Short Fiction Stanley G. Weinbaum (read 50 shades of grey TXT) 📖

So I turned the attitudinizor on Carter. At the moment, he was listening respectfully to van Manderpootz, and I sensed clearly his respect for the great man, a respect that had in it a distinct element of fear. I could hear Carter’s impression of the booming voice of the professor, sounding somewhat like the modulated thunder of a god, which was not far from the little man’s actual opinion of his master. I perceived Carter’s opinion of himself, and his self-picture was an even more mouselike portrayal than my own impression of him. When, for an instant, he glanced my way, I sensed his impression of me, and while I’m sure that Dixon Wells is not the imbecile he appears to van Manderpootz, I’m equally sure that he’s not the debonair man of the world he seemed to Carter. All in all, Carter’s point of view seemed that of a timid, inoffensive, retiring, servile little man, and I wondered all the more what could have caused that vanished flash of beauty in a mind like his.

There was no trace of it now. His attention was completely taken up by the voice of van Manderpootz, who had passed from a personal appraisal of Carter’s stupidity to a general lecture on the fallacies of the unified field theory as presented by his rivals Corveille and Shrimski. Carter was listening with an almost worshipful regard, and I could feel his surges of indignation against the villains who dared to disagree with the authority of van Manderpootz.

I sat there intent on the strange double vision of the attitudinizor, which was in some respects like a Horsten psychomat⁠—that is, one is able to see both through his own eyes and through the eyes of his subject. Thus I could see van Manderpootz and Carter quite clearly, but at the same time I could see or sense what Carter saw and sensed. Thus I perceived suddenly through my own eyes that the professor had ceased talking to Carter, and had turned at the approach of somebody as yet invisible to me, while at the same time, through Carter’s eyes, I saw that vision of ecstasy which had flashed for a moment in his mind. I saw⁠—description is utterly impossible, but I saw a woman who, except possibly for the woman of the idealizator screen, was the most beautiful creature I had ever seen!

I say description is impossible. That is the literal truth, for her coloring, her expression, her figure, as seen through Carter’s eyes, were completely unlike anything expressible by words. I was fascinated, I could do nothing but watch, and I felt a wild surge of jealousy as I caught the adoration in the attitude of the humble Carter. She was glorious, magnificent, indescribable. It was with an effort that I untangled myself from the web of fascination enough to catch Carter’s thought of her name. “Lisa,” he was thinking. “Lisa.”

What she said to van Manderpootz was in tones too low for me to hear, and apparently too low for Carter’s ears as well, else I should have heard her words through the attitudinizor. But both of us heard van Manderpootz’s bellow in answer.

“I don’t care how the dictionary pronounces the word!” he roared. “The way van Manderpootz pronounces a word is right!”

The glorious Lisa turned silently and vanished. For a few moments I watched her through Carter’s eyes, but as she neared the laboratory door, he turned his attention again to van Manderpootz, and she was lost to my view.

And as I saw the professor close his dissertation and approach me, I slipped the attitudinizor from my head and forced myself to a measure of calm.

“Who is she?” I demanded. “I’ve got to meet her!”

He looked blankly at me. “Who’s who?”

“Lisa! Who’s Lisa?”

There was not a flicker in the cool blue eyes of van Manderpootz. “I don’t know any Lisa,” he said indifferently.

“But you were just talking to her! Right out there!”

Van Manderpootz stared curiously at me; then little by little a shrewd suspicion seemed to dawn in his broad, intelligent features. “Hah!” he said. “Have you, by any chance, been using the attitudinizor?”

I nodded, chill apprehension gripping me.

“And is it also true that you chose to investigate the viewpoint of Carter out there?” At my nod, he stepped to the door that joined the two rooms, and closed it. When he faced me again, it was with features working into lines of amusement that suddenly found utterance in booming laughter. “Haw!” he roared. “Do you know who beautiful Lisa is? She’s Fitch!”

“Fitch? You’re mad! She’s glorious, and Fitch is plain and scrawny and ugly. Do you think I’m a fool?”

“You ask an embarrassing question,” chuckled the professor. “Listen to me, Dixon. The woman you saw was my secretary, Miss Fitch, seen through the eyes of Carter. Don’t you understand? The idiot Carter’s in love with her!”

I suppose I walked the upper levels half the night, oblivious alike of the narrow strip of stars that showed between the towering walls of twenty-first century New York, and the intermittent roar of traffic from the freight levels. Certainly this was the worst predicament of all those into which the fiendish contraptions of the great van Manderpootz had thrust me.

In love with a point of view! In love with a woman who had no existence apart from the beglamoured eyes of Carter. It wasn’t Lisa Fitch I loved; indeed, I rather hated her angular ugliness. What I had fallen in love with was the way she looked to Carter, for there is nothing in the world quite as beautiful as a lover’s conception of his sweetheart.

This predicament was far worse than my former ones. When I had fallen in love with a girl already dead, I could console myself with the thought of what might have been. When I had fallen in love with my own ideal⁠—well, at least she was mine, even if I couldn’t have her. But to fall in love with