When The Light Falls - Book 3 by N. Y. (big screen ebook reader TXT) 📖

up to her concerned face.

 

 

Wind blows in from outside, making her hair flow in the still air. I focused my eyes back to my shoes but eventually I looked back up.

 

 

''Me and Elle got into an arguement,...I stormed out on her.'' I exclaimed.

 

''We no wonder. So you finally cracked.'' Carla said.

 

''No,...I just have last minute thoughts. She was happy about going back home and starting a great future....what was I suppose to say?'' I replied.

 

''Say you love her, and that you respect the decision you guys made. You and Elle have a pretty good relationship. Why ruin it?'' Carla replied.

 

 

''I didn't mean to, it just hit me that...we're going so fast. Our future is almost here.'' I replied.

 

''The future isn't exactly that fast. Why are you stressing out?'' Carla said.

 

''Because it's hard enough to think about the amount of regret she has floating through her head since we-'' I started.

 

 

Carla leans on the countertop for me to finish.

 

''Since you guys what?'' she asks.

 

 

I almost choked on my words. 

 

I knew Carla would get mad if I told her. She'll make me re-think everything in a new perspective.

 

 

''We made a decision together and it's kind of a big deal.'' I replied

 

''Something you know she'll regret soon enough huh?'' Carla says

 

''Yeah,...I just feel like i'm going to let her down. So that's why we got in the argument.'' I replied.

 

 

''So it's entirely your fault, you didn't want to talk about the future.'' Carla replied.

 

''I guess you can say that.'' I said.

 

 

 

Carla sighs letting herself lean up from the countertop. She leans in next to me.

 

''You know i've watched you and Elle grow close since we've all been in London. Now you're suddenly afraid to think about the future with her? She's been in jail for god's sake.'' she says.

 

''I know that.'' i replied.

 

 

''So why do you want to tear down her walls for thinking of a decent future since she's been gone. Do you really wanna wreck that dream of her's for your opinion?'' Carla stated.

 

 

I sigh, brushing my hand over head.

 

Maybe I haven't thought about that. I was too busy in my head to think about what she wants.

 

What we want.

 

 

I know she's been through enough, but I don't know if i'm ready to finally commit and regain a good relationship.

 

And watch us grow more and see our future.

 

 

''I didn't think it would come faster than expected. I don't know if i'm sure I even want to propose.'' I replied.

 

''Believe me, we all get scared when it comes to fully commiting to something. Even in a relationship. Me and Joe have had this problem before.'' Carla replies.

 

 

''Did Joe run away from the thoughts?'' I asked her.

 

''No, he stayed and made sure that what we were about to do is surely what we want. You need to discuss it more with Elle.'' Carla says.

 

 

''But what if it goes wrong? What if I don't want the same dreams as hers. That we wanted-'' I started.

 

''It's fine, you'll get through it. Now go back and apologize, your flight leaves in 2 hours. That's plenty of time for you to make things right before you go home.'' Carla insisted.

 

 

I stood up from my chair, I rush over to Carla and gave a warm hug.

 

I've never took the time to talk or even see her in so long.

 

This was bringing back so many memories of our times in London.

 

 

Back where it all started.

 

 

''Now go, you'll miss your chance if you don't leave early.'' Carla says as I pull away.

 

''Bye.'' I said.

 

 

Carla smiles as she watches me move around the house to leave.

 

 

I exit to the guest bedroom, packed everything I brought with me into my bag.

 

I knew the future will be scary, but I can't upset Elle knowing we both made a decision. And I can't make her regret it.

 

 

We've already discussed our future plans, but it seems we're going so fast. Like vacation came to an end and now reality had struck.

  

I shouldn't have run out on her. She knew I decided it with her. That what we want.

 

 

And I need to realize that.

 

I give the house one more look before Carla pops to the side watching me head to door.

 

She gives me a warm smile.

 

 

I return a smile too.

 

 

 

We hug again before I head out the door. It was quite sunny today.

 

The sun beats down on my face making me bat my lashes.

 

 

I had to confront Elle, and fast. 

 

I look onto the road and began pacing.

 

--

 

Elle's P.O.V

 

 

I threw my last bag into the bus. I sighed as I looked up into the view ahead.

 

No sign of Jacob or anything.

 

 

''Relax, he's either on his way here or back home where's he's safe.'' Rikki says.

 

She puts her arm on my shoulder.

 

 

I don't answer as I look down at what I wore today, a pink salmon satin dress. 

 

It reached just above my knees and I had a thin shawl over it.

 

 

''Oh, honey. I know it's hard to think about how he upset you. But just know we're here for you.'' Marybella says.

 

She wraps her arms around me. Hugging from behind.

 

 

I lay my head back nearing her necks. She breaths in deeply as I open my eyes and close it again.

 

''15 minutes before we depart to the airport.'' Lauren says.

 

 

We quit our embrace, as co-workers begin loading onto the bus.

 

 

''I don't know if he's gonna be here.'' I muttered.

 

 

I hear footsteps approach from my right as I turn my head to the hotel once again.

 

Goodbye beautiful Brazil, hopefully i'll see you again.

 

 

 

''Elle.'' said a voice.

 

I turn my head in alert.

 

There he was just in time. I open my mouth at his presence.

 

 

I stutter as I begin to approach him. ''Jacob-'' I started.

 

''Hold on, just let me say something.'' he interuppted me.

 

 

He grabs my hands into his. Clearly he missed me.

 

I was dying to be able to touch his skin again. I close my mouth in preparation for his answer, he goes quiet.

 

Only staring into my eyes.

 

 

''What?'' I asked quietly.

 

He's silent for second then speaks.

 

 

''I'm sorry for last night, I was having last minute thoughts and I want you to be happy.'' he says.

 

''Wa-, was that all?'' I replied confused.

 

''I'm so sorry. I didn't mean for us to fight, I...something just came over me.'' Jacob says.

 

 

He pulls my hands up to his mouth, planting a kiss on each one.

 

My expression for confusion still hasn't changed as I looked up to him.

 

 

''Jacob,...'' I started.

 

I let my hands drift from his. I wanted to explain what I had been feeling since he disappeared last night.

 

But instead of saying it right away, U crossed my arms over my chest.

 

I was completely mad now.

 

 

''You left me on the beach, you yelled at me and said things that didn't make sense. Why suddenly now do you want to apologize?'' I replied.

 

 

I knew, I knew I should have replied with kisses and asked if he was fine.

 

But I had something else to say.

 

 

''I know, I just ruined everything for us. It was the thought of not making you happy that overcame me.'' he replied.

 

  

''I know how you feel, but that doesn't make up for why you suddenly left without reasoning with me.'' I replied

 

 

I knew I should have just forgiven him and moved on to hugging and apologizing, but I needed reassurance.

 

The pieces didn't fit together on why he left.

 

 

''Alright, departure in full swing. Last minute, people get on, we leave now.'' Lauren yelled from the bus.

 

 

I looked to her, then to Jacob. I uncrossed my arms from my chest.

 

Rikki and Marybella join my side as we enter onto the bus.

 

As I went onto the bus, I could feel Jacob getting upset as I tried not to look at him again.

 

 

When I sat down on a seat, I told Rikki earlier to sit next to me on the ride to the airport and home. 

 

I didn't want to talk to Jacob.

 

And the surprise on Jacob's face rose when he entered the bus.

 

 

He was quick to find a empty seat far in the back.

 

I hadn't looked up the whole time to see him.

 

 

With my arms still crossed over my chest, Rikki leans in to look at me from her seat next to me.

 

 

''You know you can just talk about it without feeling guilty for the reason why he left you alone last night.'' she says.

 

''No thanks, we'll talk when he learns what it's like. What it felt like last night.'' I replied.

 

''That's not right, he'll only feel even more bad about the fact that he made you angry.'' Rikki replied.

 

 

My head stayed glued to the window. I looked out into it. The bus turns down the road speeding up.

 

Finally for once, drama on vacation was over.

 

 

I was finally gonna get my life back to normal. But this time it probably wasn't going to be with Jacob.

 

 

What did he mean by last minute thoughts?

 

Did he not want to have a family, or even marry me? Did he think fighting would solve the confusion?

 

 

 

I don't know what to think about Jacob right now, he left me to my own thoughts and now he needs to know how I feel.

 

Pain. And hurt.

 

-- 

 

Rikki paces behind me. She tries to slow me down but I run up ahead in full speed.

 

I wanted to avoid conversation and I didn't want to talk.

 

 

I didn't want me and Jacob to fight or have a serious conversation on the way home.

 

It'll make our thoughts about our plans, more difficult.

 

 

 

''Thank you, have a nice flight.'' says a lady.

 

She takes my ticket as I enter into the plane quickly. 

 

 

Marybella, Rikki and I head up to our assigned seats.

 

By the time I found my seat, I almost forgot that I had a seat next to Jacob.

 

 

That made me feel nervous and fatigued. Rikki wouldn't be able to sit next to me.

 

 

I had depended on Rikki this whole time since yesterday to bring me up.

 

 

''Please find your assigned seats.'' said the flight attendant.

 

I sit down in my seat, taking off my thin shawl and setting it down.

 

My hearts throbs in preparation for Jacob to sit next to me.

 

 

I hadn't thought of what might happen when my plan backfires.

 

 

When Jacob notices me in my seat, my heart rate picks up.

 

I look out into the window to my right.

 

Staring at the workers below loading things into the plane prepared for take off.

 

 

Jacob takes his seat next to me, I sit more comfortably. No eye contact.

 

My arms spread out on the arm rests. I was trying to remain calm.

 

But my breathing made it even more difficult, I was panting.

 

 

A ring goes off as the intercom turns on one last time.

 

''Now we are preparing for take off. Fasten your seatbelts. Refreshments will be served shortly.'' says the flight attendant.

 

 

I take a deep breath and tighten my seat belt. Jacob does the same.

 

I felt my neck grow in pain from turning to the window for some odd minutes. I knew I was not going to look out into the window for to long.

 

Jacob places his hands on the arm rest, his arm gently brushes against me.

 

It gave me chills making me close my eyes.

 

 

I already missed the touch and feeling of his hands on me, but I was still upset about earlier.

 

It wasn't right for him to leave me out of nowhere. But I didn't give him a chance to finish saying why.

 

 

But we'll discuss that back home.

 

I just hope by then he'll understand how I felt the whole time he disappeared last night.

 

And maybe he'll still want to think about the future.

 

 

His arm moves up to where his hand is placed on mine. I shiver a little, his hand was cold.

 

He reassures to me again with a sweet graze over my hand.

 

There was no reponse from me, only heavy breathing.

 

 

I was trying to hold on.

 

 

Jacob fullly plants his hand over mine, and a grip response from me.

 

I was calm to think he wouldn't touch me at all, but he did anyways.

 

That made me smile a little to think he still cares.

 

 

I slowly look up from the window as we take off into the sky.

 

Sunny weather drifting away as we move into the clouds.

 

 

My head turns up to look at him, my eyes cross over to get a small