When We're Thirty Casey Dembowski (the chimp paradox .TXT) 📖

admiration of the apartment, he could tell Hannah didn’t love being here either, particularly after the way she’d eyed the bed last night as if she wished to set it on fire.

Hannah rested her head against his shoulder—perhaps that meant no more questions. He relaxed for the moment. They were almost through Garden State, a movie Will hadn’t watched in nearly a decade and that Hannah swore by. Somehow that didn’t surprise him. On-screen, Zach Braff, Natalie Portman, and Peter Sarsgaard stared down a landfill and lamented the poor guy who had to argue for the right to destroy a natural phenomenon.

That had literally been his job for years. Fighting for the right to build hotels wherever they wanted. Reading the reports, advising on the costs, ignoring the hole the job was ripping through his soul every time he read about relocating the flora and fauna. But not anymore.

“I quit Wellington Thorne yesterday.”

She bolted upright, her eyes panicked. “You can’t.”

“It’s done.” The words terrified him. But for the first time in his life, he felt the chain that bound him to the Thorne name and all that came with it loosening, breaking. He could be free with a few more strategic tugs on that poor, deteriorating connection. The thought sent a spike of panic through him, as it had yesterday in Grayson’s office when his uncle had looked at him squarely and asked if he knew what he was doing.

“What will do you now?” Hannah asked, surprise and concern mixing in her voice.

He took her hand in his and met her gaze. “Kiss you.”

“Will,” she said, staving off his advances and scooting to the far end of the couch.

He laughed. “I’m still William Thorne, one of the best corporate environmental lawyers in New York, Wellington Thorne or no Wellington Thorne. I’ll make some calls. With any luck, I’ll soon be on the partner track at a small firm, still practicing corporate environmental law.”

Hannah nodded as if that sounded exactly right. He loved that she knew it did.

“I have some news, too, actually,” she said, a tentative smile on her face. “We got an exclusive for the inaugural issue.”

Will didn’t even have to go through the list of Boston-based artists. There was only one who would have Hannah unnerved, but he would play along because this was her moment. “Really? Who?”

“I’m interviewing Leonard Nulty next week,” she said, a giant smile brightening her features. “When I think about it, I can’t even breathe.”

His wife had arrived. Editor in chief of Deafening Silence Boston and an exclusive with the illusive Leonard Nulty himself. “Congratulations.”

She shrugged. “I didn’t really do anything.”

“But you will.” He squeezed one of the feet resting in his lap, the only part of her he could easily reach. “Maybe I should make some calls to firms in Boston?”

It was a Hail Mary. They were barely over their argument and in no place to talk about big moves. Without the legally binding marriage between them, Hannah might not have come back, Rule 5 be damned. It tethered them to this relationship as much as their feelings did. But if she’d have him, he wanted her to know he was all in.

“Boston is a beautiful city, but I don’t think I could live there indefinitely. I love living in New York. I loved Queens—a city outside the city, you know? But I’ve always pictured myself in a brownstone in Murray Hill. Or maybe in Long Island City with a view of the river?”

“So you are, in fact, a New Yorker?”

“I guess so,” she said with a small, contented smile. “Not that I could ever afford to live in either of those areas.”

“If we hock your engagement ring, we could piece together a down payment.” Murray Hill and Long Island City were less expensive than the places he’d lived before, but Hannah wasn’t exactly making bank at Deafening. Maybe he could make it happen—he would have to do something since he would officially be homeless in the next few months.

“Was... was it supposed to be Madison’s?” Her voice stuck on the name.

Will stopped the mental calculations in his head and caught up to her line of thinking. “No. I sold Madison’s ring and bought this much bigger one when I decided I was going to initiate the pact. I figured the bigger the better. It might sway your decision.”

“It didn’t. Actually...” She paused. “The ring itself didn’t entice me to marry you, but the fact that you had a ring—and quite a large one—made me think you were serious about the whole thing.”

He glanced down at her left hand. Her wedding band adorned her ring finger with its simple, classic perfection. “Is that why you hardly ever wear it? Because you thought it was meant for someone else?”

She bit her bottom lip. “Partly... yes. After I had the wedding band, which I knew you bought for me specifically—and it’s so perfect—pairing it with the engagement ring made it feel more fake. And then as we became us, it was this reminder that you were supposed to marry someone else.”

“Maybe I wasn’t,” he said, leaning in until their foreheads touched. He tangled his fingers in her hair. “Maybe that’s the whole point to all of this. Maybe I was meant to be with you.”

“You’re such a hopeless romantic.”

“You love it,” he said, sitting back against the couch.

Hannah smiled, but her mind seemed elsewhere. She worried at her bottom lip. “I’ve been thinking.”

“A dangerous pastime.”

She rolled her eyes but played along. “I know.”

She paused and then took a breath as if deciding she was going through with whatever she had to say. He steeled himself for her next words.

“I think you should tell Jon what happened,” she said, meeting his gaze. “You keep things from people to try and protect them, but they still get hurt. I got hurt.”

Will opened his mouth to tell her about the argument with Jon, but she put a finger to his lips to keep him quiet.

“And the thing