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āNo,ā I said. āNo, Evie. Of course you havenāt. Itās justā¦ā But I didnāt have the words to make things better and I had the sharp sense that this was how she felt. Powerless, the world so far from her control, as though she might as well give up.
āSeb and I are barely speaking to each other, although we have to pretend that we are. One of the IPSs was for a ātense family atmosphereā and so we have to play happy families whenever we go out. Itās just all suchā¦ā
She trailed off.
āMaybeāā I started to say.
āPlease donāt say that it might not happen,ā Evie continued. āAll five of them might not have happened, but they did. Weāll have been red-flagged now, Iām sure of it. Just like your friends ā Marie and Leo ā in your building. Itās only a matter of time now. The important thing is making sure that we enjoy every moment that we have left with Jakob. Although that also feels impossible.ā
āOK,ā I said. āOK. Thereās nothing I can say that will make this any better but Iām here. Iām here for you. For Seb and Jakob. Iām on your side, all right? Youāre not alone.ā
āThank you, Kit,ā Evie said, her voice sounded tired and weary. āYouāreā¦ youāreā¦ but the problem isnāt with us, itās with, itās withā¦ā Evie looked lost.
āOSIP,ā I finished for her. āThe problem is with OSIP.ā
āCome on, letās walk,ā Evie stood quickly.
āNow?ā
āNow.ā She reached down for her bag and turned to leave the bustling cafĆ©. I had to rush to keep up with her.
āDid you see them?ā she asked when we reached an empty street. āThat couple. They looked like they were listening to us.ā
I tried to picture them but found I couldnāt.
āNo,ā I admitted.
Evie moved quickly through the streets, turning down alleyways, crossing roads, in what I imagined she hoped was an unpredictable way. Only when we were away from the cafĆ© did she tell me what sheād seen.
āThey were sitting a few tables down from us. Theyād been there since I arrived. I wouldnāt have noticed them except there was a moment when the woman reached out for the teapot and began to pour it but there was no tea left in it. And then they just continued to sit there. Not moving, not talking. The man made some kind of gesture with his head when you mentioned OSIP. Then the woman turned to look towards us. Thatās when I dragged you out of there.ā
I didnāt answer but ran through the scene in my head. It seemed unlikely that we were being spied upon, but Evieās fear was very real; I saw it her eyes, in the way she walked stiffly as though she were carrying a great weight.
āYou thought that they were listening to us?ā I asked.
āI should have been more careful.ā
āBut nothing you said was bad.ā
āIt was bad enough,ā she said. āIād better get home. But come over soon, will you? Come and spend some time with Jakey. Justā¦ well, you know.ā
I nodded, not wanting to speak the words either. It was unthinkable, unimaginable.
āAlso, I know we havenāt heard anything about Dadās estate for a while but I am chasing things up with the solicitor tomorrowāā
āDonāt worry about it,ā I told her. āThereās no rush. It must be the last thing that you want to think about right now.ā
āI just want you to know Iām on it.ā
I waved my hands; I didnāt want to talk about it.
We agreed to meet the next day and kissed each other on the cheek.
I watched her walk down the street until she disappeared from view and then I set off in the direction of home.
Though I wasnāt sure that I believed that the couple in the cafĆ© were listening to us, I found myself glancing over my shoulder the whole way home.
NOW
I turn around sharply at a rustling sound behind us. Footsteps, I imagine, but the quiver in the grass and the flash of a tail tells me otherwise.
āItās just a rat,ā I say aloud. I canāt stop myself from speaking to Mimi now sheās with me, even though sheās asleep, even though she canāt understand me.
I see the outline of a building ahead of us. Itās huge, imposing. Black timber and the sheen of thick glass; it doesnāt look like a home, more like modern art. It couldnāt be more different to the small, red-bricked house Evie left behind.
I exhale in one long breath as we approach it; it sounds like defeat. My plan to come here dissolves before my eyes. The sharp lines of the building, the gleaming glass, seem indicative of what Evie is like now. She has a hardness, a coldness that I had not imagined she could possess.
I hold on to Mimi tightly as I walk closer still, curl her small body around mine. We are shielded by shrubs that grow densely along the side of the towpath and as we approach the side of the building, I lose sight of it thanks to this foliage screen. Itās only when we emerge on the other side that I see a gap in the hedge leads to a footpath through a field, towards the house.
āLetās go this way,ā I say, heading towards the gap.
Mimiās head lolls to one side. A line of clear drool shines across on her face. Sheās completely out. I try to adjust her and so her head can rest on my shoulder. She slumps forwards with a heaviness that makes
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