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jumped in. He seemed not to hear her. The train did not stop before it
reached Cambridge, and here she was shut up alone, in a railway
carriage, with a young man.
She touched the spring of her dressing-case, and ascertained that the
scent-bottle and a novel from Mudie’s were both handy (the young man was
standing up with his back to her, putting his bag in the rack). She
would throw the scent-bottle with her right hand, she decided, and tug
the communication cord with her left. She was fifty years of age, and
had a son at college. Nevertheless, it is a fact that men are dangerous.
She read half a column of her newspaper; then stealthily looked over the
edge to decide the question of safety by the infallible test of
appearance…. She would like to offer him her paper. But do young men
read the Morning Post? She looked to see what he was reading—the Daily
Telegraph.
Taking note of socks (loose), of tie (shabby), she once more reached his
face. She dwelt upon his mouth. The lips were shut. The eyes bent down,
since he was reading. All was firm, yet youthful, indifferent,
unconscious—as for knocking one down! No, no, no! She looked out of the
window, smiling slightly now, and then came back again, for he didn’t
notice her. Grave, unconscious… now he looked up, past her… he
seemed so out of place, somehow, alone with an elderly lady… then he
fixed his eyes—which were blue—on the landscape. He had not realized
her presence, she thought. Yet it was none of HER fault that this was
not a smoking-carriage—if that was what he meant.
Nobody sees any one as he is, let alone an elderly lady sitting opposite
a strange young man in a railway carriage. They see a whole—they see
all sorts of things—they see themselves…. Mrs. Norman now read three
pages of one of Mr. Norris’s novels. Should she say to the young man
(and after all he was just the same age as her own boy): “If you want to
smoke, don’t mind me”? No: he seemed absolutely indifferent to her
presence… she did not wish to interrupt.
But since, even at her age, she noted his indifference, presumably he
was in some way or other—to her at least—nice, handsome, interesting,
distinguished, well built, like her own boy? One must do the best one
can with her report. Anyhow, this was Jacob Flanders, aged nineteen. It
is no use trying to sum people up. One must follow hints, not exactly
what is said, nor yet entirely what is done—for instance, when the
train drew into the station, Mr. Flanders burst open the door, and put
the lady’s dressing-case out for her, saying, or rather mumbling: “Let
me” very shyly; indeed he was rather clumsy about it.
“Who…” said the lady, meeting her son; but as there was a great crowd
on the platform and Jacob had already gone, she did not finish her
sentence. As this was Cambridge, as she was staying there for the week-end, as she saw nothing but young men all day long, in streets and round
tables, this sight of her fellow-traveller was completely lost in her
mind, as the crooked pin dropped by a child into the wishing-well twirls
in the water and disappears for ever.
They say the sky is the same everywhere. Travellers, the shipwrecked,
exiles, and the dying draw comfort from the thought, and no doubt if you
are of a mystical tendency, consolation, and even explanation, shower
down from the unbroken surface. But above Cambridge—anyhow above the
roof of King’s College Chapel—there is a difference. Out at sea a great
city will cast a brightness into the night. Is it fanciful to suppose
the sky, washed into the crevices of King’s College Chapel, lighter,
thinner, more sparkling than the sky elsewhere? Does Cambridge burn not
only into the night, but into the day?
Look, as they pass into service, how airily the gowns blow out, as
though nothing dense and corporeal were within. What sculptured faces,
what certainty, authority controlled by piety, although great boots
march under the gowns. In what orderly procession they advance. Thick
wax candles stand upright; young men rise in white gowns; while the
subservient eagle bears up for inspection the great white book.
An inclined plane of light comes accurately through each window, purple
and yellow even in its most diffused dust, while, where it breaks upon
stone, that stone is softly chalked red, yellow, and purple. Neither
snow nor greenery, winter nor summer, has power over the old stained
glass. As the sides of a lantern protect the flame so that it burns
steady even in the wildest night—burns steady and gravely illumines the
tree-trunks—so inside the Chapel all was orderly. Gravely sounded the
voices; wisely the organ replied, as if buttressing human faith with the
assent of the elements. The white-robed figures crossed from side to
side; now mounted steps, now descended, all very orderly.
… If you stand a lantern under a tree every insect in the forest
creeps up to it—a curious assembly, since though they scramble and
swing and knock their heads against the glass, they seem to have no
purpose—something senseless inspires them. One gets tired of watching
them, as they amble round the lantern and blindly tap as if for
admittance, one large toad being the most besotted of any and
shouldering his way through the rest. Ah, but what’s that? A terrifying
volley of pistol-shots rings out—cracks sharply; ripples spread—
silence laps smooth over sound. A tree—a tree has fallen, a sort of
death in the forest. After that, the wind in the trees sounds
melancholy.
But this service in King’s College Chapel—why allow women to take part
in it? Surely, if the mind wanders (and Jacob looked extraordinarily
vacant, his head thrown back, his hymn-book open at the wrong place), if
the mind wanders it is because several hat shops and cupboards upon
cupboards of coloured dresses are displayed upon rush-bottomed chairs.
Though heads and bodies may be devout enough, one has a sense of
individuals—some like blue, others brown; some feathers, others pansies
and forget-me-nots. No one would think of bringing a dog into church.
For though a dog is all very well on a gravel path, and shows no
disrespect to flowers, the way he wanders down an aisle, looking,
lifting a paw, and approaching a pillar with a purpose that makes the
blood run cold with horror (should you be one of a congregation—alone,
shyness is out of the question), a dog destroys the service completely.
So do these women—though separately devout, distinguished, and vouched
for by the theology, mathematics, Latin, and Greek of their husbands.
Heaven knows why it is. For one thing, thought Jacob, they’re as ugly as
sin.
Now there was a scraping and murmuring. He caught Timmy Durrant’s eye;
looked very sternly at him; and then, very solemnly, winked.
“Waverley,” the villa on the road to Girton was called, not that Mr.
Plumer admired Scott or would have chosen any name at all, but names are
useful when you have to entertain undergraduates, and as they sat
waiting for the fourth undergraduate, on Sunday at lunch-time, there was
talk of names upon gates.
“How tiresome,” Mrs. Plumer interrupted impulsively. “Does anybody know
Mr. Flanders?”
Mr. Durrant knew him; and therefore blushed slightly, and said,
awkwardly, something about being sure—looking at Mr. Plumer and
hitching the right leg of his trouser as he spoke. Mr. Plumer got up and
stood in front of the fireplace. Mrs. Plumer laughed like a
straightforward friendly fellow. In short, anything more horrible than
the scene, the setting, the prospect, even the May garden being
afflicted with chill sterility and a cloud choosing that moment to cross
the sun, cannot be imagined. There was the garden, of course. Every one
at the same moment looked at it. Owing to the cloud, the leaves ruffled
grey, and the sparrows—there were two sparrows.
“I think,” said Mrs. Plumer, taking advantage of the momentary respite,
while the young men stared at the garden, to look at her husband, and
he, not accepting full responsibility for the act, nevertheless touched
the bell.
There can be no excuse for this outrage upon one hour of human life,
save the reflection which occurred to Mr. Plumer as he carved the
mutton, that if no don ever gave a luncheon party, if Sunday after
Sunday passed, if men went down, became lawyers, doctors, members of
Parliament, business men—if no don ever gave a luncheon party—
“Now, does lamb make the mint sauce, or mint sauce make the lamb?” he
asked the young man next him, to break a silence which had already
lasted five minutes and a half.
“I don’t know, sir,” said the young man, blushing very vividly.
At this moment in came Mr. Flanders. He had mistaken the time.
Now, though they had finished their meat, Mrs. Plumer took a second
helping of cabbage. Jacob determined, of course, that he would eat his
meat in the time it took her to finish her cabbage, looking once or
twice to measure his speed—only he was infernally hungry. Seeing this,
Mrs. Plumer said that she was sure Mr. Flanders would not mind—and the
tart was brought in. Nodding in a peculiar way, she directed the maid to
give Mr. Flanders a second helping of mutton. She glanced at the mutton.
Not much of the leg would be left for luncheon.
It was none of her fault—since how could she control her father
begetting her forty years ago in the suburbs of Manchester? and once
begotten, how could she do other than grow up cheese-paring, ambitious,
with an instinctively accurate notion of the rungs of the ladder and an
ant-like assiduity in pushing George Plumer ahead of her to the top of
the ladder? What was at the top of the ladder? A sense that all the
rungs were beneath one apparently; since by the time that George Plumer
became Professor of Physics, or whatever it might be, Mrs. Plumer could
only be in a condition to cling tight to her eminence, peer down at the
ground, and goad her two plain daughters to climb the rungs of the
ladder.
“I was down at the races yesterday,” she said, “with my two little
girls.”
It was none of THEIR fault either. In they came to the drawing-room, in
white frocks and blue sashes. They handed the cigarettes. Rhoda had
inherited her father’s cold grey eyes. Cold grey eyes George Plumer had,
but in them was an abstract light. He could talk about Persia and the
Trade winds, the Reform Bill and the cycle of the harvests. Books were
on his shelves by Wells and Shaw; on the table serious sixpenny
weeklies written by pale men in muddy boots—the weekly creak and
screech of brains rinsed in cold water and wrung dry—melancholy papers.
“I don’t feel that I know the truth about anything till I’ve read them
both!” said Mrs. Plumer brightly, tapping the table of contents with her
bare red hand, upon which the ring looked so incongruous.
“Oh God, oh God, oh God!” exclaimed Jacob, as the four undergraduates
left the house. “Oh, my God!”
“Bloody beastly!” he said, scanning the street for lilac or bicycle—
anything to restore his sense of freedom.
“Bloody beastly,” he said to Timmy Durrant, summing up his discomfort at
the world shown him at lunch-time, a world capable of existing—there
was no doubt about that—but so unnecessary, such a thing to believe in—
Shaw and Wells and the serious sixpenny weeklies! What were they after,
scrubbing and demolishing, these elderly people? Had they
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