The Tenant of Wildfell Hall Anne BrontĂ« (librera reader .txt) đ
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So with a muttered execration I left the fellow to his fate, and clapping spurs to my own horse, galloped away, excited by a combination of feelings it would not be easy to analyse; and perhaps, if I did so, the result would not be very creditable to my disposition; for I am not sure that a species of exultation in what I had done was not one principal concomitant.
Shortly, however, the effervescence began to abate, and not many minutes elapsed before I had turned and gone back to look after the fate of my victim. It was no generous impulseâ âno kind relentings that led me to thisâ ânor even the fear of what might be the consequences to myself, if I finished my assault upon the squire by leaving him thus neglected, and exposed to further injury; it was, simply, the voice of conscience; and I took great credit to myself for attending so promptly to its dictatesâ âand judging the merit of the deed by the sacrifice it cost, I was not far wrong.
Mr. Lawrence and his pony had both altered their positions in some degree. The pony had wandered eight or ten yards further away; and he had managed, somehow, to remove himself from the middle of the road: I found him seated in a recumbent position on the bankâ âlooking very white and sickly still, and holding his cambric handkerchief (now more red than white) to his head. It must have been a powerful blow; but half the creditâ âor the blame of it (which you please) must be attributed to the whip, which was garnished with a massive horseâs head of plated metal. The grass, being sodden with rain, afforded the young gentleman a rather inhospitable couch; his clothes were considerably bemired; and his hat was rolling in the mud on the other side of the road. But his thoughts seemed chiefly bent upon his pony, on which he was wistfully gazingâ âhalf in helpless anxiety, and half in hopeless abandonment to his fate.
I dismounted, however, and having fastened my own animal to the nearest tree, first picked up his hat, intending to clap it on his head; but either he considered his head unfit for a hat, or the hat, in its present condition, unfit for his head; for shrinking away the one, he took the other from my hand, and scornfully cast it aside.
âItâs good enough for you,â I muttered.
My next good office was to catch his pony and bring it to him, which was soon accomplished; for the beast was quiet enough in the main, and only winced and flirted a trifle till I got hold of the bridleâ âbut then, I must see him in the saddle.
âHere, you fellowâ âscoundrelâ âdogâ âgive me your hand, and Iâll help you to mount.â
No; he turned from me in disgust. I attempted to take him by the arm. He shrank away as if there had been contamination in my touch.
âWhat, you wonât! Well! you may sit there till doomsday, for what I care. But I suppose you donât want to lose all the blood in your bodyâ âIâll just condescend to bind that up for you.â
âLet me alone, if you please.â
âHumph; with all my heart. You may go to the dâ âžșâ l, if you chooseâ âand say I sent you.â
But before I abandoned him to his fate I flung his ponyâs bridle over a stake in the hedge, and threw him my handkerchief, as his own was now saturated with blood. He took it and cast it back to me in abhorrence and contempt, with all the strength he could muster. It wanted but this to fill the measure of his offences. With execrations not loud but deep I left him to live or die as he could, well satisfied that I had done my duty in attempting to save himâ âbut forgetting how I had erred in bringing him into such a condition, and how insultingly my after-services had been offeredâ âand sullenly prepared to meet the consequences if he should choose to say I had attempted to murder himâ âwhich I thought not unlikely, as it seemed probable he was actuated by such spiteful motives in so perseveringly refusing my assistance.
Having remounted my horse, I just looked back to see how he was getting on, before I rode away. He had risen from the ground, and grasping his ponyâs mane, was attempting to resume his seat in the saddle; but scarcely had he put his foot in the stirrup, when a sickness or dizziness seemed to overpower him: he leant forward a moment, with his head drooped on the animalâs back, and then made one more effort, which proving ineffectual, he sank back on the bank, where I left him, reposing his head on the oozy turf, and to all appearance, as calmly reclining as if he had been taking his rest on his sofa at home.
I ought to have helped him in spite of himselfâ âto have bound up the wound he was unable to staunch, and insisted upon getting him on his horse and seeing him safe home; but, besides my bitter indignation against himself, there was
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