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in Farebrotherā€™s, I shall be deeply grateful. The point I wish you not to mention is the fact of disobedience to my orders. That would soon get distorted. After all, there is no evidence for me but peopleā€™s opinion of me beforehand. You can only repeat my own report of myself.ā€

ā€œMr. Farebrother will believeā ā€”others will believe,ā€ said Dorothea. ā€œI can say of you what will make it stupidity to suppose that you would be bribed to do a wickedness.ā€

ā€œI donā€™t know,ā€ said Lydgate, with something like a groan in his voice. ā€œI have not taken a bribe yet. But there is a pale shade of bribery which is sometimes called prosperity. You will do me another great kindness, then, and come to see my wife?ā€

ā€œYes, I will. I remember how pretty she is,ā€ said Dorothea, into whose mind every impression about Rosamond had cut deep. ā€œI hope she will like me.ā€

As Lydgate rode away, he thought, ā€œThis young creature has a heart large enough for the Virgin Mary. She evidently thinks nothing of her own future, and would pledge away half her income at once, as if she wanted nothing for herself but a chair to sit in from which she can look down with those clear eyes at the poor mortals who pray to her. She seems to have what I never saw in any woman beforeā ā€”a fountain of friendship towards menā ā€”a man can make a friend of her. Casaubon must have raised some heroic hallucination in her. I wonder if she could have any other sort of passion for a man? Ladislaw?ā ā€”there was certainly an unusual feeling between them. And Casaubon must have had a notion of it. Wellā ā€”her love might help a man more than her money.ā€

Dorothea on her side had immediately formed a plan of relieving Lydgate from his obligation to Bulstrode, which she felt sure was a part, though small, of the galling pressure he had to bear. She sat down at once under the inspiration of their interview, and wrote a brief note, in which she pleaded that she had more claim than Mr. Bulstrode had to the satisfaction of providing the money which had been serviceable to Lydgateā ā€”that it would be unkind in Lydgate not to grant her the position of being his helper in this small matter, the favor being entirely to her who had so little that was plainly marked out for her to do with her superfluous money. He might call her a creditor or by any other name if it did but imply that he granted her request. She enclosed a check for a thousand pounds, and determined to take the letter with her the next day when she went to see Rosamond.

LXXVII

And thus thy fall hath left a kind of blot,
To mark the full-fraught man and best indued
With some suspicion.

Henry V

The next day Lydgate had to go to Brassing, and told Rosamond that he should be away until the evening. Of late she had never gone beyond her own house and garden, except to church, and once to see her papa, to whom she said, ā€œIf Tertius goes away, you will help us to move, will you not, papa? I suppose we shall have very little money. I am sure I hope someone will help us.ā€ And Mr. Vincy had said, ā€œYes, child, I donā€™t mind a hundred or two. I can see the end of that.ā€ With these exceptions she had sat at home in languid melancholy and suspense, fixing her mind on Will Ladislawā€™s coming as the one point of hope and interest, and associating this with some new urgency on Lydgate to make immediate arrangements for leaving Middlemarch and going to London, till she felt assured that the coming would be a potent cause of the going, without at all seeing how. This way of establishing sequences is too common to be fairly regarded as a peculiar folly in Rosamond. And it is precisely this sort of sequence which causes the greatest shock when it is sundered: for to see how an effect may be produced is often to see possible missings and checks; but to see nothing except the desirable cause, and close upon it the desirable effect, rids us of doubt and makes our minds strongly intuitive. That was the process going on in poor Rosamond, while she arranged all objects around her with the same nicety as ever, only with more slownessā ā€”or sat down to the piano, meaning to play, and then desisting, yet lingering on the music stool with her white fingers suspended on the wooden front, and looking before her in dreamy ennui. Her melancholy had become so marked that Lydgate felt a strange timidity before it, as a perpetual silent reproach, and the strong man, mastered by his keen sensibilities towards this fair fragile creature whose life he seemed somehow to have bruised, shrank from her look, and sometimes started at her approach, fear of her and fear for her rushing in only the more forcibly after it had been momentarily expelled by exasperation.

But this morning Rosamond descended from her room upstairsā ā€”where she sometimes sat the whole day when Lydgate was outā ā€”equipped for a walk in the town. She had a letter to postā ā€”a letter addressed to Mr. Ladislaw and written with charming discretion, but intended to hasten his arrival by a hint of trouble. The servant-maid, their sole house-servant now, noticed her coming downstairs in her walking dress, and thought ā€œthere never did anybody look so pretty in a bonnet poor thing.ā€

Meanwhile Dorotheaā€™s mind was filled with her project of going to Rosamond, and with the many thoughts, both of the past and the probable future, which gathered round the idea of that visit. Until yesterday when Lydgate had opened to her a glimpse of some trouble in his married life, the image of Mrs. Lydgate had always been associated for her with that of Will Ladislaw. Even in her most uneasy momentsā ā€”even when she

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