When The Light Falls - Book 3 by N. Y. (big screen ebook reader TXT) 📖

seen him so interested like this to make our way up to a stop. 

 

 

I quietly sigh in preperation for his words.

 

He leans in to lift up my chin to face him, his eyes staring back into mine.

 

Just waiting to hear those words had me over the edge, excited.

 

 

Was he gonna say, that should we do it now?

 

Should we get crazy tonight? Get wasted and make it official?

 

If we do, I want him to take my last name and say it to me. The thought of it makes me squirm to hear it.

 

 

The moment is intense as our bodies collide. His lips press against mine suddenly.

 

I did not expect this.

 

 

But I ignore my thoughts and focus on him, his lips move in sync with mine. We've never kissed like this before.

 

Just the thought and feeling rushing back into me, made me feel butterflies.

 

His left hand caressed my cheek. He slightly pushes me against the elevator walls. His body closing the gap between us.

 

 

I felt our steamy breaths as we deepend the kiss. His arms finally snaking to my waist in attempt to pull me closer.

 

I rest my arms on his shoulder, leaning in to soften the kiss before i'm pushed back to the wall.

 

 

I've never felt this kind of way.

 

Even with Jacob. But he was good at it. 

 

 

But my thoughts are going back to what I said earlier, how I wanted us to take it to the next level.

 

Did he understand what I meant?

 

Or did he drag me in here to make out, then talk about it in our hotel room?

 

 

In fact, did he even think to question my concern?

 

 

His left hand leaves my waist moving down, leaving trails over my body. He reached far from my comfort zone, this was getting instense.

 

 

His left hand reaches my thigh lifting it up to his waist, i'm scared at first. We've never attempted to try something new, or even made out this way.

 

My dress fades back, inching from it's resting stop on my right thigh. We were still kissing, but my mind focuses on his movements.

 

 

Jacob's fingers linger at the hem of my dress, my right leg still hung to his waist.

 

Weird to say, that I liked it.

 

 

With a quick move both my legs hug his waist as I pushed back slowly against the wall again.

 

I'm embarassed, but I push down the feeling and I focus back on Jacob. 

 

 

His smiles grew big as he notices I pulled back. His lips reconnect with mine.

 

And i'm taken aback at making out again. His hands caressing each thigh as i'm drawn closer to him.

 

The heat between us made it more romantic.

 

 

Here we are, stuck in an elevator, making out. Unexpected.

 

 

Jacob's hands linger to my waist slowly raising me up above him a little, my neck cranes down to kiss him. 

 

But i'm in sudden shock when his hands reach for my right thigh again pulling up the hem of my dress.

 

Did he know that I didn't like that?

 

 

He was getting too close, this wasn't even where I was expecting him to take me.

 

I pull away harshly at the passionate kiss, even though I didn't want to. 

 

 

''Jacob.'' I said, taking a breath of relief.

 

''What?'' he says seductively into my ear.

 

 

I nearly pull back into the trance at his response, but I didn't want to. He had somehow turned me on.

 

And i'm drawn to him again, his lips planting trails on my neck.

 

 

I couldn't help but stay there hoping he puts me down and stops this toture.

 

It was getting out of hand. He probably didn't know his voice had an effect on me.

 

 

I push him back again, his face filled with concern. And so is mine.

 

I wanted to say nevermind and make him kiss me again, but I shake my head.

 

 

''I thought I said, we should take it up another level?'' I finally said.

 

''We are, aren't we?'' he says again quickly kissing my neck again.

 

 

I hum slightly, his lips touching mine again. I had to stop it.

 

But I can't if he's touching a part of my body every second.

 

 

''I thought we were going to talk, you know....upstairs about taking it up a level.'' I said pushing him far away from me.

 

I could tell he was upset, I didn't let him finish. But we need to talk.

 

I didn't know if taking our relationship up a notch was his way of saying sex.

 

 

And we had addressed it back in Paris, the first time.

 

He promised.

 

 

His chest grew tense as I tried not to imagine myself taking off his shirt to reveal his skin and body.

 

I desperately wanted to see again.

 

 

Jacob doesn't respond quickly, so he let's me down from our clinged bodies.

 

My two legs touch the ground. Our closed gap now disappearing, I adjust my dress in a embarassed fit.

 

 

''If you wanna talk that's good. I wanna interest you in something.'' he says smiling seductively at the end.

 

He leans in, making me almost draw back to his warm body caressing me again.

 

But I shake my head again.

 

 

''Interest me in what? Aren't we just planning to get it over with?'' I said in confusion.

 

''Planning? If that's what you wanna call it.'' he said, confused at first.

 

''No, I don't want to call it planning. I rather call it commitment.'' I shot back.

 

 

Jacob shakes his head, I could tell his was confused by my answer.

 

''Wait a minute,...commitment. Is this what you were talking about back in the dinner hall?'' he says backing up from me.

 

''Yes, about our plans for the future and how were gonna plan to be together.'' I said reassuring him.

 

 

Jacob sighs then looks off to the side.

 

I see we're now having problems.

 

 

''I thought you said,...take it to the next level. You meant, that we'd-'' he trails off

 

''Talk about our future and what we're gonna do about it.'' I said interuppting.

 

 

Jaocb shakes his head. ''No, I thought you meant take it up a notch,...in that way.''

 

His gesture makes my thoughts jump in my head.

 

I felt guilt come up. He thought we were taking it up a level.

 

 

But I was not even ready, we haven't even talked about it in a long time.

 

But were gonna have to talk about it sooner or later.

 

Now we have addressed the 'sexy' situation in the elevator.

 

 

How scandalous.

 

 

''Oh my god, you thought I meant-'' I said.

 

''Yeah, I thought.'' Jacob says looking away.

 

 

There was no use for him to feel embarassed. It wasmy fault for not understanding or even asking to repeat his response before.

 

 

''Please don't feel bad.'' I said hugging his shoulders.

 

It took him a while before turning back to me.

 

I was just as embarassed as he was.

 

 

To think we both wanted 2 different things and thought that we'd agree on the same thing.

 

''No, i'm sorry. I didn't think you meant anything serious, I should feel bad.'' he says facing me.

 

 

''No you shouldn't. I should feel bad for addressing the fact and not getting into details, because I thought that we'd know each other  so well, so good enough to want the same thing.'' I reassured.

 

 

Jacob's head lowered down to mine as we stood in silence. I put my hand up to caress his cheek.

 

His hand slides down grabbing on to my wrist as I rub the soft skin on his cheek.

 

 

I look up at the subtle chin hair he had. Even being apart for a year, we've grown apart differently.

 

Even in the way we look.

 

 

''Look, I'm sorry for dragging you in here thinking about something clearly not on your mind. That was serious." I said

 

Jacob turns to face me, lips reaching to kiss my forehead.

 

"But if you...'' he says, his hand holding mine.

 

 

''If you wanna talk about our future, it's fine with me. Just as long as we clear up on things.'' he says.

 

I smile as he leans in for a kiss, but he hesitates. He grins, then sighs looking down.

 

 

I smiled widely, even resisting to kiss him only made me draw my lips near to his.

 

I pull his head to me as I plant a small kiss on his lips, we both return a smile. 

 

 

He pushes the button for the elevator to go up.

 

He looks back to me, and I have a big grin.

 

 

Even for just a few seconds there's no harm for a little makeout.

 

 

I pull away from the wall I leaned on and seductively walked over to him.

 

As soon as the elevator doors ding, were awakened to people on the other side waiting to get in.

 

We quickly part from each other avoiding eye contact

 

 

Even getting caught kissing was such a big deal for people.

 

I smiled and scratched the back of my hair before quickly leading myself out of the elevator.

 

Jacob follows behind me fast, to hold my hand as we both grinned stupidly and laughed our way to the room.

 

 

We hurry inside our hotel room where we go to plop down on the bed.

 

 

 

I was expecting to talk about marriage and possibly working more hours to afford an engagement ring.

 

Or if he had other plans besides me, but my thoughts were thrown out the window as I focused on us making out in the elevator and getting more explict with the second.

 

 

I missed feeling warm since we broke our little make out session.

 

 

I could tell Jacob missed it too.

 

 

''So what should we address first?'' I asked, my heels off.

 

 

Even just standing in heels made my feet pulse in spain, i'm glad we decided to come up instead of going back down into the embarassement of our friends.

 

 

 ''Well, I think we should talk about taking the next step.'' Jacob replied.

 

 

He lays comfortably on the bed as I follow his movements.

 

We lay on our sides facing each other.

 

Only inches away.

 

 

''Taking the next step, like doing something big.'' he replies.

 

''Yes, I think we should start talking about....marriage?'' I said.

 

 

I had to admit, I sort of flinched after saying that. We haven't talked about what we plan to do for the future.

 

Especially since I didn't plan to end up in jail.

 

Now we have to catch up on each other's thoughts.

 

 

''Marriage..?'' he says in surprise.

 

 

I had a downfall of regret, wash over me. He didn't seem happy or interested about the fact.

 

But I can't say that I regret not talking about it...finally.

 

 

''It's nothing. Just....stupid-'' I said.

 

''No, I wanna talk about it. It's not stupid, it's a real commitment we need to address since we've been together.'' he said.

 

''I know, 3 years. We've been together Jacob, for 3 years. Look at Rikki. Her relationship fell apart-'' I said.

 

 

''Look, Rikki has her own problems. Although her marriage did not work out,...ours is still on the table to talk about.'' he reassures me.

 

 

My anticipation had calmed down. Jacob reaches for my hands, rubbing it again.

 

Thinking of what Marybella and Rikki said, made it impossilbe for me to give a straight answer.

 

 

''You're right, i'm sorry. I was taking it too far, I should of thought first.'' I replied.

 

''Hey, it's okay. But we are still gonna talk about it right?'' Jacob insists.

 

 

I don't reply.

 

''Marriage. How we plan to spend the rest of our lives.'' he says.

 

 

I turn my head to the ceiling. ''Right, you go first.'' I said.

 

''What?'' Jacob says.

 

''You go first, tell me what you see in our future?'' I asked getting comfortable again.

 

 

Jacob smiles down at me, then continues to think.

 

He shakes his head one more time before turning to me.

 

''Well U see us in the future, together of course. Living in a house, with a ring on your finger and that's it.'' he says.

 

 

I shot up at the reasonable answer.

 

No idea of having kids?

 

I realized I had to be the one who had to address the kids situation. After all, I was kinda jealous of Marybella.

 

 

That I was not the first one, of my friends, to have kids or the second to get engaged.

 

 

''What about, a family in the future?'' I asked.

 

''You and me are family.'' he says.

 

 

Taking my hand, then kissing it.

 

His warm lips touch my bare skin. I felt a chill run through my hand as I stare back at him.

 

 

''But what about thw idea of a family, you know....kids?'' I implied.

 

''Kids.'' Jacob says with a laugh in his voice.

 

 

''Yes, kids, of course. Is that a problem for you?'' I asked serious.

 

''No, it's just...i've never thought about having kids.'' he says.

 

''Well, if you want. We can visit Carla in Venezuela during our free time this week. It'll be good practice for when we want kids.'' I insisted.

 

 

Jacob