Secretly Mine by Me =/ (the gingerbread man read aloud .TXT) 📖

the fuck?' I shrug at his and signal for him to answer.

He clears his throat and says, "Sure. Yeah." I smile at him, for show as people take their phones to spread the news. I sigh and excuse myself to the bathroom. Tears threaten to spill over the edge as I make it to the bathroom. Shit. I forgot to take my meds! I hear the bathroom door open and stop mid pace. I turn to see Jackson.

"You do realize this is the girls bathroom, right?"

Ignoring my question, he asks, "Whats wrong?" Hmm I dont know... Maybe that I have this overly stupid crush on you and I want to date you for real but you'd never agree to it or feel the same way. I publicly humiliated myself for you and I doubt you care because no body does. I hate myself and wish I could die. Other than that, I have no idea! I think to myself but sigh before I answer.

"Nothing." He opens his mouth to speak but I push past him. Walking into class, all eyes are on me but I do my best to ignore them.

"It's all for popularity."

"I bet he's cheating on her with someone better."

"Why would he date her?" 

"20 bucks she's pregnant and its his."

"Slut."

"Its out of pity."

I hear these and more on the way back to my desk and have my wolf turn my emotions off. I stare blankly at the front of the room, ignoring Jackson who tries to get my attention the entire time.

Chapter fourteen

 ~Jackson~

 

Alex was in the last four of my classes and ignored me in all of them. The last bell rang and she was out the door. She goes to her locker and I can tell she's turned her emotions back on because they fill her scent again. I stand by her, her locker door being the only thing separating us. She shuts her door and slightly jumps at the sight of me but judt shakes her head, ever so slightly and turns to walk away. I grab her fore arm to make her turn to me and she winces. Weird.

"Fuck off Jackson. I'm already playing the part as your girlfriend, isnt that enough?" She spits out at me.

"Whats wrong Alex?" She scoffs and pulls out of my grip. Running outside she gets in her car and pulls away. I sigh and start the 8 mile walk. About half a mile in, a familiar car pulls up on the road near me and I hear the door unlock. I hesitate but get in. "Alex please. Just talk to me" 

"No." She says.

"You just did." I reason and she rolls her eyes.

"Look. It doesn't matter. I'm fine. Just in a bad mood. So leave it alone." She growls so I shut up. When we make it home her dad tries to talk to her but she growls at him too before going up to her room. 

"Alex!" Her dad yells angry and starts to go after her but then Blair says something to him through their bond. They make no effort to hide that they are communicating like this, but since they aren't saying it out loud it obviously mean they are hiding something. Dylan face turns from angry to understanding and goes back to looking at some papers. Alex comes down a few minutes later and goes to hug her dad from behind.

"I'm sorry dad." 

"It's fine sweetheart. I understand. Just... Tell us before you do that again." She nods and I'm instantly confused. She turns to me but looks at the ground.

"I'm sorry Jack." I smile at her and when her eyes finally lift again she smiles back.

 

 

Chapter fifteen

~Alex~

 

"So why were you in such a bad mood?" Jackson asks from where he is on my bed. I shut my book and sigh, contemplating on what to tell him.

"Just... People being people. Made me mad."

"When don't they though." We say in sync. I look up at him and start laughing. We start watching Dirty Dancing and then 47 meters down. Jackson was screaming a lot of it and I just laughed. Being the nice person I am, the next movie I put in was IT. 

"Why have we been watching so many movies the past few days?" He asks me during the previews, not knowing what was to come.

"Comfort food is good for female business." I state making him jokingly gag. I roll my eyes and press play. My stomach hurts by the end of the movie, from laughing so hard. "Dude it isnt that scary!" 

"Yes it was. And you are evil." He glares at me.

"Aww thank you! You're so kind!" I get off my bed and bow.

"What am I going to do with you?" He sighs and flops back on my bed. I pick up the food and bring it back downstairs, expecting him to be gone when I got back. But I was wrong.

"Why are you still here?" I ask him.

"Because. I am. I'm going to have nightmares because of you so you are going to suffer too." I laugh at him and hop on my bed. 

"Well, sweet dreams." I wink at as he rolls his eyes.

"Hardy har har." My best friend snuggles up to me, and I realize that I really, really like him. Ugh.

Chapter sixteen

~Jackson~

 

I wasn't actually going to have nightmares, but I wanted to stay next to her. We've been sleeping together for a week and its kinda become normal. I know, it's such a short time but still. 

"Get out." Alex shoves me out of her bed and I land on the floor with a thud.

"Gee thanks." I huff.

"Anytime." She winks and I roll my eyes. I reach up to her night stand drawer to help me up. I accidentally pull it open when I'm half way up, but before I can see anything in it, she slams it shut. I look down at her confused but she just answers, "Umm... Diary. Open. Drawer. Ugh. My dairy is open in the drawer..." Her heart beat seems to increase more and more every second she waits for my answer.

"Oh... Sorry." She shrugs and her heart slows down. I can only still hear it because of my increased hearing. I leave her room, still wondering if she was telling the truth. I dont think she was, but its not my place to press. I quickly get dressed before rushing down stairs. "Do you know what Alex has in her night stand drawer?" I skid to a stop in front of Dylan and he looks at me like I'm crazy. He pausing for a bit so I can tell he's talking to her. 

"Yeah. I can show you later if you want." 

"Cool. Thanks." I go back up stairs and finish getting ready. I'm sort of excited for later...

Chapter seventeen

 ~Alex~

 

When my dad told me to hide the pills I knew Jackson didn't believe me. I hide them under my bed and rush out the door. I quickly retreat and put my journal in the drawer to make it more believable. Lets hope this works. It was only when I has already left for the run when I realized... The blade. I run back as fast as I can but its too late.

 

~Dylan~

 

 The kids get home from school and Alex asks to go for a run, as planned before hand. I lead Jackson up to her room and go to her nightstand. I open it and have him look at the journal.

"She said it was open." He argues.

"She closed it." I state having him back up a bit. I rummage through it quickly to make sure he can look through it. Something catches my eye, until I realize what it is. I snatch it up, furious and let him look. He does and sighs.

"Fine..." We walk downstairs and I look down the stairs as the door flies open with a scared Alex in it.

"Alex. A word?" I point up the stairs and she slowly follows me. "What the hell is this?" I yell after slamming her door.

"Dad I'm sorry..." She starts but I cut her off by grabbing her arm and yanking the sleeve of her hoodie down. Her entire forearm and some places above that are either covered in scars or red lines. I do the same to her other arm and she starts crying.

"Where else?" I demand her to answer with my alpha command but she still fights it. "Where. Else." I repeat and this time she cant fight it.

"My arms, stomach, legs... Anywhere I can hide really." She sobs. 

"Oh baby..." I wrap my daughter in my arms as she sobs hugging me back. I start crying also... I haven't cried since the day she was born.

"I'm so sorry dad... I love you..." She chokes out.

"I love you too baby girl."

 

~Jackson~

 

Standing alone in the kitchen since the others are shopping, I faintly hear their conversation, when they are yelling. It quiets down for a bit, before they comes downstairs. Dylan has his arm draped over her shoulder as her leans into his