The Replacement (#royals Book 1) by Shikha A (early readers txt) 📖

My mind was warning me to believe this and my poor heart is still not ready to accept this. What if Didi is trying to create a misunderstanding between us? What if Shivaay is not in his chamber? I should not believe anything till I see everything with my own eyes.

I again looked up and a little bit of hope I had that also shattered into pieces looking at Shivay in front of me. He looked at me and I could see a worried expression on his face.

I kept on looking at him and he kept on looking at me. Today he not only broke my trust he broke me. He broke me inside out. He not only broke my heart he broke my soul. 

But again my heart is not ready to accept. I walked to him and stood inches away from and looked directly into his eyes. I want to see how can he look into my eyes after doing such a heinous thing?

I could see guilt in his eyes, He looked everywhere than me. This pierced my heart. Tears started dropping like rain from my eyes and holding his jacket I lay down my head on his chest. 

I want to cry of my destiny today. I know he's the one who is responsible for my pain but he is the one where I get my peace. 

He is my home.

But again today he has shattered me to no repair. Today finally my house is broken. My life is broken, my trust is broken. 

I am broken. 

I detached myself from him and looked at him with my teary eyes, accusing him of his crime. I want to fight I want to punch him. But again I know I won't get anything now. It's too late for everything. I turned around and padded down and sat in my car which Anand Bhai was driving.

"Where to Rani Sa?” He asked.

I don't know where I want to go, but right now I just want to go away from this place. Then I remember what I got ready for today.

“Hospital” Saying I close my eyes. 

Can closed eyes stop your tears? No, they were flowing freely today. 
Today he made me think, Is our relationship so weak that it could not take a small wind of misunderstanding? And rather trusting me he is hurting me?

Why did Shivay do this to me? 
Why can't he trust me?
Why can't he try to find out the truth rather believing this?

My breathing was getting uneven and I was sweating profusely.

“Rani Sa we have reached” I heard Anand Bhai.

I got out without saying anything and went inside. Today dizziness is at its peak. But that is my last concern right now. My mind is foggy with thoughts running inside.

I was lying on the checkup bed and the doctor was checking up on me while asking me necessary questions. And I was replying absentmindedly.

After replying to all her questions she gave me a white stick and asked me to do the needful.

First I got confused looking at it, then I understood and went inside the washroom. 

I have no strength to see the result. I am happy at the same time I am sad and at the same time, I am angry. I just can't understand my emotions right now. Moreover, I don't want to overthink till I get the result.

So I did the needful and went out holding the stick in my hand. 

My hand was shivering and I was sweating and tears were welling up in my eyes.
I again felt dizzy and held the washroom door, Looking at my state, the doctor and nurse rushed to me before I lost my balance. 
Mrs. Raghuvanshi are you alright?” Doctor asked in concern, holding me from my arm.

I nodded and she made me sit on the chair.

I gave her the stick and she looked at me with a blank expression. I was looking at her in desperation for her answer and she gave me it.

"CONGRATULATION YOU ARE PREGNANT” 

Hearing this I felt like someone had sucked the air from my body. I felt like I couldn't breathe. My emotions are overwhelming.

I held the doctor's wrist and I...I Ca..n.t bre…ath..e. I spoke in extreme difficulty. My eyes were getting heavy.. the doctor and nurse panicked looking at my state.

She tapped my cheek calling my name again and again and gave me some water. 
After water I felt a little better then she gave me glucose water to drink which I drank again without any complaint and then I felt a little better.

Are you alright Mrs. Raghuvanshi?” Again I hear the worried voice of the doctor.

I look ahead and give her a small assuring smile.
“Please call me Shipra,” I said to the elderly doctor.

"Ok Shipra, Are you not happy hearing this?” She asked me.

“What? No, I am very happy. I just don't know how to react. I never thought I could be pregnant.” I told her my reason. 

I and Shivay never used the protection but at the same time, we never spoke about the baby. Moreover, pregnancy never came into my mind ever, however my happiness could not form in the words. A baby in my arms gives me goosebumps and I am smiling ear to ear thinking about my bundle of joy. 

Somehow she was not convinced by my answer but avoided further questions and spoke “Shipra your blood pressure is very low and you are underweight as well and stress is something you need to avoid as much as possible. It’s not good for you nor the baby. If you want a healthy pregnancy you need to stay away from stress.” She gave me advice. I know you can't hide things from doctors. If you want then also your body will tell the truth. 

I understand doctors don’t worry I will do anything to keep my baby healthy and happy” I give her my best smile. I am just happy to know this news, butterflies are dancing in my tummy due to happiness.

“I am glad to know this. Now I am prescribing some medicine please take regularly, it's very important for the baby and some vitamins for you.” Saying she wrote a prescription and I nod in agreement.

I bid my goodbye and left the hospital. I have never been this happy. 
I will be Mom. 

Someone is going to call me Maa. I was smiling ear to ear unknowingly touching my tummy.