The Tenant of Wildfell Hall Anne BrontĂ« (librera reader .txt) đ
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âAnd am I above all human sympathies?â said I.
âNo, darling; but you are making more progress towards that saintly condition than I like; for all these two hours I have been thinking of you and wanting to catch your eye, and you were so absorbed in your devotions that you had not even a glance to spare for meâ âI declare it is enough to make one jealous of oneâs Makerâ âwhich is very wrong, you know; so donât excite such wicked passions again, for my soulâs sake.â
âI will give my whole heart and soul to my Maker if I can,â I answered, âand not one atom more of it to you than He allows. What are you, sir, that you should set yourself up as a god, and presume to dispute possession of my heart with Him to whom I owe all I have and all I am, every blessing I ever did or ever can enjoyâ âand yourself among the restâ âif you are a blessing, which I am half inclined to doubt.â
âDonât be so hard upon me, Helen; and donât pinch my arm so: you are squeezing your fingers into the bone.â
âArthur,â continued I, relaxing my hold of his arm, âyou donât love me half as much as I do you; and yet, if you loved me far less than you do, I would not complain, provided you loved your Maker more. I should rejoice to see you at any time so deeply absorbed in your devotions that you had not a single thought to spare for me. But, indeed, I should lose nothing by the change, for the more you loved your God the more deep and pure and true would be your love to me.â
At this he only laughed and kissed my hand, calling me a sweet enthusiast. Then taking off his hat, he added: âBut look here, Helenâ âwhat can a man do with such a head as this?â
The head looked right enough, but when he placed my hand on the top of it, it sunk in a bed of curls, rather alarmingly low, especially in the middle.
âYou see I was not made to be a saint,â said he, laughing, âIf God meant me to be religious, why didnât He give me a proper organ of veneration?â
âYou are like the servant,â I replied, âwho, instead of employing his one talent in his masterâs service, restored it to him unimproved, alleging, as an excuse, that he knew him âto be a hard man, reaping where he had not sown, and gathering where he had not strawed.â Of him to whom less is given, less will be required, but our utmost exertions are required of us all. You are not without the capacity of veneration, and faith and hope, and conscience and reason, and every other requisite to a Christianâs character, if you choose to employ them; but all our talents increase in the using, and every faculty, both good and bad, strengthens by exercise: therefore, if you choose to use the bad, or those which tend to evil, till they become your masters, and neglect the good till they dwindle away, you have only yourself to blame. But you have talents, Arthurâ ânatural endowments both of heart and mind and temper, such as many a better Christian would be glad to possess, if you would only employ them in Godâs service. I should never expect to see you a devotee, but it is quite possible to be a good Christian without ceasing to be a happy, merry-hearted man.â
âYou speak like an oracle, Helen, and all you say is indisputably true; but listen here: I am hungry, and I see before me a good substantial dinner; I am told that if I abstain from this today I shall have a sumptuous feast tomorrow, consisting of all manner of dainties and delicacies. Now, in the first place, I should be loth to wait till tomorrow when I have the means of appeasing my hunger already before me: in the second place, the solid viands of today are more to my taste than the dainties that are promised me; in the third place, I donât see tomorrowâs banquet, and how can I tell that it is not all a fable, got up by the greasy-faced fellow that is advising me to abstain in order that he may have all the good victuals to himself? in the fourth place, this table must be spread for somebody, and, as Solomon says, âWho can eat, or who else can hasten hereunto more than I?â and finally, with your leave, Iâll sit down and satisfy my cravings of today, and leave tomorrow to shift for itselfâ âwho knows but what I may secure both this and that?â
âBut you are not required to abstain from the substantial dinner of today: you are only advised to partake of these coarser viands in such moderation as not to incapacitate you from enjoying the choicer banquet of tomorrow. If, regardless of that counsel, you choose to make a beast of yourself now, and overeat and over-drink yourself till you turn the good victuals into poison, who is to blame if, hereafter, while you are suffering the torments of yesterdayâs gluttony and drunkenness, you see more temperate men sitting down to enjoy themselves at that splendid entertainment which you are unable to taste?â
âMost true, my patron saint; but again, our friend Solomon says, âThere is nothing better for a man than to eat and to drink, and to be merry.âââ
âAnd again,â returned I, âhe says, âRejoice, O young man, in thy youth; and walk in the ways of thine heart, and in the sight of thine eyes: but know thou, that for all these things God will bring thee into judgment.âââ
âWell, but, Helen, Iâm sure Iâve been very good these last few weeks. What have you seen amiss in me, and what would you have me to do?â
âNothing more than you do,
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