Return to First Love by Leandra A. (books for men to read .txt) 📖

of events that all I can do is cry.

 

(Chuckles) Why are you crying? You.... brawling and crying all of the sudden are you trying to make me looked like a rapist?

 

You! Who would not cry by this kind of thing... you suddenly..ki..Kissed me and even try to remove my clo...clothes this is what you called rape... stupid! And it’s not like you are in love with me so why are you doing this? Are you frustrated or just insane?! It's even my first kiss, even if it's you I just can't agree with this...

 

After shouting at him I started crying again. Like a lost child, all I can do is cry.

 

Zack just stared at me then gently pat my head while wiping my tears...

 

Stop crying...even I will start to panic if I see you cry! 

 

(Gently smiled) Maybe I am really insane I can't help it I want to touch you so much right now that I can't stop Anne. Reject me seriously if you hate this…

 

 

 At that point he kissed me again. My heart can't just find a way to reject him, I am helplessly so into him. I am afraid of myself because I know that after this I will be completely be hopeless without him. His kiss this time was gentler than I expected but I can't still find the timing to catch my breath.

 

On each place where he touches me I can feel this heat and sensation that I don't think I'll ever forget; I tried to hold my voice back but he would tease me by saying that he wants to hear my sweet voice drunk with pleasure. My mind went completely blank; all I can remember was his gentle voice calling my pseudonym "Anne", repeatedly...

 

Her Memories...

(Sound of the alarm clock)

 

Hmmm... (Hands trying to wipe her eyes)

 

What are these... tears? Why did I dream of that time...why after all this time! (Started crying)

 

It's been ten years and I still keep on asking myself, why do I still remember the things of my past that should have been long forgotten?! I don't want to believe that I'm still not over him after all these years. But it seems that somebody is playing with my life. Here I am trying to get over my past, while him on the other hand... Not only did he out of the blue returned to ruin things I've struggled to achieved, telling me that he can't remember me! I know that I should stop being affected and concern with him.

 

So like a broken recording I have to keep on reminding myself that the past me has long gone...

 

Maybe it's a good thing that he can't remember me, I can go to work like nothing happens. But did I really change that much from the previous me? Although It doesn't matter anymore, still it pissed me off that he forgotten me that easy!

 

The next day I asked one of my colleagues to boycott the upcoming meeting and leave him several reports and assignments undone.

 

(Sound of the door closing) Mr. Zack did you stay all night just to finish all of this? I hope that the work is not too hard for you (smiled sarcastically)

 

No... Not at all the previous data that I was able to check from the company record files helped me finish the work easily done what I thought.

 

But I thank you for the concern Ms. Kim, although next time I would appreciate if I will be notified immediately of such things like cancelled meeting...( smiled back sarcastically)

 

I can't believe it! Every work that is being assigned to him he does it perfectly as if he has been working with the company for more than ten years, longer than me. And what is more frustrating is he has this eyes that laugh at me every time I tried to act cold with him, as if he can see through my actions and words. Me, on the other hand did everything to discover his weakness, only to find out being disappointed by myself for thinking how cool he was.

 

There will be times that I would stare blankly at his serious face while working, mesmerized on how handsome he became more these past ten years. I really hate myself being weak against that face of his since the first time I saw him. One can say that ghost will linger if there's still regret. Every time I see him I would return to my past, an old self that should have been long gone before.

 

Alright guys we will have a welcome party for Mr. Zack here everyone should attend, especially you...Ms. Kim! Don’t run away this time.

 

Please... I am not in the mood to go partying with him!

 

That's what my heart screams if only I can say that to his face! The party went on until midnight, everyone was so excited to know if Zack is still single or what are his types of girl. As usual he was able to avoid those questions in a smooth way. The whole time he keeps on looking back at me making me uncomfortable, I don't know what he means by this.

 

I should have run away while I can still, now what am I supposed to do with this drunk... (Sigh)

 

On his drunken state, this man suddenly holds my hand tight and declared to all that he will drive me back home. But by the time that everyone was gone he just suddenly dropped dead on me.

 

What was he thinking? (Staring at his face) He did not change at all...but I am surprised that he no longer throws tantrums about his mother unlike before... I guess he was able to get over with his past... unlike me

 

 Ten years ago, the past that I kept on trying to forget happened the day after we spent our first night together. I can still vividly remembers how painful it was for me when I heard those words that came directly from the first man I fell in love. It was too painful that these past years, I was able to forget his face and voice but not those words that keep on repeating even in my dreams.

 

The day after that fateful night I was so ashamed to see him after what happened so I did not go to the library that morning like what we have agreed on. Instead, I hurriedly went to the classroom making sure he is not around. After the lesson I went to the student’s office where all the representatives are going to have a meeting regarding the upcoming seniors ball night. To my surprise Zack was already inside talking to our president, Angelo Sy, who was also at that time one of the most popular guy in our school. I was about to turn around and go back when I suddenly heard my name;

 

Anne Li Kim! That her name right, the girl who was with you every time?

 

Yes... that is right why are you asking?

 

So what are you seriously thinking of going out with her? How do you feel about her? I am just curious since this is the first I've seen you together with a girl for such a long time (teasing him)

 

At that time I know that I shouldn't eavesdrop, but I want to hear what he really feels about me so even If I am so scared of what would be his answer, I decided to stay and listen.

 

Sigh...It wasn’t like what I thought...

 

My body went completely numb. I understand from the start that I am nothing for him but to hear it directly from him I didn't expect it will hurt this much. I can feel that something inside of me fall apart...All I can remember at that time was me running like a madman while those words keep repeating on my head, I don't know how did I go back in that state, one thing is for sure something inside me has died after hearing his words.

 

I was so traumatized at that time that my parents decided to have me study abroad because they taught that I was being bullied. Without telling anyone I withdraw from the school and leave the country to study and live abroad. There I spend my days crying until one day I was able to get my grip and decided to change myself for better. I asked my parents to let me attend different personality development seminars and fashion schools to help me became a new person. The past me who would not even care to look at the mirror tend myself like an artist that needs everyday skincare and grooming. I struggled my way to change myself but to my wits end, why do I feel that I’m being drawn to him again after all these years!?

His Memories...

Sigh... Not again... What does she wants?

 

I can always see her staring at me. Although I am used on being followed around, such thing will still make someone uncomfortable. There are even times that I caught her hiding as I walked through the hallway and if I tried to look back she would either run or hide behind. 

 

Sometimes I would borrow the books that I already read and then would noticed that on the log book someone has been borrowing and reading it the next day I returned it. I have a hunch that it was her who borrowed those books which made me more curious about her and find it interesting.

 It didn't take that long for me to know the reason why she always stares and follow me;

 

How can I reach that book? It's too high… maybe I should try to jump

 

Should I help?

 

(His hands reach out the book)

 

Let's see... (Looked at the title of the book) Interpreting the Art of Da Vinci, is this the one you are looking for?

 

Miss?

 

I...I Like you...please... go out with me!

 

The very first time I tried to speak with her, at my surprise she confessed and asked me to go out with her.

 

Pffft... hahaha ...I can’t believe this, a confession coming from the first meet? But since this looks interesting, sure I’ll go out with you. So what is your name?

 

Li... I am Anne Li Kim!

 

So it’s Anne, Please take care of me...Anne (smiled back)

 

At first I find it interesting and a way to ease my boredom so I agreed and go out with her. I would ask her to buy things and treated her like my own personal maid. Each time I find it enjoyable to see