The Magnificent Ambersons Booth Tarkington (reading like a writer txt) 📖

an Amberson yet that would let the Amberson name go trailing in the dust like that! It’s the proudest name in this town and it’s going to stay the proudest; and I tell you that’s the deepest thing in my nature⁠—not that I’d expect Eugene Morgan to understand⁠—the very deepest thing in my nature is to protect that name, and to fight for it to the last breath when danger threatens it, as it does now⁠—through my mother!” He turned from her, striding up and down and tossing his arms about, in a tumult of gesture. “I can’t believe it of you, that you’d think of such a sacrilege! That’s what it would be⁠—sacrilege! When he talks about your unselfishness toward me, he’s right⁠—you have been unselfish and you have been a perfect mother. But what about him? Is it unselfish of him to want you to throw away your good name just to please him? That’s all he asks of you⁠—and to quit being my mother! Do you think I can believe you really care for him? I don’t! You are my mother and you’re an Amberson⁠—and I believe you’re too proud! You’re too proud to care for a man who could write such a letter as that!” He stopped, faced her, and spoke with more self-control: “Well, what are you going to do about it, mother?”

George was right about his mother’s being proud. And even when she laughed with a negro gardener, or even those few times in her life when people saw her weep, Isabel had a proud look⁠—something that was independent and graceful and strong. But she did not have it now: she leaned against the wall, beside his dressing-table, and seemed beset with humility and with weakness. Her head drooped.

“What answer are you going to make to such a letter?” George demanded, like a judge on the bench.

“I⁠—I don’t quite know, dear,” she murmured.

“Wait,” she begged him. “I’m so⁠—confused.”

“I want to know what you’re going to write him. Do you think if you did what he wants you to I could bear to stay another day in this town, mother? Do you think I could ever bear even to see you again if you married him? I’d want to, but you surely know I just⁠—couldn’t!”

She made a futile gesture, and seemed to breathe with difficulty. “I⁠—I wasn’t⁠—quite sure,” she faltered, “about⁠—about it’s being wise for us to be married⁠—even before knowing how you feel about it. I wasn’t even sure it was quite fair to⁠—to Eugene. I have⁠—I seem to have that family trouble⁠—like father’s⁠—that I spoke to you about once.” She managed a deprecatory little dry laugh. “Not that it amounts to much, but I wasn’t at all sure that it would be fair to him. Marrying doesn’t mean so much, after all⁠—not at my age. It’s enough to know that⁠—that people think of you⁠—and to see them. I thought we were all⁠—oh, pretty happy the way things were, and I don’t think it would mean giving up a great deal for him or me, either, if we just went on as we have been. I⁠—I see him almost every day, and⁠—”

“Mother!” George’s voice was loud and stern. “Do you think you could go on seeing him after this!”

She had been talking helplessly enough before; her tone was little more broken now. “Not⁠—not even⁠—see him?”

“How could you?” George cried. “Mother, it seems to me that if he ever set foot in this house again⁠—oh! I can’t speak of it! Could you see him, knowing what talk it makes every time he turns into this street, and knowing what that means to me? Oh, I don’t understand all this⁠—I don’t! If you’d told me, a year ago, that such things were going to happen, I’d have thought you were insane⁠—and now I believe I am!”

Then, after a preliminary gesture of despair, as though he meant harm to the ceiling, he flung himself heavily, face downward, upon the bed. His anguish was none the less real for its vehemence; and the stricken lady came to him instantly and bent over him, once more enfolding him in her arms. She said nothing, but suddenly her tears fell upon his head; she saw them, and seemed to be startled.

“Oh, this won’t do!” she said. “I’ve never let you see me cry before, except when your father died. I mustn’t!”

And she ran from the room.

… A little while after she had gone, George rose and began solemnly to dress for dinner. At one stage of these conscientious proceedings he put on, temporarily, his long black velvet dressing-gown, and, happening to catch sight in his pier glass of the picturesque and medieval figure thus presented, he paused to regard it; and something profoundly theatrical in his nature came to the surface.

His lips moved; he whispered, half-aloud, some famous fragments:

“ ’Tis not alone my inky cloak, good mother,
Nor customary suits of solemn black⁠ ⁠…”

For, in truth, the mirrored princely image, with hair dishevelled on the white brow, and the long tragic fall of black velvet from the shoulders, had brought about (in his thought at least) some comparisons of his own times, so out of joint, with those of that other gentle prince and heir whose widowed mother was minded to marry again.

“But I have that within which passeth show;
These but the trappings and the suits of Woe.”

Not less like Hamlet did he feel and look as he sat gauntly at the dinner table with Fanny to partake of a meal throughout which neither spoke. Isabel had sent word “not to wait” for her, an injunction it was as well they obeyed, for she did not come at all. But with the renewal of sustenance furnished to his system, some relaxation must have occurred within the high-strung George. Dinner was not quite finished when, without warning, sleep hit him hard. His burning eyes could no longer restrain the lids above them; his head sagged beyond control; and he got to his