Toxic love by Shikha Mishra (top fiction books of all time .txt) 📖

Disha's POV
 

Vihaan didn't called me whole night. Not even to say goodnight. I am applying concealer which I had taken from mom's makeup box to hide the swelling of my eyes. They are swollen from all the crying.

Now I am having breakfast. Today mom and dad are also here. Dad is talking with vihaan and brother and mom is also giving her views from time to time. I am not feeling good today. Vihaan didn't even greeted me today. It's like he's ignoring me. Brother is giving me his questioning gaze from time to time. I know he wants to ask me why I am feeling like this but I ignore him.

After our breakfast we went in the car. Mia still haven't told me who would be acting as my fake boyfriend. She just said that I have to just give my presence in the school today. Vihaan is staring at me from time to time and when I meet his eyes he diverts it.

"Priya is coming with us today" vihaan announces in the moving car. As soon as I heard that a tear falls from my left eye. I immediately clean the trace of that tear and bite my lip hard to stop them from protesting. I keep my gaze downwards not allowing myself to see his or brother face because if I see any of them I would start crying again.

After few minutes Priya joins us. "Hey baby. Thankyou for picking me up" she says. I don't see if she kisses him or not. Brother nudges me but I don't lift my gaze. I put my headphones in my ear to mute them all. If I hear them talking I would feel more vulnerable.

I think vihaan really loves her. I will tell Mia that I am not going to be in a fake relationship just to know his feelings. This fake relationship of mine will only get in between them both. And I don't want vihaan to be a heart broken.

We reach school I remove my headphones and sprint out of the car without bidding them my goodbye. I don't want to see them both be lovey-dovey in front me. But most of all I don't want to get ignore by vihaan. As I ran I heard brother calling me but I ignored him.

I went straight away in the girls washroom in one of the cubicle and locked myself in. If I had known this would happen I would have never allowed vihaan back then to keep a close friend. But then it would be greedy of me to do that. It's not like vihaan will feel the same as I feel for him if he didn't had priya.

I cry for how many hours I don't know. I come out of the cubicle and see my face in the mirror. It's all swollen. I wash my face with water. If someone saw me they would definitely know that I had cried for hours. Luckily I had a concealer which I had put in my bag. I use it. Now my eyes are looking normal. If someone will see closely then only they would know that I had cried otherwise no one would know.

I have missed two periods so I go for my third period. It's with Mia. As I enter I see her seating at her usual seat. I seat beside her.

"Hey I thought you are not coming today" she ask as soon as she sees me.

"I just got-".

"Disha were you crying" I was cutoff mid sentence by her. And as I heard her say that tears started spilling from my eyes on their own accord.

"Hey hey what happened?". She takes me out of the class to the girls washroom. I think today I will miss my classes.

"Now spill" she demands. And I tell her everything from vihaan ignoring me to him being lovey-dovey with her in the car.

"I think we should go according to our plan. Although I had postponeded my plan to tomorrow as I thought you are not coming today" she says while giving me water. I drink water.

"No. I am not going to be in a fake relationship just to know his feelings" I tell her.

"Why? I know he has feelings for you" she replies. Her words do give me some joy and lifts up my mood a little bit.

"No. I saw him with Priya and he was looking like he was in a love and I do not want to be a hinder in his happiness" I reply.

"But. Ok as you say" she replies. As the third period has already started we just spent it in the washroom. She makes jokes which lifts up my mood instantly. And I forget everything about the vihaan. Almost.

We hear some shuffling outside the washroom so we peek through the door and what I saw made my world upside down. Vihaan was there kissing Priya on her lips. They both had their eyes close. The site was making me nauseous. But I couldn't remove my eyes from them. They were stuck on them. I had always imagined myself on priya's place kissing him. Mia closed the door and we were surrounded by the four walls of girls washroom. Tears started spilling out of my eyes. My heart was paining. I really really loved him. How can a god be this unfair. Why can't vihaan love me like I do. Why can't he reciprocate these feelings of mine.

Mia was patting my head and was saying sweet things that it will get over. I don't know how but we were in Mia's house. How I got here I don't know. No one was at Mia's house. She took me to her room and left saying something which I didn't heard. I was heartbroken without being in a relationship.

I was just watching the wall which has her favourite bands pics. I don't know if tears are still spilling or not. I am feeling numb. Mia comes as I hear door closing. She puts lots of chocolates, chips and many more snacks in my lap.

"Do you want me to inform vih-hritik about you being with me". I took notice that she was going to call vihaan. But even though if she calls him he has more important things to do then care about me, like taking care of his girlfriend. I just nod. But I don't even remember where is my bag and mobile but I think Mia had it as I see her with my mobile. She messages someone. Must be brother.

I put all the snacks on the bed and I lay myself on Mia's bed. Memories of 4 years back when I had sleepover with Mia without the permission of vihaan slaps me. That memory make more tears spilling out of my eyes. I reminise the memories of me and vihaan as I lay on the bed. These memories are so pleasant.