This Side of Paradise F. Scott Fitzgerald (mini ebook reader .txt) đ
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Her mother comes in, muffled in an opera-cloak. She takes in Rosalind with a nervous glance.
Mrs. ConnageWho is coming tonight?
Rosalind fails to hear her, at least takes no notice.
Mrs. ConnageAlec is coming up to take me to this Barrie play, Et Tu, Brutus. She perceives that she is talking to herself. Rosalind! I asked you who is coming tonight?
RosalindStarting. Ohâ âwhatâ âohâ âAmoryâ â
Mrs. ConnageSarcastically. You have so many admirers lately that I couldnât imagine which one. (Rosalind doesnât answer.) Dawson Ryder is more patient than I thought heâd be. You havenât given him an evening this week.
RosalindWith a very weary expression that is quite new to her face. Motherâ âpleaseâ â
Mrs. ConnageOh, I wonât interfere. Youâve already wasted over two months on a theoretical genius who hasnât a penny to his name, but go ahead, waste your life on him. I wonât interfere.
RosalindAs if repeating a tiresome lesson. You know he has a little incomeâ âand you know heâs earning thirty-five dollars a week in advertisingâ â
Mrs. ConnageAnd it wouldnât buy your clothes. She pauses but Rosalind makes no reply. I have your best interests at heart when I tell you not to take a step youâll spend your days regretting. Itâs not as if your father could help you. Things have been hard for him lately and heâs an old man. Youâd be dependent absolutely on a dreamer, a nice, wellborn boy, but a dreamerâ âmerely clever. She implies that this quality in itself is rather vicious.
RosalindFor heavenâs sake, motherâ â
A maid appears, announces Mr. Blaine who follows immediately. Amoryâs friends have been telling him for ten days that he âlooks like the wrath of God,â and he does. As a matter of fact he has not been able to eat a mouthful in the last thirty-six hours.
AmoryGood evening, Mrs. Connage.
Mrs. ConnageNot unkindly. Good evening, Amory.
Amory and Rosalind exchange glancesâ âand Alec comes in. Alecâs attitude throughout has been neutral. He believes in his heart that the marriage would make Amory mediocre and Rosalind miserable, but he feels a great sympathy for both of them.
AlecHi, Amory!
AmoryHi, Alec! Tom said heâd meet you at the theatre.
AlecYeah, just saw him. Howâs the advertising today? Write some brilliant copy?
AmoryOh, itâs about the same. I got a raiseâ âEveryone looks at him rather eagerly.â âof two dollars a week. General collapse.
Mrs. ConnageCome, Alec, I hear the car.
A good night, rather chilly in sections. After Mrs. Connage and Alec go out there is a pause. Rosalind still stares moodily at the fireplace. Amory goes to her and puts his arm around her.
AmoryDarling girl.
They kiss. Another pause and then she seizes his hand, covers it with kisses and holds it to her breast.
RosalindSadly. I love your hands, more than anything. I see them often when youâre away from meâ âso tired; I know every line of them. Dear hands!
Their eyes meet for a second and then she begins to cryâ âa tearless sobbing.
AmoryRosalind!
RosalindOh, weâre so darned pitiful!
AmoryRosalind!
RosalindOh, I want to die!
AmoryRosalind, another night of this and Iâll go to pieces. Youâve been this way four days now. Youâve got to be more encouraging or I canât work or eat or sleep. He looks around helplessly as if searching for new words to clothe an old, shopworn phrase. Weâll have to make a start. I like having to make a start together. His forced hopefulness fades as he sees her unresponsive. Whatâs the matter? He gets up suddenly and starts to pace the floor. Itâs Dawson Ryder, thatâs what it is. Heâs been working on your nerves. Youâve been with him every afternoon for a week. People come and tell me theyâve seen you together, and I have to smile and nod and pretend it hasnât the slightest significance for me. And you wonât tell me anything as it develops.
RosalindAmory, if you donât sit down Iâll scream.
AmorySitting down suddenly beside her. Oh, Lord.
RosalindTaking his hand gently. You know I love you, donât you?
AmoryYes.
RosalindYou know Iâll always love youâ â
AmoryDonât talk that way; you frighten me. It sounds as if we werenât going to have each other. She cries a little and rising from the couch goes to the armchair. Iâve felt all afternoon that things were worse. I nearly went wild down at the officeâ âcouldnât write a line. Tell me everything.
RosalindThereâs nothing to tell, I say. Iâm just nervous.
AmoryRosalind, youâre playing with the idea of marrying Dawson Ryder.
RosalindAfter a pause. Heâs been asking me to all day.
AmoryWell, heâs got his nerve!
RosalindAfter another pause. I like him.
AmoryDonât say that. It hurts me.
RosalindDonât be a silly idiot. You know youâre the only man Iâve ever loved, ever will love.
AmoryQuickly. Rosalind, letâs get marriedâ ânext week.
RosalindWe canât.
AmoryWhy not?
RosalindOh, we canât. Iâd be your squawâ âin some horrible place.
AmoryWeâll have two hundred and seventy-five dollars a month all told.
RosalindDarling, I donât even do my own hair, usually.
AmoryIâll do it for you.
RosalindBetween a laugh and a sob. Thanks.
AmoryRosalind, you canât be thinking of marrying someone else. Tell me! You leave me in the dark. I can help you fight it out if youâll only tell me.
RosalindItâs justâ âus. Weâre pitiful, thatâs all. The very qualities I love you for are the ones that will always make you a failure.
AmoryGrimly. Go on.
RosalindOhâ âit is Dawson Ryder. Heâs so reliable, I almost feel that heâd be aâ âa background.
AmoryYou donât love him.
RosalindI know, but I respect him, and heâs a good man and a strong one.
AmoryGrudgingly. Yesâ âheâs that.
RosalindWellâ âhereâs one little thing. There was a little poor boy we met in Rye Tuesday afternoonâ âand, oh, Dawson took him on his lap
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