Faint Hope by jennifer cardenas (books under 200 pages .txt) 📖

without saying bye.
She looked mad I guess it was that time again.Whenever we did talk she always argued about something meaningless she just wants to get mad."Where were you its 6:00 you should be home right after school" she yelled."Why to see you kill your self with work?" I muttered while going around her to the kitchen.As I walked around her she grabbed me by the shirt and turned me around to face her.
"What did you say to me young man"she said her eyes crazy."Dont't touch me" I got out oh her grip and went to the kitchen."You live in my house so stop being an ass and listen to me"she yelled at me.
"Soon you'll get rid of me and then you can die alone in peace" I yelled in her face.That seemed to piss her off even more that she stalked to her room.When I heard her slam the door I went to my room.As I look around there were basically just four walls and a pile of clothes near my closet.I felt numb this was a routin school,the fighting,everything I though.I didnt feel like cleaning or cooking or working I was tired of it.So I just sat against the wall and turned off the lightsI still felt numb so all I did was stare at the wall.Along the way sleep finally came.
Today is saturday its going to be a long day.I got up early to avoid my mom which was easy since she was still in a bathrobe smoking and on the phone.I have to work full time today at least I have Torrie to talk to she was working today too.As I turned the corner i spot my boss unlocking the door "Good morning" I grumbled I knew what was to come it was the same everyday."Ahhh Tommy my best employee" he said cheerfully how annoying I though.
"Its either Torrie or me of course you pick me" I fake laughed with him.All of a sudden i felt a pain in my stomach and i double over."What the hell Tommy im right here!!!" she said pissed off."Nice seeing you today torrie" I said out of breath sarcastically.Yeah dont mess with torrie unless you want your ass kicked I though to myself."No fighting kids!" my boss said laughing then he unlocked the door and we followed him in.
Through out the day was pretty much the same like always boring dealing with whiney customers.I was getting sick of my boss and his lame jokes that me and Torrie were always secretly tortured with.But hanging out with Torrie is fun sometimes we even prank the boss and even the customers.Its hard to believe that someone like Torrie was hurting inside when shes so full of life.Even if I do have my own problems im not totally heartless.I hated seeing that I couldn't help torrie she seemed so happy you can never tell when she's gunna blow.
As I walk home in the rain with Torrie at my side I couldn't help notice she was quiet.Oh no Torrie isnt quiet unless somethings really wrong I though!"Umm Torrie is...is everything alright?"I said concerned.Torrie stopped walking suddenly I tryed to look at her face but it was raining too hard to see.Then she hugged me with so much force I almost fell back."Tommy....you've always been there for me and Karina and i just wanted to thank you" she said.
Then she kissed my cheek I blushed I hadnt ever though of torrie that way but I obviously care about her."Tommy I know I push you around,mess with you,and sometimes treat you like crap but...I love you"she said full of emotion.I didnt know what to say I didnt even know how I even felt.
"Uhhh ummm" I didnt know what to say I was dumbfounded."I have to go ill see you tomorrow" torrie said looking down shyly kissing me on the cheek again."Uhhh okay bye" I said stupidly facing the other way.As I saw her sprint away at full speed I tried to think about what the hell had just happened.
When i got home I went straight to my room glad my mom wasnt home yet complaining about work.The rest of the day I was trying to figure out what I was gunna do.I obviously liked the girl but I didnt know if i liked her the same way she liked me.
As usual I woke up screaming when I got control over myself saying it was only a dream I though how the hell I got into this mess with torrie...
When i finally got out of bed I saw it was late.My mom was pounding away on the door for me to get out of bed so I got dressed and sneeked out the window.Haha that gave me a good laugh i was somewhere near the top floor so that left going down three flights of stairs too easy i though to myself.As I made the landing when I got near the ground I ran towards school knowing what was coming teachers on my ass about skipping out.I had already missed the bus now I have to run 7 blocks to get to school oh joy! -.-
When i got there I had already missed 1st period as I passed Ms. Garcia she gave me a nasty look.
"Hey dude where have you been?" it was Zakk coming out of his class followed by a skank who must be his current girlfriend. "I woke up late sorry" I mumbled going around him to my locker."Ohh.. well whats up?" he said following me around like a mutt."Nothing just fucking up daily, the usual" I said smiling sadly."Dude things will get better just think positive." he said encouraging it annoyed me when he talked like that."Yeah, yeah.." I said walking away onto my other class...
Finally it was homeroom the time i usually sleep in the back of the class, the pills finally kicking in.When i heard the BAM as they pulled the trigger I woke up.Sweat on my forehead, heart still beating fast I looked around the room.
Nothing seemed different people talking,playing around reading.I get up from my seat and excuse myself to the bathroom not even going to bother the teacher as she napped.I go into a bathroom stall wiping the tears and the sweat away.I take some more pills wishing i was anywhere but here and home.
I hear the bathroom door open not wanting anyone to know im here i put my feet on toilet cover.As i hear the guy talking a piss i think to myself, fuck i must look crazy whats happening to me...
Finally they leave i get out and look at myself in the mirror my eyes shot, dark circles under my eyes, my hair long and messy.I fix my hair I wonder what the hell Torrie see in me.While I was walking back to class I run into Torrie. "Hey!" she said then she grabbed my hand and started walking with me."You know its against the rules to be wandering around the halls" she said smiling.
I blushed "umm yeah i was just heading back to class" i said trying to get away.I still hadnt made my mind up about how i felt about Torrie. The last thing i need was to see her right now. "Uhh bye torrie i have to go" I said walking away in the other direction.
And my being a dumbass looked back and saw she was crying, i hated myself so much...

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Publication Date: 04-18-2010

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Dedication:
to my best friend(now boyfriend) tommy this is to you. you told me a lot of secrets,and sad things that have happened to you if it werent for you i would have never wrote this book feel better tommy:)