Currently And Drastically by Marc Jablonski (ereader for android TXT) 📖

cutting me in half
Hear me I am cold, Please let go of me
I’m still in your hold, I can never be

Please reach out to me, ‘Least I’m only one
I am a brother, a friend, I’m a son


The Truth Inside The Lines (A Sonnet)

I know the difference between right and wrong
But lately I feel I want to kiss you
And when I replay the events to come
I realize how much I'd really miss you

If we hold each other will you smile?
Is this hurting you more when I speak?
I haven't felt your touch in a while
Will it get me stronger or keep me weak

Happiness' perceptive am I happy
I can be happier if you loved me
Yet neither of us love ourselves equally
Must we wait and see whilst our lives are free

Am I truthful when I say I love you
Or lying 'cause I want it to be true


Everyday I Wait

I'll sanctify myself
Because this stress is killing me
I've been waiting to see
For the rest and still to be
But I trudge on willingly
Do I let it fulfill me or let it take over 'till I'm free
Making me what I can't be
My opportunity the central unity
Obsession over soon to be
What could only reach
Persistent reality
Inside the soul moving me
So that I can't breathe

And if you can save me
Please don't erase me
I've yet to take a side
I want to live my life
But now it's getting cold
My soul is getting old
And growing to the beat
I won't admit defeat

The rhythm of my cry
The precision of my life
The delusion I'm alive
The distortion riding by
Like an enemy of one
I will take it like a gun
It will penetrate my skin
But it will never win

I'm on fire to the core
In an hour i'll be more
With the power to explore
Send it to the sun
And I travel once again
I travel once undone
With an eagle tailing me
Showing paths I can not see
I have something In my head
But there is nothing left
I recognize the meaning
I second it with breathing (my breath)
I memorize the screaming
All in all I'm dreaming (the death)
I've let it take too long
I can not wait any more


Morality

There's a knife on my right and a thought in my head
And a messenger saying there is blood to be shed
And I look around and I look to the light
But I'm stuck in between what to do and what's right

There's a life to be lived, there's a question of hope
There's a turning of faith, there's one last strand of rope
Can you hang on to it, can you keep one last breath
Close to your soul when there is nothing left

Climb up the thread doesn’t leave it to this
I know thoughts are dead when they enter my fist
I know I am quiet I’m out of control
I’m dying to express my soul

I won’t be worried
No I won’t be understood
Every weakness
Has opened up some good
Every dream
Has awoken what it should

Take a look at my scars
As my mind is at war
I am crying, I am starved
Finding who we are
How did I get here
How did we get this far
Blinded by the place we call home

There's a knife on my right and a thought in my head
And a messenger saying there is blood to be shed
And I look around and I look to the light
But I'm stuck in between what to do and what's right


Drastically

I am always wrong but I always play along
To keep them somewhat happy but I am not that strong
I don't get my pity, in fact I'm the one that's guilty
It's amazing how far I've been hanging on
I'm living on misery, given nothing free
I'm working so hard, but they still don't notice me
I'm selfish but they're selfish they don't know how I feel
I'm at a loss, I've nothing to believe, believe in me

I must try to move on now
But how, which way do I go?
This control, its gone, I am always wrong
Should I continue on, who will miss my soul?
I have always hurt everyone I love
So I'm convinced there's nothing above
How can I live in this pain
Let it rain, let it rain on me
(This pain you see, this is me)

There is no mask left to hide in
I'm not lying, I'm dying before your eyes
And if we die who'll be smiling
It will rise to keep beguiling
Fear of myself, can't control my life
There's nowhere left for me to hide
Will I go for a ride, show my disguise
I'm dying before your very eyes
Why bother trying to get out of this hole
Nothing's worked, how do I know

I can't breathe, I can't believe in anything
Many things crash on me, drastically
Unhappily, and rapidly, trapping me
With the rest of me, testing me, its destiny

I must try to move on now
But how, which way do I go?
This control, its gone, I am always wrong
Should I continue on, who will miss my soul?
I have always hurt everyone I love
So I'm convinced there's nothing above
How can I live in this pain
Let it rain, let it rain on me
(This pain you see, this is me)

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Text: © Marc Jablonski
Publication Date: 12-06-2009

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