Eyes of a Mystic by Lady Adellandra Dratianos (old books to read TXT) 📖

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To the father
who was never there
you don't know your child
has grown into a woman
blossoming with light and love
early on she was thrust
to the cruel, unforgiving world
to learn, to live, to love, on her own
To the dad,
who didn't care
to write or phone
you left me all alone
you never brought me warmth and hope
you taught me nothing
I searched for you
but you never came
I thought of you
did you ever think of me?
Ever wonder what happened
to that little girl
with long blond hair
and thought the world of you?
She grew up
without a father
How does that make you feel?
Do you even care?
Do you even remember me?
I hope you dream of me
And feel some remorse
for having nothing to do with
my upbringing.
For Scarring my little mind
forcing me to trust no one
I hope one day we'll meet once more
And you'll remember me
How will that make you feel?

Freestyle Therapy
-- Adellandra Dranna Dratianos, 14Nov2006

They said it was the best way
get my words on the page
bring my thoughts to life
deal with problems
write them down, they said
so here I am, doing just that
not much said, yet freestyle speech
They said it's the best way
to handle that tough subject
to bring clarity to a confused memory
to bring a dream to fruition
write it down,
think it out,
here I am, doing just that
How does it look
still clouded I'm afraid
it's not working
could it be because I'm uncaring
because I'm aware of what I say?
Could it be because I know what's to come?
My dreams tell the future
the present and the past
my visions are unending, sometimes
They say it's the best way
to sort things out
than why am I so confused?
Why do I dream in visions?
Ah well, nevermind
just words on the page
doesn't matter much anyway

Not Like You
-- Adellandra Dranna Dratianos, 14Nov2006

I'm not like you
cause I am me
that's all I will ever be
I'm not like you
who's not like me
I dream in visions, differently
I sing my songs, I write my words
I'm not like you
I don't anger easily
I keep my cool
but I also get upset in different ways
I'm not like you
I can't keep my feelings inside
I implode before too long
I'm not like you
I'm not dark and hating
I'm incapable of hatred
I can't kill without malace
I'm not like you at all
I'm too light for my own good
I'm too nice
I'm not like you
I can't open my mouth
and expect curses to work
I'm not like you
Not even close
Maybe that's why I love you so much?

Darkness Reign
-- Adella Moon DragonWolf

Black as Night, Light as Day
How dare you make me feel this way?
Black is Night, Black is Pitch
I'll kill you, you son of a bitch!
Fool on me, death to you
I'm the one that's been true
You've been there, doing what you wish
How dare you make me act like this!
You get mad at me for my male friends
You're emotional and protective til the end
The end is here, we are no more
Chose, her or me? Who do you love more?
Fool on me, death to you
Go to hell, shithead, I'm through
Black as Night, Black is Death
Mess with me, lose your breath!

Blood of My Blood
-- Adellandra Dranna Dratianos, 15Nov2006

Blood of my blood
Yours calls out to mine
Flesh of my flesh
Delicate Life's Wine
Blood of my blood
Love of my Love
Soul of my soul
All the above
Heart of my Heart
I Call out to Thee
Feel the beat racing
The Need to be Free
Temperature Rising
Feed me my Lover
Tempt my desires
Blood run rampant
Flesh to the Fires
Blood of my blood
Flesh of my flesh
Love of my love
Heart of my heart
You are my all
As I am to you

The Jackrabbit
-- Adellandra Dranna Dratianos, 16Nov2006

As I was Hunting
One Bright October Morn
I happened to see a jackrabbit
a'grazin in the corn
Though he was a small beast
he sensed me standing there
but stayed in his spot
with nary a care
my eyes they were staring
deep in his doleful black
he heard a shot in the distance
and turned to hurry back
he raced away and I stood
staring after him
racing away from the shot
that might have tore him limb from limb
I shook out of my daze
and went upon my way
To Hunt for my turn-ed kin
To live another day.

Music Soothes
-- Adellandra Dranna Dratianos, 17Nov2006

Babies crying
People talking
Patience running thin
here I'm sitting
to my music, listening
my mind is full of dreams
my heart is anxiously waiting
still I listen to the music within
Hearts beating
Rhythm of the road
here I sit
Listening
to the music in my mind
magic, dreams, songs
singing in my mind
It soothes the savage beast
At least it sooths me
drum beats, rock and soul
Feel the music take control
So here I am
Listening, waiting
watching and anticipating
From my mind
the music soothes me

A Beltane's Chant (ABC Poem)
-- Adellandra Dranna Dratianos, 18Nov2006

Around the
Beltane's Glowing fire
Chanting is heard,
Drumming is felt. The
Earth, She rises higher and higher
Flowing
Green Goddess of
Havens dealt
Incandescent
Jewels of
Kingdom's named.
Loving arms of the
Mother's Embrace
Nature's seeking
Oceans Fame
Prince and Princess for
Queen and King's Grace
Raising their voices higher and higher
Sing to the skies
Touching, Embracing,
Underneath the moon's glow
Various voices joined in Choir
With heart's love, the Beltane's fire
Xylophone echoes purest desires
Youth and blessing, raising
Zenith's light.

It Takes All Kinds
-- Adellandra Dranna Dratianos, 19Nov2006

It takes all kinds to make a world
To complete the human race
It takes all kinds, from boys to girls
And smiles on every face
It takes all kinds for the earth to run
Laughing children, grumpy men
Fun-filled lovers having fun
To revolve again and again
It takes all kinds to run the night
When day is done, the sun is gone
It takes all kinds to run the day
When night is gone, the new day dawns
It takes all kinds, from poor to rich
Families and tragedies
It takes all kinds to run the world
But why do they all have to bother me?

Silence is Golden
-- Adellandra Dranna Dratianos, 22Nov2006

Silence is Golden
When noise fills the air
It's the richest of beasts
beyond mortal compare
But Silence can be deadly
in the heat of battle
Unknowing of what's to come
Wandering, pacing, wondering
There's a chill in the air
Not a noise or a peep
Disturbs these soldiers
From their sleep
The enemy, they lie waiting
Whilst those they are fighting
Are deep within, plotting
Somewhere in the forests of the Night
There lies echoes of those lost
Battles, wars, blood, gore
So many gone, at what cost?
The tiger she paces
The wolf she growls
waiting for another attack
The lion he races
the hyena, he mumbles
Watching and waiting
Wishing and hating
For they've lost their own
Their littles and grown
Silence is Golden

I Wanna Fly
-- Adellandra Dratianos, 14Dec2006

I wanna fly
like the birds and the wind
High in the skies
Just spread my wings
Jump and flow
Following wherever the wind takes me
Up high, where the crisp air
and mountaintops reach the horizon
I wanna drift peacefully
Eyes closed, arms spread wide
Freedom, dreams, cool and clear
I wanna feel the wind catch my wings
I wanna taste the clean air
I wanna soar into the stars
Find myself drifting
Happily, dreams, peaceful skies
Soar away from the cold, cruel world
Drift away from depression
Lift myself, my wings, take flight
Away from yesterdays
Toward shiny new tomorrows
If only I could Fly


Old Poems and Songs, Remembered and Found:

Song I wrote long ago, but don't know when, All I remember are the words and melody:

Look In the Mirror
When I look in the Mirror
What do I see
I see your love lookin back at me
when I think about love
I think about you
That's the true meaning of love
between me and you
You're the only one I wanted
The only one I needed
you're the only one I wanted
to set my soul free
when I look up in that mirror
I get a feeling that won't go away
There's a feeling in my heart
That's there everyday
All the times you'd be in my heart
no one, not no one could tear us apart
now you're gone, now you're gone
Please come back for I love you so
Come back I'll never let you go
because I love you
I love you
I Love You!

These were long ago, but I don't know when..."I See the World" isn't the actual poem, just what I remember.

The Crystal Bear

This bear is made of crystal
the eyes are made of gold
his heart is made of love
for you and me to hold
keep his love close and
only hope you see
that inside his heart
is love for you and me
This bear is made of crystal
the eyes are made of love
but his heart is made of love
for all of us to hold

I See the World

I see the World though I am blind
I see the world is so unkind
Keeping out what wants let inside
though many people swallow their pride

I see the world through child's eyes
Seeing the world as paradise
though it may seem so far away
I see the world anyway

I see the world through societies lies
forgeting the world is paradise
Though the earthquakes of life get in my way
I see the World like that anyway

Snapshots

Snapshots of days gone past
memories that'll always last
remember the days of lonely true
when you had me and I had you
maybe someday we'll meet again?
Maybe that'll end this pain
I think of the days through and through
remembering how our love was true

Life is Funny - Song
wrote this one a long time ago and wonder why I'm thinking about it now, 28oct2006

When I was young
I dreamed the age of sixteen
I would have
A Job a car and money
I never dreamed
dreams would be so funny this way
Life is funny that way

chorus:
Life is, Life is funny that way
Hold on, when you got no place to stay
Don't run, mustn't be a runaway
Life sure is funny
Life is funny that way

Here I am
At the age of sixteen
Dreams are gone
don't feel like a beauty queen
now I see
that you make your dreams reality
day by day by day
cause life is, life is funny that way

chorus:

Every night, I dream of it
That I, I would be a part of it
Sweet dreams, take me to the heart of it all
never dreamed that I would take the fall
it's like I say,
Life is, life is funny that way

chorus

Bomb Squad Queenz!
This was just something for fun, with the Really Old version of the Bomb Squad. I never finished it, but it was fun