Clarissa Harlowe Samuel Richardson (most important books to read TXT) 📖

kneeling on the side of the bed, the lady’s right hand in both his, which his face covered, bathing it with his tears; although she had been comforting him, as the women since told me, in elevated strains, but broken accents.

On the other side of the bed sat the good widow; her face overwhelmed with tears, leaning her head against the bed’s head in a most disconsolate manner; and turning her face to me, as soon as she saw me, O Mr. Belford, cried she, with folded hands⁠—the dear lady⁠—A heavy sob permitted her not to say more.

Mrs. Smith, with clasped fingers, and uplifted eyes, as if imploring help from the only Power which could give it, was kneeling down at the bed’s feet, tears in large drops trickling down her cheeks.

Her nurse was kneeling between the widow and Mrs. Smith, her arms extended. In one hand she held an ineffectual cordial, which she had just been offering to her dying mistress; her face was swollen with weeping (though used to such scenes as this); and she turned her eyes towards me, as if she called upon me by them to join in the helpless sorrow; a fresh stream bursting from them as I approached the bed.

The maid of the house with her face upon her folded arms, as she stood leaning against the wainscot, more audibly exprest her grief than any of the others.

The lady had been silent a few minutes, and speechless, as they thought, moving her lips without uttering a word; one hand, as I said, in her cousin’s. But when Mrs. Lovick, on my approach, pronounced my name, O Mr. Belford, said she, with a faint inward voice, but very distinct nevertheless⁠—Now!⁠—Now! (in broken periods she spoke)⁠—I bless God for his mercies to his poor creature⁠—all will soon be over⁠—a few⁠—a very few moments⁠—will end this strife⁠—and I shall be happy!

Comfort here, Sir⁠—turning her head to the Colonel⁠—comfort my cousin⁠—see! the blame⁠—able kindness⁠—he would not wish me to be happy⁠—so soon!

Here she stopped for two or three minutes, earnestly looking upon him. Then resuming, My dearest Cousin, said she, be comforted⁠—what is dying but the common lot?⁠—The mortal frame may seem to labour⁠—but that is all!⁠—It is not so hard to die as I believed it to be!⁠—The preparation is the difficulty⁠—I bless God, I have had time for that⁠—the rest is worse to beholders, than to me!⁠—I am all blessed hope⁠—hope itself. She looked what she said, a sweet smile beaming over her countenance.

After a short silence, Once more, my dear Cousin, said she, but still in broken accents, commend me most dutifully to my father and mother⁠—There she stopped. And then proceeding⁠—To my sister, to my brother, to my uncles⁠—and tell them, I bless them with my parting breath⁠—for all their goodness to me⁠—even for their displeasure, I bless them⁠—most happy has been to me my punishment here! Happy indeed!

She was silent for a few moments, lifting up her eyes, and the hand her cousin held not between his. Then, O Death! said she, where is thy sting! (the words I remember to have heard in the burial-service read over my uncle and poor Belton). And after a pause⁠—It is good for me that I was afflicted! Words of scripture, I suppose.

Then turning towards us, who were lost in speechless sorrow⁠—O dear, dear gentlemen, said she, you know not what foretastes⁠—what assurances⁠—And there she again stopped, and looked up, as if in a thankful rapture, sweetly smiling.

Then turning her head towards me⁠—Do you, Sir, tell your friend that I forgive him!⁠—And I pray to God to forgive him!⁠—Again pausing, and lifting up her eyes as if praying that He would. Let him know how happily I die:⁠—And that such as my own, I wish to be his last hour.

She was again silent for a few moments: and then resuming⁠—My sight fails me!⁠—Your voices only⁠—(for we both applauded her Christian, her divine frame, though in accents as broken as her own); and the voice of grief is alike in all. Is not this Mr. Morden’s hand? pressing one of his with that he had just let go. Which is Mr. Belford’s? holding out the other. I gave her mine. God Almighty bless you both, said she, and make you both⁠—in your last hour⁠—for you must come to this⁠—happy as I am.

She paused again, her breath growing shorter; and, after a few minutes⁠—And now, my dearest Cousin, give me your hand⁠—nearer⁠—still nearer⁠—drawing it towards her; and she pressed it with her dying lips⁠—God protect you, dear, dear Sir⁠—and once more, receive my best and most grateful thanks⁠—and tell my dear Miss Howe⁠—and vouchsafe to see, and to tell my worthy Norton⁠—she will be one day, I fear not, though now lowly in her fortunes, a saint in Heaven⁠—tell them both, that I remember them with thankful blessings in my last moments!⁠—And pray God to give them happiness here for many, many years, for the sake of their friends and lovers; and an heavenly crown hereafter; and such assurances of it, as I have, through the all-satisfying merits of my blessed Redeemer.

Her sweet voice and broken periods methinks still fill my ears, and never will be out of my memory.

After a short silence, in a more broken and faint accent⁠—And you, Mr. Belford, pressing my hand, may God preserve you, and make you sensible of all your errors⁠—you see, in me, how all ends⁠—may you be⁠—And down sunk her head upon her pillow, she fainting away, and drawing from us her hands.

We thought she was then gone; and each gave way to a violent burst of grief.

But soon showing signs of returning life, our attention was again engaged; and I besought her, when a little recovered, to complete in my favour her half-pronounced blessing. She waved her hand to us both, and bowed her head six several times, as we have since recollected, as if distinguishing every person present; not forgetting the nurse and the maidservant; the latter having approached the bed, weeping, as if