Hate and Other Crappy Things by Living·my·life Forever (good book club books .TXT) 📖

I never thought you'd be comforting me. Just weird, that's all." I giggled and he stared at me with an adorable smirk. This time, I felt the need to kiss him first. I leaned towards him and he shot at my lips like a bullet! Well that caught me off guard. We didn't take our time at all. I stroked his back and chest like it was the most amazing thing I've ever felt. I pushed him down, leaving me on top. There wasn't any space between us. He rubbed his hand up my thigh, past my butt and up my shirt, stopping below my bra strap. 

Aw, hell yeah. I kissed his neck and made my way down to his chest. I lightly ran my tongue over his nipple, causing him to let out a loud moan. I giggled as he pulled my lips up to his and he kissed me slowly, marinating in the kiss. 

"Alright, that's enough. This will be the last time we do that." I got off of him and walked out the room, leaving him shocked with my mad skills.

Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!

This is bad. This is very bad. Am I that stupid? I just made out with my best friend's boyfriend. This, this is very bad. Okay. I'll tell her as soon as she gets here. Yep. Wait, that might be a bad idea. No. It's the best solution. Or, ugh! What do I do?! 

I sat on the couch in front of the door for the past hour waiting for that single knock. Luckily, Asher didn't come to say anything. I would surely slap him if he did. Even though this here is my fault. But he tempted me! So, I blame my actions on him and him only. 

A little while later, Asher came and sat down beside me. He had that little smirk on his face. Ugh! He's making it worse. Damn you! 

" So, uh-" He started.

" Don't say anything."

" What did I do?" He slightly raised his voice.

" Just don't." I muttered. 

" It was your fault this time."

" Didn't I tell you to shut up!"

" No, you said don't say anything. But what you did not realize is that shut does not go up, sugar." I sighed. You just can't get by with him.

" You're enjoying this aren't you?"

" I always do." shaking my head (SMH) as the young people say these days. Just shaking my head.

" What are we going to say?" his face became serious. He looked kind of sad too.

" I don't know. She's gonna break up with me." He frowned and put his head in his hands. 

" Well, duh. I mean, I don't mean to be rude or anything but you kinda did this to yourself."

" Stop blaming it all on me! Do you know what you just did? That definitely was not all my fault." 

" But you started it."

" Yeah, I did and at least I'm the one taking responsibility for that. You aren't."

I rolled my eyes at him, turning my head away. " Whatever." 

" Exactly. That's all you have to say." I rolled my eyes again. " I'm gonna tell her. You're being too much of a wuss to handle things on your own."

" Stop it, okay. If you haven't heard yourselef, you sound very much like an ass." 

" Oh, I hear myself. This is all very intentional." 

" I hate you." I told him with every bit of madness within my body.

" If you really hated me, you wouldn't have done what you did this morning. If-" He paused to smirk at me. " If you know what I mean." He chuckled.

" You are a total piece of dipshit!"

" I love you too, Bree." He did not just steal my line. I fumed. Alot.

There was a knock on the door and we both stood up. We gulped and slowly inched our way over. I opened the door to see a smiling Laina. 

" Hey you guys! I brought food! So like my mom took me to this really expensive Mexican restaurant. It was the best food I've ever had! I got you some enchiladas Bree, and Asher I got you the fried icecream. Well, you're going to have to share that and-"

Asher cut her off. " Laina, we need to tell you something." the smile on her face slowly dripped away. The mole twitched a tad.

" What is it?" she kept looking back and forth at our worried faces. We bowed our heads, unable to get out the words. " What. Is. It. Come on, you can do it." 

" We've kissed. Twice." Asher took charge. She looked at us back and forth again, a smile climbing upon her lips. She bust out laughing as if it was the funniest thing she'd heard all day.

" Laina, he's telling the truth." 

" So, this isn't a joke?" We shook our heads. " Why'd you do it? Huh?!" 

" Well, I felt sorry for her after your party and I guess when I was holding her crying... it just happened..." 

" Things don't just happen, Asher, okay! You kissed her for a fucking reason! Why did you do it, dammit?!"

" I-I- I'm in love with her."

" What?!" Laina and I screamed at the same exact moment. 

" Yes. I meant to tell you, Laina. I really did. But with your birthday coming up and everything going on... I never got the chance to." 

" You could've just blurted it out instead of kissing my best friend first! Why in hell would you do that? Because you're a guy?! I love you, Asher. But I don't think I can anymore! I thought you loved me too but, I guess I was unbelievably wrong." she lowered her head and Asher reached out to touch her but she flinched back.

" Don't touch me! Just- just go to hell!"

" But, she kissed me back! And alot more than I thought she would if you know what I mean." Laina looked at me with more pain inherited eyes than I've ever seen.

" Did you?" she used her most calm voice. " Did you, Bree?" all I could manage was a shaky nod. She backed away, hand on her mouth, and ran into the door. " Why? Y-you're my best friend. I-I don't, w-what's your problem? You knew I loved him! Yeah, like you said, it might not be love but I believe it is! At least it used to be. You know what, screw you! Screw you both! You said I could trust you... but, also something you said, you can't trust anyone." she had tears running down my eyes with her fierce words. " I guess maybe hidden in those words was that I can't even trust my best friend. Take the food. I'm going now..." with that, she left. It felt like I'd never see her again. 

I ran up the stairs. Asher kept calling after me, but how could I answer back? It's his fault that I possibly no longer have a best friend. I know I've made the situation worse in some ways but he made the first move. I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. 

Heartbreak

I've been in my room for three days now. I can't get out of my funk. You know how when you lose someone or something that's so dear to you that you can't seem to function anymore? It's like you've lost a part of you. It's as if you've lost everything that makes you smile during the day. By the time you've dealt with it long enough, you begin to lose yourself and who you are.

Without Laina, I feel as if I have lost my other half. I feel broken. Laina and I have been like sisters ever since we were born. Our mothers were best friends until my mom became a lunatic and a crackhead and a total ass and just... crazy. Anyways, I've been calling and texting and emailing and inboxing and voicemailing-voicemailing isn't a word by the way if you didn't recognize he he ha ha- but she won't answer. Total emptiness I tell you! Totally empty! I cannot even eat. I think I lost some weight. That's a bad thing because my figure is sexy. Not to brag or anything, he he ha ha.

Someone knocked on my door but I couldn't bring myself to answer. They knocked again but nope, not answering. They knocked again, not realizing that I wasn't going to get up. People these days just stay confused. The person at the door barges into my room with a delicious looking tray of food. 

" Eat. Now." Asher told me. It wasn't exactly mean the way he said it but I didn't necessarily like it. I've been avoiding him too. Matter of fact, this is the first time I've seen him since our fight with Laina. Also, he looked about as bad as I felt.

He placed the tray in my lap and sat down on the edge of the bed. The plate had pancakes, scrambled eggs, bacon, and grits. My mouth watered at the sight and I dug in. This is heaven! An angel should just come and take me away. 

" Well, I'm guessing you like the food. You eat like a pig." I looked up and growled.

" Just don't say anything, okay?"

" Um, why?"

" I just don't wanna hear your voice. So shush."

" How many times do you have to hear it. It. Was. Your. Fault. Too." I ran my hand down my face.

" I. Know." I said mocking him. " I just don't feel like talking."

" Sure. Whatever. Too bad that doesn't matter because Gabe said you have to come downstairs."

" What if I don't want to?" I was finished with my food and Asher came over and swung me over his shoulder. "Dude, what's your problem?!"

" Not my fault. Your brother wants you downstairs." his voice was emotionless.

" Get the hell off me!"

" On what part did you not realize that you're on me? Are ya slow, darling?"

" Don't be a smartass! Just let go! On what part did YOU not realize that I have legs and feet?" He set me on the floor at the top of the staircase. 

" Oh, see I realized that when you wouldn't get out the bed for three days... darling." He smirked, and not nicely. 

" I hate you." I barked.

" Feeling's mutual." 

I trudged in circles around the spiral staircase and sat down next to Gabe at the bar in the kitchen. My brother was eating or something like