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down from the box. There were shouts on the pavement, people ran forward, the driver pulled up, whispering curses of indignation and astonishment. Winnie lowered the window, and put her head out, white as a ghost. In the depths of the cab, her mother was exclaiming, in tones of anguish: ā€œIs that boy hurt? Is that boy hurt?ā€

Stevie was not hurt, he had not even fallen, but excitement as usual had robbed him of the power of connected speech. He could do no more than stammer at the window. ā€œToo heavy. Too heavy.ā€ Winnie put out her hand on to his shoulder.

ā€œStevie! Get up on the box directly, and donā€™t try to get down again.ā€

ā€œNo. No. Walk. Must walk.ā€

In trying to state the nature of that necessity he stammered himself into utter incoherence. No physical impossibility stood in the way of his whim. Stevie could have managed easily to keep pace with the infirm, dancing horse without getting out of breath. But his sister withheld her consent decisively. ā€œThe idea! Whoever heard of such a thing! Run after a cab!ā€ Her mother, frightened and helpless in the depths of the conveyance, entreated: ā€œOh, donā€™t let him, Winnie. Heā€™ll get lost. Donā€™t let him.ā€

ā€œCertainly not. What next! Mr. Verloc will be sorry to hear of this nonsense, Stevieā ā€”I can tell you. He wonā€™t be happy at all.ā€

The idea of Mr. Verlocā€™s grief and unhappiness acting as usual powerfully upon Stevieā€™s fundamentally docile disposition, he abandoned all resistance, and climbed up again on the box, with a face of despair.

The cabby turned at him his enormous and inflamed countenance truculently. ā€œDonā€™t you go for trying this silly game again, young fellow.ā€

After delivering himself thus in a stern whisper, strained almost to extinction, he drove on, ruminating solemnly. To his mind the incident remained somewhat obscure. But his intellect, though it had lost its pristine vivacity in the benumbing years of sedentary exposure to the weather, lacked not independence or sanity. Gravely he dismissed the hypothesis of Stevie being a drunken young nipper.

Inside the cab the spell of silence, in which the two women had endured shoulder to shoulder the jolting, rattling, and jingling of the journey, had been broken by Stevieā€™s outbreak. Winnie raised her voice.

ā€œYouā€™ve done what you wanted, mother. Youā€™ll have only yourself to thank for it if you arenā€™t happy afterwards. And I donā€™t think youā€™ll be. That I donā€™t. Werenā€™t you comfortable enough in the house? Whatever peopleā€™ll think of usā ā€”you throwing yourself like this on a Charity?ā€

ā€œMy dear,ā€ screamed the old woman earnestly above the noise, ā€œyouā€™ve been the best of daughters to me. As to Mr. Verlocā ā€”thereā ā€”ā€

Words failing her on the subject of Mr. Verlocā€™s excellence, she turned her old tearful eyes to the roof of the cab. Then she averted her head on the pretence of looking out of the window, as if to judge of their progress. It was insignificant, and went on close to the curbstone. Night, the early dirty night, the sinister, noisy, hopeless and rowdy night of South London, had overtaken her on her last cab drive. In the gaslight of the low-fronted shops her big cheeks glowed with an orange hue under a black and mauve bonnet.

Mrs. Verlocā€™s motherā€™s complexion had become yellow by the effect of age and from a natural predisposition to biliousness, favoured by the trials of a difficult and worried existence, first as wife, then as widow. It was a complexion, that under the influence of a blush would take on an orange tint. And this woman, modest indeed but hardened in the fires of adversity, of an age, moreover, when blushes are not expected, had positively blushed before her daughter. In the privacy of a four-wheeler, on her way to a charity cottage (one of a row) which by the exiguity of its dimensions and the simplicity of its accommodation, might well have been devised in kindness as a place of training for the still more straitened circumstances of the grave, she was forced to hide from her own child a blush of remorse and shame.

Whatever people will think? She knew very well what they did think, the people Winnie had in her mindā ā€”the old friends of her husband, and others too, whose interest she had solicited with such flattering success. She had not known before what a good beggar she could be. But she guessed very well what inference was drawn from her application. On account of that shrinking delicacy, which exists side by side with aggressive brutality in masculine nature, the inquiries into her circumstances had not been pushed very far. She had checked them by a visible compression of the lips and some display of an emotion determined to be eloquently silent. And the men would become suddenly incurious, after the manner of their kind. She congratulated herself more than once on having nothing to do with women, who being naturally more callous and avid of details, would have been anxious to be exactly informed by what sort of unkind conduct her daughter and son-in-law had driven her to that sad extremity. It was only before the Secretary of the great brewer M.P. and Chairman of the Charity, who, acting for his principal, felt bound to be conscientiously inquisitive as to the real circumstances of the applicant, that she had burst into tears outright and aloud, as a cornered woman will weep. The thin and polite gentleman, after contemplating her with an air of being ā€œstruck all of a heap,ā€ abandoned his position under the cover of soothing remarks. She must not distress herself. The deed of the Charity did not absolutely specify ā€œchildless widows.ā€ In fact, it did not by any means disqualify her. But the discretion of the Committee must be an informed discretion. One could understand very well her unwillingness to be a burden, etc. etc. Thereupon, to his profound disappointment, Mrs. Verlocā€™s mother wept some more with an augmented vehemence.

The tears of that large female in a dark, dusty wig, and ancient

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