she came clean with him, Lisa decided to go all out and get what relief she could before telling him who she was. It was too late to do much else, and bemoaning stupid mistakes and errors in judgment did no good. She wouldn’t lie and say she didn’t remember him or that night, but she also wouldn’t humiliate herself more by telling him the reason she’d left Arizona. She didn’t want to see the look on his face if he thought she’d run to him after all these years just so he could rescue her again.

With her cash all but depleted and blessed silence from her stalker for two weeks, she decided it was a good time to use her check to open a bank account and made the stop on her way to Jen’s. Lisa couldn’t remember the last time she’d purchased something new with pleasing a Dom in mind, but as she sifted through the lingerie and fetish clothes at the boutique with Jen, all she could think about was Shawn’s reaction to seeing her in  the revealing outfits.

“This would look great on you.” Jen held up a demi bra and boy short set in lime-green satin, the bra cut low enough to show a hint of nipple, the shorts high enough to leave the undercurve of her butt cheeks bare.

“I like it.” Taking the hanger, Lisa checked the price and winced. “Maybe not that much.”

“Come on, splurge a little. Shawn won’t be an easy man to hold onto for long. You may as well pull out all the stops while you can. I’ll even cut your rent next month by the cost of the outfit.”

Tickled, Lisa laughed and shook her head. “No, you won’t. You already did me a huge favor by letting me sign a two-month lease instead of twelve. I’ll get it and cut back on something else. I still have to cover the cost of an entry fee tonight.”

Jen waved a hand and grabbed a black lace teddy and matching thong. “You know he’ll waive it if you ask. He really is one of the good guys. Most of them are. Drew and I have known him, Clayton, and Dakota since high school, when they came to live with Buck Cooper.”

“When we have more time, you’ll have to tell me about him back then. I still haven’t met the other two, only Master Simon,” she said as they carried their selections to the counter.

“They were rebellious at first, got into a lot of trouble at school, but it didn’t take Buck long to straighten them out. Between the three of them, I think they went through every girl in school,” Jen replied, digging in her purse for her wallet while Lisa paid for hers.

Squashing an unexpected ripple of envy, Lisa smiled at Jen as she took the bag the clerk handed her. “Including you?”

“I wish sometimes, but no. Even back then, I only had eyes and hots for Drew. Speaking of which, we need to get going.”

Her urgency rubbed off on Lisa, and she drove out to the club with anticipation humming through her veins, not to mention more than a small amount of anxiety over revealing her identity. The doors had just opened to members when they arrived and slipped into the restroom to change clothes.

“Go on in,” Lisa told