I Think I Love You... by Danielle (best novels to read txt) 📖

that when you go off to college.” My dad said in slight giggle towards his last sentence.

“It’s cool. It just freaked me out that you guys still do that stuff. But lets forget about that and eat this food!” I said hesitantly.

* * * *


As we all raced to get the last bacon on the plate my dad mentioned college to me. I got the bacon though. Suckers!

“So when are you going to California to move your things into your dorm?” My dad asked concerned.

“Well, school doesn’t start in another month and a half, but I wanted to go in two weeks to get organized and meet new people so I can be prepared and feel like I fit in.” I said sad he even asked thinking about Nathan.

“Oh okay. Just let me know so I’ll be of assistance.”

* * * *

CHAPTER 6

I called Nathan to see if he wanted to come over and hang out since my parents went out to some Opera show. He said no he couldn’t him and Brenton are going to his house and play video games and stuff. WHAT!? I couldn’t believe he told me he was hanging out with Brenton when we only had two more weeks left to hang out.

For about a week now I feel like my supposedly best friend in the whole wide world has ignored me. I text him so we can hang out, he says he is busy, or hanging out with Brenton. When I call he either doesn’t pick up or answers and quickly rushes me off the phone. I collapse sometimes feeling that I would never get to admit my feelings for him.

All of a sudden I felt like I had to call him. That he was going to answer his and he would be able to hang out with me today. No Brenton. No ‘I’m busy’ crap. So with my head held high I called his number and the phone ringed…

“Hello?” he said

“Hey Nathan, remember me? Victoria. The girl you have been ditching a lot.” I said extremely upset.

“Oh sorry about that just had a lot to do. You know for college.” He said guilty
“Yeah, you forgot hanging out with Brenton so much you forgot about me!” I said feeling heated up from head to toe about to burst out in flames.

“Okay chill out would you. I’ll come over right now. Is your parents home?”

“No they’re both at work.” I said calming down from the wrath that was unleashing.

“Ok I’ll be over there in a few.” He said hanging up without allowing me to say goodbye.

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The doorbell rang and I quickly ran into the bathroom to make sure I was flirty, and sexy enough for Nathan. I had on a low cut white shirt to show some cleavage and my mid-thigh denim shorts. I fixed my boobs and glossed my lips and walked towards the door.

When I opened the door I saw Nathan looking as hot as he did the night we all went to the movies, maybe even hotter. He looked at me up and down, kind of examining me and then just looked right back at my face.

“Hey, come in.” I said softly

“I’m sorry I’ve been ignoring you. I really am. What do you want to do?”

“Well I was thinking a movie. Want to watch all the Karate Kid movies?” I said joyfully

We love Karate Kid. It was our best friend movie anthem. We knew like every word in every scene.

He giggled. “Yeah.”

We headed to the couch and he offered to put the movie in. What a gentlemen, no wonder I like him so much.

The movie was so long and all I thought about was when was I going to make my move. He was so interested in the movie like it was his first time watching it. He never looked at me, and I never looked at him. I never made a move, he never made a move. But, I had to. So I turned to him waiting for him to notice me at the corner of his eyes. When he turned I smiled and looked into his hazel eyes. Then he stared into my greyish eyes and smiled. Then when he smiled I knew that was my cue to make my move. I wrapped my arms around his neck to draw him closer to me and quickly kissed him softly, then it became a little harder grasping into a French kiss. Then he did the worst thing I could have imagined… he pulled away.


“WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!” he yells madly at me.

I was so confused. He was kissing me back.

“I was kissing you Nathan.” I said so scared of what was going on.

“I know you were damn kissing me, but why?”

“Well I like you a lot, and we knew each other for awhile. When you turned back and looked at me I just had to kiss you, it was like your lips were a magnet, and mine were metal. I’m sorry.” I said with my head hang low.

“Don’t do that crap again. I didn’t feel any tingle, or physical bond when you kissed me just to let you know.” He said heartless.

I was shocked he felt nothing when I felt so much I wanted to take it all the way.

“Not even a little?” I asked calmly.

He paused. “No. Not even a little.”

We both paused for a couple of seconds.

“Victoria, I’m gay.” He says blurting all the words out.

I paused and just stared at him.

“What!? How!?” Crap. Damn. Shit. Was all I could think. Swearing in my mind was not helping, but what was I supposed to do.

“I never had a girlfriend in high school because I didn’t feel attracted to them much, and I never had kissed one in a while. So I decided to switch my interest to males. And… Brenton’s my boyfriend. “

So that is why he was hanging out so much with Brenton. Wow…

“I’m so-“ But he was gone already leaving me puzzled, embarrassed, and heart broken.

I ran upstairs to my room and cried myself to sleep and eventually woke up crying out of bed. This went on for days…


CHAPTER 7

I love him.

I really and truly loved him. He was my best friend, gay, but I love him.

My mom always came to room occasionally to cheer me up, and tell me everything will be fine when I go off to college and make new friends. But, I didn’t want friends. I wanted Nathan.

He called so often, I never answered.
He texted all the time so we can meet up and talk, I never replied.

I felt like I was jabbed that day with a knife and I’m going through my healing process now. I was so determined to admit my feelings to him that when I did it ruined everything. I was over trying to tell him sorry or talk to him because I didn’t want to show him how hurt I was. Love sucks.

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I heard the doorbell and didn’t want to come out of bed still in my crying depression mood, so I waited for my mom or dad to get it. My mom came upstairs and said it was Nathan and thinks it is time for me to talk to him now. She told me her and dad were going to go for groceries and leave me here to talk to Nathan. Nooooooo I wanted to yell, but I knew she was right.

In came Nathan, walking slowly into my room closing the door behind him. When he saw me crying he ran next to me and sat on the bed.

“Please don’t cry. Don’t cry because of me. I am a dumb ass.” He said pleadingly.

“No you’re not. You are just an ass, but not a dumb one.” I said smirking.

“Are you really gay?” I said.

“Do you really like me?” he said in return.

At the same time we said no.

“I’m not gay anymore. That kiss changed everything. When I said I didn’t feel any tingle or spark I lied because I was scared to maybe try and be straight again and turn our relationship to something else. That kiss made me automatically love you.” He said so lightly.

“You love me? I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I love you too.” I said smiling so cheesy but sweetly at the same time.

“I broke up with Brenton, he was an asshole anyway.” He said then grabbed me and kissed me softly until I kissed back and it grew stronger. The French kiss we almost started that day, restarted right then. I grabbed him onto me and he asked if I was sure I wanted to do this.

“We’re going to college. We’re adults now, right?”
“Right.” He said in agreement.

It was the first time I was having sex and I felt absolutely happy that it was with someone I loved and cared about so deeply.

He kissed my face and neck traveling down my body taking off all clothing in his path. I followed taking off his shirt, then his pants and then underwear. Soon we were connected as one. Feeling the sensation that love creates. Breathing every minute we had a chance. When he stopped I wanted to go, and when I stopped he wanted to go. It felt so right, that we kissed forever. When he kissed my neck I closed my eyes and felt like he had just cast a spell on me to fall into a deep sleep. When we kissed our lips paired so perfectly. I parted mine and we connected our lip’s movements as the guide. I moaned, he groaned. His hands all over my body, mine all over his. It was perfect. We didn’t know what was next, as long as we both loved each other…nothing matters.

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Publication Date: 09-04-2011

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Dedication:
Sometimes you just have to smile, Pretend everything’s okay, Hold back the tears, And just walk away. - For…