Falling Apart by Astrid R (whitelam books TXT) 📖

I want to-…

“Do you like him?” Albert interrupted my thoughts and I quickly pulled my eyes off of Kenneth. I wanted to punch his mouth for interrupting my view but I guess it would look too obvious if I’ll continue.

“What are you talking about?” I tried act innocent but my action earlier betrayed me.

“Don’t play dumb on us. We saw you looking at him like his a god.” Delvin added, smirking at me while winking to Albert.

I know I’m too obvious the way I checked him out and if I will deny myself they would tell Kenneth so I nodded. I thought if I admitted they would be happy or tease me but both of them sighed.

I looked to the both of them, “What’s wrong is that a bad thing or a good thing?” I asked watching their cute sad faces.

“I don’t know. I’m not the right person to tell you.” Delvin murmured looking on his drinks.

I looked too my side and Albert quickly looked away, “I’m not either.” He shrugged and takes a sip of his beer.

I don’t know if telling them is the right thing to do. But I’m pretty sure there was something about Kenneth that these guys don’t want to share it with other people.

 

Chapter Nine

I sat on the bench outside in our house, in the middle of our garden. Beautiful flowers were everywhere and I love the blue sky that lights down the earth. I love having a peaceful time on my own.

My parents were away to work and my brother and his friends went to the shopping centre to go shopping. I never thought that guys love shopping as well.

I swing my feet back and forth and I jumped out of my bum when a guy sat next to me. I turned my head to the side and saw Kenneth wearing his black sunglasses and wore a black button down shirt.

I was surprised when he sat next to me and happy as well, though I put up my all of my strength to not show to him my creepy smile. “Hey, I thought you went shopping with my brother?” I asked trying to put my straight face.

He shrugged and looked down on his shoes, “Yea, I went home early. I hated shopping.” His voice was so manly and sexy and I was to just sat in here and listen to his voice.

I bet he’s a good singer.

I stared in a wild flower that planted beside the bench. “Oh, I figured.” I whispered and there was an awkward silent between us.

I cleared my throat, “When did you meet my brother?” I started a conversation.

A strange sexy smile was placed in his pinkish heart-shaped lips. “When Albert and I walked towards the gym, in first year of college. He almost gets into a fight.”

As soon as I heard his last sentence, I absentmindedly stood up from the bench and stood in front of him. “A fight?” I choked a little from saying the word.

My brother isn’t a violent person, he even hate it when we aren’t talking because of a food.

Kenneth was surprised with my action and he removed his sunnies and hangs it in his small pocket of his button down shirt. “Hey, calm down woman. Guys always get into a fight.”

He sounded a little bit harsh to my hearing but I calm a little when I saw his emerald-green eyes sparkled from the sunlight.

He patted the bench beside him and he continued, “He is a good man and I saw myself in him. Until we became friends-…” he stopped and looked up at me raising his eyebrow.

See, even him can do that, why not me?

“What are you doing?” he asked biting the side of his bottom lip.

Damn, he looked so sexy in that.

I looked at him dreamily and stayed that for like a minute and I snapped out in reality. My cheeks redden from embarrassment and I slap my forehead really hard. “Oh, yea, right!” I stammered, bending my knees to sit beside him.

I saw him from the corner of my eye that he was gazing at my every move intensely. As soon as I sat down my butt, I dare to look at him and I realised that we’re so close at each other that our face nearly touching.

He looked away and cleared his throat, “As what I was saying, Bradey is good man. He knows what is right and wrong and I have some attitude that we shared together.” I finished looking up the bright sky.

I snorted, spreading both of my arms behind me in the bench. “You sounded like a gay.” I muttered and regretted when I received a creepy stormy gaze.

“Sorry.” I apologise and looked away mumbling some words in Spanish. “But seriously, you really are.” I continued and paused for a second looking back at him, “Are you?” I asked, praying that my observation was wrong and he is a real man not a real woman.

He quickly sat up straight and looked back at me. “What? Hell No! I’m a real man. I don’t want to waste the gift that God gave me and just destroy it and turn into a creature that wasn’t made for me?” his voice was a little bit louder than his normal one and I just looked at him biting my nails. Feeling stupid for letting my big mouth took over my mind.

I smiled weakly and he sighed aloud. “I’m sorry.” His apologies and I just keep muted and promise myself to never act stupid in front of him.

We stayed silent for a moment and he continued his story. “When he said that he had a younger sister, I promised to myself that I would take care of her same as he taken care of you.” He emotionally whispered and I swiftly looked at him with sparkling eyes.

Does that mean there is a chance that we could fall in love? I thought to myself and continued listening.

“That’s why I don’t want you to come closer to Blaine. He isn’t a right guy for you.” He paused and we stared each other. “Blaine only love girls for his bed and he didn’t give a fuck if what will happen to them. For him, girls are just a rubbish that he can throw anywhere at any time.” I can hear the hatred in his dark voice.

I nodded and looked at him with worry. I wanted to ask if what did Blaine do that makes him have such a big hatred towards him but decided not to. I’m not in the right position right now to ask such a personal life of his.

I nodded and before I regret it, I already spit my words out of my mouth. “I promise to not fall on his trap and I promise to behave myself.” I oath in front of him and held my open palm up as a sign of my promise.

He laughed and I laughed along with him. Watching and hearing him laugh makes me feel like I’m in a cloud nine, floating above the bright blue sky.

Chapter Ten

Since my small conversation with Kenneth in the garden, my feeling build up even more to him. Every time we talked and he complimented on my looks I always blushed and sometimes I was being clumsy in front of him.

It was so embarrassing!

We’re getting along really well and our friendship were official since yesterday after going shopping for the fun day this coming Sunday and I am so excited to see Kenneth in his swimming trunks.

My brother planned the place and he said we are staying for 1 week in Sydney at Bondi Beach. How exciting was that?

Blaine didn’t bother me anymore. He said he met a fucking hot girl in the shopping centre and he was fucking her to death. Uh-uh that’s Blaine’s word, don’t blame me.

Today is the second day before we will go to Sydney and my brother throw a party in our house. My parents allowed him to do whatever he wants just don’t break the expensive vases from abroad. That was mum’s words, she always told Bradey about the vase because Bradey is the clumsiest than me.

I’m just clumsy when Kenneth was around.

“Iris, what are you going to wear tonight?” My brother asked and from his voice, I already know what his next words are.

“Don’t wear too slutty.” My brother and I said it together and I felt like we’re in sync. “Yea, I know, I know.” I rolled my eyes and walked towards the kitchen wanting to pour my dry throat with cold water.

“You should be. You don’t know what will happen if you tried to disobey your brother.” Kenneth added walking towards the fridge he leaned a little bit closer to my back, “And I don’t want a blood in my hand.” He whispered and I shiver a little.

The tone of his voice makes me confused if he meant that as a protective brotherly way or in the other romantic way. I find controlling myself really hard when I was around with Kenneth. Sometimes my hormones were going crazy and I wanted to jump him down in bed and hand cuff him in my bed until I die.

I jump out a little when I realised Alia was standing beside me, looking at me like I am her favourite movie and was playing her favourite scene. “What are you doing? You scared me to death!” I playfully pushed her and walked to the stool at the bar counter inside the kitchen.

“Oh did I? Sorry,” she apologise mockingly, “I was just watching to my sister doing her day dreaming with Kenneth.” I quickly shush her and covered her mouth and checked the area if someone was listening.

“Can you please not talk about him when we’re outside my room?” I angrily said whilst lowering my voice.

She gave me a wry grin and I wanted to kick her butt for being so stupid. “Anyway, I’m here to ask you something!” Alia said while pouring herself a drink.

I looked towards her and I really wanted to raise my eyebrow but I still can’t do it and I surrender. “What!” I said in a bored tone.

“Umm… Can I borrow your three porn DVD tape? Marky and I will have some fun tonight.” I accidentally spit out my drink in front of her face and my mouth fell open and my eyes widen.

“Shit… I’m sorry.” I pulled out a tissue behind the counter and tried to wipe her face but