A New Dream Maggie Ford (fantasy books to read .TXT) š
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āI donāt know.ā The reply tore at Juliaās heart.
āSometimes he was away,ā Stephanie went on as if excusing him. āHe said it was stock exchange business. That was his work. I wouldnāt see him for a few weeks. A girl I knew laughed when I told her and said, āBusiness, he calls it? Darling, you donāt think youāre his only bit of stuff, do you?ā I didnāt believe her. But when I told him Iād missed two of my monthlies, he was so angry and said he was going away for a while. I remembered then what that woman had said. When I asked him to his face he admitted that I was not the only girl in his life. He said the women he preferred were far more mature than I was and knew how to look after themselves. Iāve not seen him since.ā
And probably never will again, thought Julia. But her sister was still talking.
āHe bought me such lovely clothes and bits of nice jewellery. Weād go dancing and to nightclubs and he paid for everything, so he must have loved me or he wouldnāt have splashed out like that. I just hope heāll come round to feeling better about ā about the baby. He did suggest I should get rid of it but then said it was nothing to do with him. Now I donāt know what to think.ā Stephanie was wringing her hands with indecision. āPerhaps heāll come back. I do still love him.ā
Julia resisted a strong temptation to call her a silly little idiot. āAnd if he doesnāt?ā she said in an as even a tone as possible. āHow are you going to tell Mummy?ā
She saw Stephanieās eyes widen with terror. āI canāt tell her!ā
āYou probably wouldnāt have to. She will see as time goes on. But you shouldnāt wait for that. You should tell her.ā
āI canāt face her. Iāll kill myself! Sheāll hate me!ā
āNo she wonāt,ā Julia said quietly, ignoring her sisterās dramatics.
But terror had begun to turn to defiance. āI only did what you and Simon have been doing. I thought, if they can do it, then so can I.ā
āSimon and I are intending to marry soon. This Jimmy chap hadnāt even proposed to you. You hadnāt even had a promise of an engagement.ā
āI thought we would get married.ā
āThen it seems you were wrong.ā
Fear had begun to shine again in Stephanieās eyes. āI donāt know what to do,ā she repeated. āI know he loved me. Iām sure heāll come back. He couldnāt be so cruel as not to. He loved me. He said he did. I canāt tell Mummy. She was so upset when you and Simon started to live together; she said that sort of thing isnāt done and that she was so ashamed and could never hold up her head again. What will she say to me with no one to marry?ā
Cupping her hands to her face, she broke down in tears again, sinking on to her knees and leaning forward so that her head almost touched the floor.
Juliaās anger evaporated and she quickly lifted Stephanie up to hold her tightly, knowing that Betty and their workers would soon be arriving. She couldnāt have them walking in on such a scene and wondering what was going on.
āCome on,ā she urged sharply. āPull yourself together. Look, Iāll take you upstairs to Mother and Iāll do the talking.ā
āNo, I donāt want to face her. I canāt! Iāll die as soon as I see that look on her face, the look she gave you when you went with Simon.ā
āI wasnāt having a baby,ā Julia retorted. Even in this crisis Stephanie had the capacity to hurt without thinking. āIāll take you up to the workshop. You can wait in Simonās dining room until I come back.ā
āI canāt go in there!ā Stephanie gasped but her sister already had hold of her arm and was marching her to the stairs leading up to the stockroom, calling to Simon to come down to the shop. Simon was mystified as he passed them but Julia motioned to him with a discreet shake of her head, mouthing that she would tell him later.
āOh, itās you. What do you want?ā Her motherās greeting was so cold that had Juliaās errand been less urgent she would have turned on her heel and marched back down the stairs. Victoria was in her dressing gown and Julia guessed that sheād still been in bed.
āThereās something I have to tell you,ā Julia blurted out and then paused. This matter needed to be approached gently. āMummy, can I come in?ā
She felt like a stranger standing at the door, her mother staring at her, unsmiling, with a querying look as if she were a casual caller.
āItās very important!ā she urged, and at the tone of her voice her mother stepped back without a word to allow her to come in.
James and Ginny had already left for work and the flat was silent. Victoria sat down in one of the lovely brown Moroccan leather armchairs Julia had bought for her. She didnāt invite Julia to sit down.
āSo, then, what is it you want?ā she asked, looking up at her daughter. āYou hardly bother to come up here these days.ā
āThat isnāt my fault, Mummy.ā
āIn a way it is, Julia. While you persist in living with this manā¦ā
āHe isnāt this man, Mother, heās my fiancĆ© and as soon as we can we will be married.ā
āThen you are taking long enough to get around to it.ā
Julia held herself very stiff and upright, refusing to be humbled, and came to the point. āWhat Iāve come here to tell you has nothing to do with me or Simon. It may take a little time to explain so do you mind if I sit down?ā
To the faint ring of sarcasm her mother gave a shrug and a deep sigh. āI suppose you had
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